Kee Yaa Suu

Home. 2 weeks.

What I love about being home:

1. I feel complete

2. Umi and Abah

3. I can laugh out loud. Like seriously loud

4. Comfortable bed.

5. I am not afraid.

6. Late nights. Anything could happen.

7. The mosque in front of my house.

8. TV

9. My bank lives in the house. Abah, again.

10. Shopping with Umi, baking with Umi, cooking with Umi and watching 'drama Melayu' with Umi.

Have I told you I return home for study weeks?

Yes, I am. Trial approaching near. Gottago.

A sip of break

Status: Being addicted to update the blog regularly although you have bertimbun-timbun homeworks and upcoming tests nearly is one of my symptoms of "oh mai gad, lusa nak balik rumah".And yes, I am in the mood of nak balik rumah. 

Music: Hall of Fame by The Script ft Will I Am.

Heloo people! (Does this sounded excited?)

Oh hoi, I just returned from the Manifesto Night of batch 15.0, well, the candidates for tonight are running for President like it is a must to be there. Both candidates were amazing, a round of applause for Zawani and Marina. I can't say much about it as I myself not really outspoken in college but I have a huge respect for those who brave enough to sit on the couch on the stage to present your manifestos. Well done.

Oh, I got a question coming in my inbox.

Some people (a person actually) asked me, why are you writing your posts in blog mostly in English? Do you use English that much in your daily activities? 

Well it is a brilliant question by the way, thank you for asking. My answer to that is, no, I do not frequently use English in my daily conversation with anyone or anybody. The point is there, I am not using it in my daily activities but yet I learn English for well,, since kindergarten. It is waste for not using it. So I use it in blog instead for the very least, yes I finally used it. Was that answering the question? Well, since I was in the primary school to secondary school, I live in Kelantan which is my mother-tongue language is not even a proper Malay, so what to expect, of course I used the dialect in my daily conversation. The chance to use English is probably wide opened since I came to Ky which people do use English. Then, I started to get use of conversing in English with my chaletmates as they use it and I need to. And I have to get band more that 7.5 for Ielts exam in order to fulfill the criterion of the medical schools in Uk and what not. Not forgetting that I have interviews with the medical schools which are then made me bear in mind that English is a serious matter. Other than that, I am just fine.

Next issues, have you heard about Galway Medical Symposium? I heard it when there were so many seniors posting about it on fb talking about going to Galway during the weekend to attend this event. And thanks to Kak Ain, she wrote notes during the event to be shared. Visit her blog here!

Other than that, I have had two lab experiments today. Chemistry for chromatography and Bio for testing for immobilized enzymes. And that shortened my blocks for today, 4 blocks burnt happily as I always love experiments!

Can't wait to go home. Yeayy!

We're in this together

Selamat

Status: Dats it, sebulan duduk rumah,bukan study yang makin banyak, makan jer banyak, pastu tengok tv. HAH. Nampak keburukan duduk kat rumah di situ? (salah aq jer pon sebenarnya)

Diet. Tempoh masa 6 bulan. *more or less haha

Alhamdulillah, habis sudah kelas pertama di semester keempat. Kejap. Sumpah kejap. Pergi kelas, balik kelas, dah malam. This six months are not going to be long. Nak habis dah Syifa. Nasib baik semua kelas hari ini terasa macam ada 'drive' and lepas balik kelas, the feeling is not "ah, it's over for today" but "I have to do more before tomorrow". Dan dengan keizinan Allah, moga-moga perasaan semangat nak study itu kekal setia sehingga hujung nyawa. 

Pagi tadi seperti biasa, terserempak jer budak Medic, senyap-senyap tanya, "Dapat interview kat mana?" Bukan apa, hanya medics yang mengenal medics. Eh. It is not just about you, it is about us. Tadi, bila dengar kawan dapat 3 offers interview from ucas tambah plak dengan Eire, happy tu macam aq pulak yang dapat, betol tak tipu. Semoga kami dapat buat yang terbaik untuk interview nanti. Tapi lain pula bila dengar rakan yang until now, no news heard. Kalau duduk dengan mereka lama-lama, aq menangis kot. Maaf, emosi aq sejak buat A-level Medic ni semakin sensitif dan hormon pun tak stabil. What can I said to them is, "InsyaAllah, ada rezeki nanti dapat jugak tu, don't give up". Eh terasa macam cakap pada diri sendiri. 

Takut. Cuak. Biasa la tu. Bila teringatkan senior-senior tahun lepas, betapa kuatnya mereka. Even, ada yang dapat offer sewaktu exam A-level. And ada jugak yang dapat placement selepas results. Sabar, sabar, sabar. Allah itu Maha Pemurah. Study hard is not enough, you have to pray hard as well. 

Surah Ghafir [40:17]

Sahih International

This Day every soul will be recompensed for what it earned. No injustice today! Indeed, Allah is swift in account.

Malay

"Pada hari ini, tiap-tiap diri dibalas dengan apa yang telah diusahakannya; tidak ada hukuman yang tidak adil pada hari ini. Sesungguhnya Allah amat cepat hitungan hisabNya.

Bismillah..

"Ya Allah, engkau permudahkanlah urusan pelajar-pelajar perubatan batch 14. Semoga kami semua mendapat yang terbaik.."

Tolong aminkan yer.

Study! Study! Study!

Tard Dans La Nuit

Bismillah..

Status: My 'day' started at 12 am and above. And now is 3.05 am but I am like a little kid who just woke up from bed and ready to play.

Music: Every You and Every Me by Placebo

Watch Merlin season 5 just now, I was a bit confused, why was Gwen want to kill Arthur? And why was she suddenly closed to Morgana? Was Elyan dead already? Arghhh,, all of the questions are kind of disturbing me. I knew that I had missed some of the episodes but being this clueless made me want to google it and watch all the previous episodes. Huh.

And before that I watched the finale of The Amazing Race season 21. It again disappointed me as I was hoping that the Chippendale guys to win it and the very least hope to be that the goat farmers win. And yes, they won. 

HAH. No more team Adam! The Voice season 3 had announced their Top 4. Unfortunately Melanie and Amanda Brown had been eliminated. I was never a fan of them actually, I just love Adam Levine. haha. Then, my final choice will be either Cassadee Pope or Trevin Hunte. Let Shelton and Cee Lo fight to their death. I am okay with any possibility.

Well, the actual reason for this posts is to talk about my nephew is coming tomorrow. DANISH! Yeah, I have to babysit him while her mom aka my sister have to practice for her bowling tournament. The last time I babysat him, he sat on my back while I was laying on the carpet, surfing the internet, then he put his toy-airplane on my hair. That toy has a spinning-wheel and it pulled my hair. It turned out that I had to scream for help and ask my younger sister to get a pair of scissors to cut my hair. And what Danish dis was laughing so hard without any quilt that he forgot that her mom was not there anymore. That is the reason why i love babysitting so much.  You will never know what adventurous moment that you'll endure. 

Danish. Trouble is a friend.

So bored now. Finished watching The Wizards of Waverly Place. Gotta go. Kinetics is waiting.

Till then, au revoir.

Ohoi weyh!

Status: Seisi keluarga tengok match bola Malaysia lawan Siam Thai.

Music: Creep by Radiohead

Ow yess, tajuk ala-ala nak menyeru seantero rakyat Malaysia kan? haha~

Dah lama rasanya tak update blog sebab hati sentiasa tak gembira. People said, if u want to write things, be happy first! Because you will not end up write unpleasant things for the readers. So, semenjak dua menjak ni, I am not very happy. Why? Tak moh cakap, nanti spoil mood.

Well, the reason why I am writing this, because my besties-who-was-my-deskmate-in-school came to visit me at my house this morning! I was very excited. Imah is coming!!! Hehe.. I missed her so much, and for your information she is now a first year medical student at Royal College of Medicine Perak (RCMP), hah, ala2 RCSI gitu.. Jelous2, as she already started her journey as a medical student but at the same time I am a proud-happy kawan. She brought me fruits. Eheh.. We talked for hours, about life, about the updates of our classmates and etc... Basically our gambo cant be uploaded here because I used my camera's phone, therefore I am too lazy to connect the phone to this lappy, for highly enthusiastic enough people who want to see my Imah, you can go to my instagram page.

Arghhh, sesungguhnya cabaran paling besar adalah cabaran masa lapang.

Bismillah..

By time,

Indeed, mankind is in loss,

And for that reason and for the vow that I already made to make this holiday is a productive one for me, I had make an alliance with Amni to study Chemistry together. Tomorrow, our tutor whom we imported from University of Liverpool, degree in Chemistry, sponsored by KPM, our beloved Kak Fiqah, will fetch me at my house and Amni from the bus station to go to her house. Hah. nampak tak berdaulatnya kitorang siap tutor plak yang datang jemput, eheh. InsyaAllah we'll be spending our nights at her house. May Allah eases everything and purify our niat. Amin...

p/s: I will be going to BigBadWolf booksale at The Mines next weekend people! Sila jeles! hahaha

Helium filled!

Saturday.

Hye hey hello and behold!

Two more papers. I won't say that I am excited to death. Well, Biology is a major headache. It is a brain-cramp subject. It requires tonnes of spaces in your right hippocampus in order to digest all of the facts. I swear. But I do not know why, I do not hate it. In fact I love learning'em. It is on this Tuesday and paper 1 is on 13 of June. Arghhhh..

Mengucap panjang. 

The day I met Madam Harlina to confirm whether she would be my reference writer, as she is my tutor, she said "It's tough actually, well, I do not teach you, so I do not know you very well, do you mind to ask one of your subjects teacher perhaps to write it for you?"

Headache. Again.

Subject teachers? Ermmmm... Well, I got Miss Aizan for Maths and she claimed clearly that she do not write the reference letter. Miss Ann is my current Biology teacher, but she is very new and fresh, this is her first year of teaching A-level. Madam Faye for Chemistry? She is indeed an active and awesome teacher. She is in my list. And Mrs Beadsworth for psychology, as far as I've been informed, she is going to retire in July so maybe not. Oh wait, how about Mr Vroege? He is a great teacher but.................

Yeah. I had been very confident and that was the step of 'berani mati'. I saw Mr Vroege entering the Biology's Department and I stood up outside the department trying to calm myself. Take a deep breath. For 15 minutes I stood up, menyusun ayat yang proper, hoping that Mr Vroege would agree to be my reference writer. Then, dengan lafaz bismillah dan dengan penuh yakin, slowly I walked to his table.

Conversation!

I: Good morning Mr Vroege! Are you busy?

Mr V: I always busy my dear, but not when you are around. Yes Syifa, what can I help you?

I: (My heart was hyperventilating at this moment.... Sumpah nerves tahap 7 petala) Errr... Mr V, do you mind if I ask you to be my reference writer? (Jantung dah gugur bergolek-golek di atas lantai...) 

********* 

Mr V: I normally write only for Oxbridge candidates. Are you that brilliant?

**********

Pengsan. Kadar oxygen debt sudah terlampau tinggi akibat inaerobic respiration yang infiniti. *Black-out.

HAHAHAHAHA

Sudah la. Aku nak baca Bio. Makin lama menulis makin tinggi tahap ke'merapu'an aku. Good night peeps!

An Obligation

Bismillah.

Study study study

I have not enough time.

Speed up.

"Allah with those who work hard"

Sorry for the un-reply messages, texts, and others.

I am free after 13 June. Thank you.

self-navigation

 Wednesday it is. Dinner tonight, chicken chop! How yeah.

Psychology paper 2 and Biology paper 1 trial tests tomorrow.

Stalk meja kiasu, yerr, bersepah saya tahu.

Fell in love? Love the real thing,  please. 

I had a story, to be shared, I use to have a symptom of 'approving-denial-syndrome' which is a kind of disorder that I experienced to avoid seeing a reality that fears me to death whenever I came across the the reality in my mind. The feeling of intimidating about a future that I have to go through. So, I kept it only in my mind, pretending that i have no idea about it. Errr,,, confusing huh?

It is distractions. Approving distraction in order to get rid of any possibilities of getting hurt or fear of the results or outcomes. Once the actual time came for you to face the denied reality that you had created, you cringe. I mean, I was. 

Giving up something the heart adores is one of the hardest battles we ever have to fight.

Get it? It is hard to let go. We,a normal human being. Loving too much things that we adore is a norm. Till the day or time, we need to let go, we feel terribly sad. Possessive. 

 As humans, we don’t deal well with emptiness. Any empty space must be filled. Immediately. The pain of emptiness is too strong. It compels the victim to fill that place. A single moment with an empty spot causes excruciating pain. That’s why we run from distraction to distraction, and from attachment to attachment.

 He is always be by our side. You too can feel it if you take time, or at least give your heart a chance to feel Him within us. He is there to guide. Don't be sad. La tahzan. Difficulties are just tests. Tests to make us stronger. The world is cruel by human's rule. But nothing is cruel or arduous by His rules. He is The Most Forgiving and Caring. Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim.

Why does that happen? Why do we have so much trouble sacrificing what we love for what God loves? Why can’t we just let go of things? I think we struggle so much with letting go of what we love, because we haven’t found something we love more to replace it.

I am more happy to share a link where you can read this magnificent article by Yasmin Mogahed

Fall in love with the REAL THING

 

Sahih International

[The time of] their account has approached for the people, while they are in heedlessness turning away.

Malay

Telah hampir datangnya kepada manusia hari perhitungan amalnya sedang mereka dalam kelalaian, tidak hiraukan persediaan baginya.
(Al-anbiya':1)

A simple reminder from the holy Quran. Are we ready to be there yet? Astargfirullah.

 Re-programming my navigation system (muhasabah diri) is what I am doing right now. InsyaAllah, improving to become better and better.

"Nabi tak pernah ajar umat baginda tentang 'sudah terlambat'. Kita tidak pernah terlambat. Jika esok kiamat, hari ini ada benih dalam tangan, tanam jer benih tersebut. Tiada masalah."

 ~Ustaz Don Danial~

Remember the words. It is never too late.

Pray for my success tomorrow. ^^

May Allah bless you.


p/s: Tadi dapat tahu ada gegaran gempa bumi di negara jiran, impaknya terasa sampai ke Malaysia, magnitud 8.9 katanya. Semoga kita semua dalam perlindungan Nya. Amin.

Wresting

Bismillah.

I know this is not easy. But nothing is impossible. Gonna work hard to achieve my mission. 

"I always, always, and always have Allah by my side. So I am not going to give up."

^^

Subhanallah wa bi hamdihi subhanallah hil azim.

(Jadikan amalan ek!)

Rasulullah menerangkan bahawa ada satu amalan yang ringan dilakukan, tetapi mempunyai timbangan amat berat di sisi Allah. Amalan itu ialah ucapan Subhanallah wa Bihamdihi dan Subhanallahil Azim. Ini dijelaskan dalam sebuah hadis, daripada Abu Hurairah, Rasulullah bersabda: Dua kalimat yang ringan diucapkan dan amat berat di dalam timbangan serta dicintai oleh ar-Rahman adalah Subhanallah wa Bihamdihi (Maha Suci Allah dan dengan memujiNya) dan Subhanallahil Azim (Maha Suci Allah yang Maha Agung) (Hadis riwayat al-Bukhari dan al-Muslim). 

Trial, I'm coming

Flight at 8.00 am. Jumaat. 

May Allah eases everything.

Pray for my success!

Fainted

Status: Awaken. After being bashed with pails of clean water.

Bismillah.. 

Today is Monday. Tersedar. Bukak-bukak ni trial doeeeh! Panik. Tak nak dengar bila balik Ky, "Weh, aq tak study lansung kat rumah" Lepas tu mula la bersengkang mata malam-malam dalam chalet dengan berbekalkan coffee three in one. Cuba bayang kan yang ko nak habiskan semua syllabus AS tu dalam masa satu malam. Tak logik, tak logik. *dah terasa kena tampar belom?

Past years dah buat? Aq ingat lagi senior-senior masa minggu induksi lagi dah pesan, "Nak excel dalam exam, past years wajib habes buat. Khatam lagi baik!" Sapa setuju, angkat tangan! Foinneee.... Kononnya dah paham laa kan? 

Bio. Teringat akan Mr Vroege dengan tiba-tiba. Walaupun beliau tidak lagi mengajar aq, terngiang-ngiang jer dalam kepala nasihat beliau sewaktu dalam kelas. Err... not to mention dengan maksud yang cukup menikam jantung, buah pinggang, bertubi-tubi rasanya...

"You are not doing CIE just because you are forced to. CIE is for somebody who are willing to cope with difficulties and sacrifices. If you are weak, I recommend you to quit. If not, stop being a woman!"

*mahu pengsan sekarang tak?

Back to reality. Kate boleh buat. Bolehnyer laa.. Positive. Predicted grade chemistry based on this trial weh!(yang len pon aq raser memang amik result trial. eh, ke salah?) Sedor banyak-banyak! 


MAN JADDA WA JADDA

Wahai seniors yang dihormati, sesiapa yang baca laa kan.

Tolong bagi nasihat/brainwash kepada junior mu yang kerdil ini. Lempangan-lempangan secara mata pen juga dialu-alukan. 

Firman Allah SWT bermaksud:”Sesiapa melakukan kebaikan samaada lelaki atau perempuan,semuanya akan mendapat kehidupan baik didunia dan akhirat serta mendapat balasan baik daripada apa yang mereka lakukan"(surah An.Nahl,ayat 97).

Good Job Big Clap

Jie double 'O' di, Jay o bi. *repeat twice sambil tepuk tangan

Maaf. Random. "Papp!" Kena tampar sekali lagi.

Day 1 : starter should be CHEMISTRE

Ding dong! *Open the door

Watcha doinn? (Phineas and Ferb's style)

Pick one topic, and read. Electrochemistry it is. The basic of all, I am sure you guys know the terms which are anion, cation, cathode, anode... etc.

Wallaweh, I am still gonna write it here anyhow. As far as I concern, I ain't a good storyteller. So, it might be a one boring post. Sorry okok.

Cation: positively charged ion formed when atoms lose electron

Cathode: negative electrode

Anion: negatively charged ion formed when atoms gain electron

Anode: positive electrode

I read about the electrolysis things. For simple electrolytic cell, I am quite sure most of you are common with it. It is simple anyway. Then, should I share about Brine? Ok I should. The electrolysis of Brine. For beginning, Brine is a concentrated sodium chloride solution and yeah it is salt. As it is concentrated, it is used to preserve veges. fruits. 

Above is the diagram for diaphragm cell electrolysis of NaCl. The porous part for the diaphragm is not clearly seen in the diagram. But trust me, it should be porous. For the anode, do use titanium electrode (left -hand-side) and steel electrode for cathode(right-hand-side). When the brine goes in from the LHS, at the anode, it attract cation which is chloride ion. As the ions involved in this electrolysis are hydroxide ion, chloride ion, hydrogen ion and sodium ion, the only ion left at the LHS is only chloride ion.  The remain three ions are passing across the diaphragm and reach the RHS which is the cathode side.

Products:

At anode: Chlorine gas is released

At cathode: Hydrogen gas is released

In the end, sodium hydroxide is taken out from the process. Why NaOH? Due to the reaction happens between the sodium ion and hydroxide ion. at the cathode compartment.

Oh yeah, why we are using the porous asbestos diaphragm in our diagram? Because we want to prevent the sodium hydroxide (NaOH) reacting with the chlorine formed at the anode. That's why we channel em to the cathode's side.

I think that's all kowt. Dapat kan the picture for what I am reading today? To write all, this would be the longest post ever lah, so I summarise it as simple as I could. 

Ya Allah peliharalah ingatan hamba mu ini. Ameen.

Weekend again...

Status: Randomness awesome

It is weekend in Ky. Happy! I love weekend in Ky. But I would be alone again this week as for 'bebudak silat" are having their trip to Janda Baik. It's okay lah. It is not like I doesn't have anything to do right? My schedule are packed! 

I got two tests coming up this Monday. Chemistry and Psychology. So, tonnes of notes to be 'scanned'. I have my Bio practicals undone. I have two Maths chapter to be cover. And two essay to be done with five articles to read for my Ielts. I got taekwondo's practical on Sunday. See, I told ya my schedule is packed! 

I eavesdropped two person were talking at the cafe,

Boy: Why don't you take medicine instead. You are smart dowhh.

Girl: "Na-hhh,,, although so many people got and did medicine but not so many who survive"

I was like...... staring at her and "we'll see..."

“Dan orang-orang yang berusaha dengan bersungguh-sungguh kerana memenuhi kehendak agama Kami, sesungguhnya Kami akan memimpin mereka ke jalan-jalan Kami; dan sesungguhnya (pertolongan dan bantuan) Allah adalah berserta orang-orang yang berusaha membaiki amalannya.” [al-Ankabut, ayat 69]


My words when it comes to weekend: " Yeah cuti!! Banyak masa nak kemas bilik, tengok movies, basuh baju, lepak-lepak!"
Ayat normal budak Ky bila weekend: "Yeah cuti!! Banyak masa nak buat homeworks, revises, nak cover balik chapter bla bla bla..."
Did you see the differences? (*__*)

Sayonara 1st sem exam

Refleksi, amik pengajaran, work harder.

The more your efforts, the more you'll get. Hypothesis accepted.

~Keep moving forward~

Nak balik ke tak yer Raya Aidiladha neh... Seems too late nak amik tiket bas kan.. Tambah2 bila Kak Nisa ngan Kak Adah bersungguh-sungguh bagi nasihat, "Menyesal raya kat Ky, balik laa, nanti  tak pasal sayu, sedih jer di pagi raya,, balik laa" Oh my..... Dah rasa membuak-buak nak balik ni... Yer laa kan sepanjang 18 tahun aq bernafas di atas muka bumi Allah yang indah ini, tak pernah sesekali aq beraya kat tempat lain selain Kelantan.. Dan tak pernah sesekali keluarga aq tak buat qurban, selalunya raya Aidiladha ni laa yang meriah, semua family members balik beraya... Macam mana yer? Patut kah aq balik?

Aq dah col umi, tanya boleh ke tak aq balik ngan Mak sedara aq. Klu boleh, aq tumpang jer Cik Su Ra yang kat Bangi then blah balik Kelantan kan.. Transport balik ke Lembah Beringin, tengah usha2 kakak nyer si Fad, mana taw dapat free lift. We'll see.. Klu plan tak menjadi, redha laaa Raya kat Ky neh... isk3 

"Dear heart, please be strong.."

Hujan lebat di bumi Ky, through my window ke arah kampung Topaz.

Esok ada program dengan super seniors.

tajuk,

P/S: I Love You.

Love who? Love Rasulullah

Two papers to go. To be frank, I was terrible.

Salah diri. Salah saya. Saya hampir putus asa.

Sounds weak huh? Kinda laaa... 

People compares, so do I.

Tapi bila fikir, "apsal nak compare? ko tak tahu efforts orang len, ko taw efforts ko jer kowt."

But I am not a 'giving-up' person. I may feel weak, hopeless at some time but

it's time to re-gps my mindset. I am better than this, I know I am. 

Hari-hari col umi,

Aq: Umi hari nie paper....... (bla bla)..... Umi doakan Afa deh. Suruh abah doakan Afa jugak.

Umi: Doa kan sopmo doh nyer.... Buat yang terbaek jer.

If I said, I xbleh buat paper.... (blabla), then she said, "Tak pe, takpe, fikir kan yang next paper plak, Yang lepas tu amik pengajaran" 

Mom's words are always comforting. Minta maaf umi, Afa tak buat molep2 exam. Nanti Umi, cubit Afa sebab malas kat rumah masa study week  yg lalu deh.

Hujan, terpaksa dinner ngan maggi. Paper 1 Bio menanti pada hari Isnin.

K Bai.

Time for WAR

After seminggu kat rumah for study week,, wlaupun bukanlah 'study week' sangat pun. Non-stop next week aq akan berhadapan dengan sem-exam. My first sem-exam. Don't give up before berjuang. Watever the result is, aq takkan sdeyh (mcam dah dpat jer gambaran nyer camne kan...) dan aq takkan compare dengan orang len.. Sbb aq tak taw efforts orang len, tapi aq taw efforts aq. Chill =P

Bak kata Kak Miera, "seteruk mana pun result korang, move on jerr, xder laa sampai xleh hidop bagai, nak mati, nak kuar kolej.. Buat jerrr."

Malas ahhh nak bermadah-madah panjang neh, especially nanti naek bas malam ni, mesti bebudak se-Ky ngan aq mention, "Aq xsentuh buku lansung doewww!", "Eleh, rilek rrr,,, aq pon tak kiasu gak", "Balik Ky kter kiasu laaa", "Ehhh,,, takowtnyerrr banyak lagi tak tahu niii...".

Percayalah korang, yang berkata sebegitu adalah mereka yang dah habis 4-5 kali hafal buku sudah.

Jangan terpedaya.

Hidup tak terhenti dengan penyesalan.. (Apsal aq epik semacam neh?)

Gambo Masjid kat depan rumah. (gambo diamik menerusi tingkap bilik Kak Cik) Tempat aq membesar, bermain hide&seek, tempat berterawih, tempat solat, tempat bermain beskal... Balik Ky mesti rindu masjid.... uhuk3....

Oh ya, semalam aq bersemangat dengar khutbah Jumaat, (melalui tingkap bilik jerr )

Imam ada memetik ayat dari surah Al Ahzab:72

Sahih International

Indeed, we offered the Trust to the heavens and the earth and the mountains, and they declined to bear it and feared it; but man [undertook to] bear it. Indeed, he was unjust and ignorant.

Malay

Sesungguhnya Kami telah kemukakan tanggungjawab amanah (Kami) kepada langit dan bumi serta gunung-ganang (untuk memikulnya), maka mereka enggan memikulnya dan bimbang tidak dapat menyempurnakannya (kerana tidak ada pada mereka persediaan untuk memikulnya); dan (pada ketika itu) manusia (dengan persediaan yang ada padanya) sanggup memikulnya. (Ingatlah) sesungguhnya tabiat kebanyakan manusia adalah suka melakukan kezaliman dan suka pula membuat perkara-perkara yang tidak patut dikerjakan.

 Banyaklaa lagi yang beliau explain, but the keyword is there, "Sesape yang pegang amanah, peliharalah ia sebaek mungkin, sebab semua amanah tersebut akan disoal di Padang Mahsyar kelak". Best doeee cter Ustaz ni kongsikan.. Tapi aq xpandai nak cter kan balik. Sorry adek kakak sekalian.

(Rahsia: Aq ngan Husna penah stay kat tempat solat muslimat di Ky, masa solat jumaat. Sebab nak dengar khutbah drpd Ustaz Malikie. Secret taw, jangan bagi taw org len! Shuhhhhh)

Bas pukul 9.30 malam ni ke Tanjung Malim

Doakan selamat pergi dan sampai yer =)

Bismillah,....

Study Week

Status: Konon laaa kan....

Aktiviti: Mix and terabur...

Saya rajenn sebenarnya.... Saya kan nak jadi doktor.... Tapi......

Memetik kata senior Omar Khalilurrahman di FB,

"The awkward moment when a college gives you a one

week study leave, but the place you can really study 

is in college"

Dan juga kata2 seorang senior ky yang amat peramah dan berguna,

"Ohh chill lah, sem exam jer kot, x pnting sgt pun.

(mau keno bunuh aku ore lain tau ________ oyak gini)"

Dan Kak Rain berkata,

" Oh come on,,,, waktu after 1st sem exam, hampir 95% jumpa mr azman 

sebab xlepas point. huahua"

(Ucapan2 diatas tidakku tokok tambah yer)

Adakah I mudah terpengaruh??

Study, study, study!

La yukallifullah hu nafsan illah wusaha...

Ayat hari nie:

Sahih International

And Allah wants to lighten for you [your difficulties]; and mankind was created weak.

(4:28)

Tensed Up. It's on!

Status: Ditinggalkan seorang diri lagi as usual weekend neh di dalam chalet L45 , Sapphire Village, KYUEM.

Mood: sugul.

Music: Lagu Hindustan

Bismillah...

Banyak benda berlaku dis week.. Sports Carnival, tests, practical, Ticer Yatt, MYC approachim near.. 

Paling sdeyh: Ticer Yatt, my beloved ticer... Dah xder.. Innalillahiinnalillah hirajiun... Miss her already.. Yer la kan,,, selalu lepak ngan beliau kat staff room, selalu x siap homwork beliaw sbb she was so baekkk, merengek-rengek minta nak ke Makmal Best every single English lesson, mintak she belanja makan kat kafe Kak Zan, kluar ngan beliaw ke KBmall ngan budak2 Alpha, celebrate hbes SPM, I can even remember stiap detik ngan beliaw... I noe my classmate would feel the same kan? ='(

She was my class teacher during form4... Form 2 and form 5 pon blajar ngan beliau gak..

May Allah placed her kat tempat para syuhada... I will always pray for her..

TQ  Allayarham Ticer Yatt... 

Paling sibuk: Sports Carnival... perghhhh,,, totally messed up kan my schedule..  I maen Volleyball doo... hahaha~ Ripleys believe it or not? ibaratnyer laa kan... Tpi klu nak dikirakan efforts 'tukang sorak' I bnyak gak  laa membantu... hehe~ Hey guys, you should see budak2 Ky maen basketball, agressive gler.. Macam tngok NBA pon ader... (btol, seyes tak tipu!) no exception for boys n girls. Dua2 maen cam lipas kudung, cpat gler... See, even I yang serba tak tahu psal basketball pon jadik exsaited tak bertempat.. haha

Paling dizzy: Chemistry! I sdeyh laa taw especially bila orang compare2 kan kita ngan orang len.. I taw I slow sket, but seriously I try my best catching up, mner  bleh nak comparekan aq ngan si budak Alvin ngan Jason tuu, dorang national scholar, 100% marks tu dah selalu... Aq realise sper aq...

But I wont give up! InsyaAllah dipermudahkan... Allah sentiasa membantu hamba-Nya yang berusaha. So, aq kene up kan lagi usaha aq! yeah!

Paling perit lagi memedihkan: Sewaktu Faye tayangkan predicted grade kat slide ngan masa dpat surat markah yang akan dihantar kat sponsor ngan parents... *collapsed 

MYC (Muslim Youth Camp): tak sabar rsernyer nak pegi... hihihi~ semoga pelbagai ilmu dapat ditambah nanti... dapat kuar dri Ky plak tu.. ehehehe~ Astargfirullah, btolkan niat.... 

Aq nak buat special thanks sket, kepada Elinar Yasmin, Diyana Amalina, yang banyak bagi semangat kat aq, supports sumer.. Kak KD yang ade jer nasihat bliaw bagi kat I.. Terima kasih semuanya.. I seyes sayang kat korang semua. Ukhwah till end insyaAllah =)

Raya, Raya, Raya

Motif title dibuat raya 3 kali sebab hari nie hari Raya yang ke3 =)

Status: Omworkssss lansum tak siap.....

Music: lalalala~ 

Mood rayer lagi ek?? hehehe~ Sajer I nak buat post psal rayer sket neh... How's your Raya??  My raya was marvellous as always laa kan... Frankly speaking, for me, dalam hati biasa-biasa jer...Yang best nyer the whole family gathered, and the main part this year was ktorang wat bigwork/bekwoh/ajak orang makan,,, ktorang sembelih kambing sendiri taw, then kerja2 dapur, menumis smua tu, satu family cooperate bagai aur ngan tebing... cewwahhh, mesti bangga Ckgu Azemi nie,,, hehehe~

Tipikal raya, maen-maen tak hingat sampai I lupa  homeworks list yang udah beku dalam beg I... Alamakkkk! tinggal esok sehari jer lagi, hari Sabtu dah bertolak dahh, pagi plak tu... Aiyooo.... 

Homeworks list:

1. Bio- kene baca chapt3 ENZYME, siapkan structured quests biological molecule.

2. Kemisteri- Past years quest yang berhelai-helai banyaknya, dengan note intermolecular bonding sumer tu..

3. Psaikologi- dua essay yang aq lansum tak tahu nak buat macam mna... benda2 Tajfel ngan Piliavin tu..

4. Maths- memang aq rilek gler sampai buku pun lupa nak bawak balik padahal kerja glerrrr bnyak...

5. IELTS- yang ni lagi satu... essay biographical ngan nak ulas satu buku yang kena baca tu... (errr... nak ulas apenyer, baca pon belom...)

So yeah, this year's Raya bnyak btoll events, apart from bnyak rumah yang kena pergi.. cuti tak sampai pon seminggu.. sob3.... Camne eh? orang kata "after raya laaa full-swing kiasu.." Nak kiasu ape nyer, omworks pon tak siap? Istighfar... Salah ko gak Syifa oiiii...

Wlaupon begitu, aq amat terharu mnerima kunjungan sahabat-sahabat Farisian hari ni di rumahku... Yer la kan,, aq xder laa m'jemput ramai orang, tpi dorang sudi datang tanpa dijemput (hehehe... seriyes okey aq mnerima kdatangan dorang dngan pintu terbuka!) 

meh cni nak 'bold'kan nama2 sahabat aq neh

Tojo, MatJoe, Akin, Bey, Adil, Peli

Sesaper lagi yang ber'interested' nak datang umah aq, hari esok ader lagi taw! Sila-sila! acait,,, ter'promote' plak... hehehe~ Meh rr smua, esok makanan lagi special tawww!

p/s: tak raser nak balik Ky lagi =( 

Bler mood kiasu menjengah

Status: Okeyh sedeyh doo, xleh buat test Maths.. Markah chem pon agak suam-suam kuku jer... Arrrghhhh~

Music: Asma al Husna

I nie kan xder laa rajin sangat,, cuma hardworking jer... (errr bukan ke sama jer maksud nyer tu???) Yes, it is so hard to re-schedule kan balik jadual belajor yang mantap sperti zaman kegemilangan budak-budak SPM dulu.. Hadoiiii~ (I tak mngeluh okey,, cuma wondering jer) Kat Ky neh, wlopon bleh bergolep-golep sesuka ati x mo buat omwork kejadah sumer tu,, Alhamdulillah, rser tanggungjawab bserta amanat mseh ader dlam lubuk hatiku ini... I'm a A-level student, orang sponsored plak tu,, commit! commit!!!!!!! My abah pesan "Belajar btol-btol, krajaan dah bayar banyak tu nak tanggung Afa belajar" Sedangkan Abah sudah memesan inikan pula diri sendiri... I selalu remind myself yang I tak blajar free ni, I have a big responsiblity, I have to serve to Islam, nation, family and more importantly myself! 

Oleh sebab xnak bilik I bersepah, I sepahkan common room chalet I! wahahaha =)

Nak tulis note to myself laa:

"Dear Syifa, please don't be malas-malas! Jangan sesekali be i n the comfort zone, tak semestinya tngah buat A-level dah guarantee bleh fly. You'll have a long way to go, and this is a new phase beginning... Amik pengajaran bahawasanya if you tak lpas cut-off point sponsor and tak exceed requirement uni, you're finished. Buat yang terbaik for AS and A2. Susah- susah jer nanti kne resit paper! So, give all out tros! Don't simpan-simpan!  Contohi yang dah succeed, anggap inferior as challenges to compete. You know you can do it because Allah already trust you in the first place! Have faith in Him."

I'll leave you guys with one of my favourite ayat! Take time to btol btol hayati the meaning. So, whenever you  guys feel sad, remember my dear, Allah is always make things easier for you. =)

Sahih International

And those who strive for Us - We will surely guide them to Our ways. And indeed, Allah is with the doers of good.

 ~Al-Ankabut 29:69~

The dice rolls again..

Status: The class had started, traffic jammed in the brain once again. 

And here it goes, classes, lectures, pindah randah ke labs, berkejar-kejar waktu lunch, kene kerah buat bangsawan, taekwando practise, cari buku, beli buku, calling umi abah, kejutkan orang bangun subuh, surau tempat menenangkan jiwa and etc.....

Well, my body, whole systems start to adapt. I mean going to.... Dis is wat we called college life or wat. But I certainly enjoy every lessons in the class. Kesian subject yang last period, becoz my limit is only until 3 kowt =P

Mr Vroege for Biology, Miss Faye for Chemistry, Mdm Aizan for maths, Mrs Beadsworth, Mr Ravi for ICT and I had no idea who gonna be my IELTS teacher next week. =)

Chaiyokkk, chaiyokkk! United Kingdom wait for me two years more ekkk!