Thursday, May 31, 2012

Wrong move

Bismillah.

Mood: Ohoi,,,, Sdeyh nyer dalam hati sebab tak dapat balik rumah. *lagu P.Ramlee di'M.DaudKilau'kan.
Music: When the rains fall down

Okey, I had to admit that I do have a sense of regret right now for now listening to Husna's advise. She will probably smiling with I-told-you-so face if she do read this post. Yeah well, I deserved it. HUH. Husna had been asking me for four to five times whether I want to join her for 'balik kampung'. Sadly I said NO. I am not sure to myself what was the reason for so-called confident answer padahal aq nak balik like crayyyzeeee! Last night, I called Husna who was on the bus, and she informed me that the ticket is sold out. What a news.

Laptop. 
Virus. Why. Virus. Why. 
I just format it lat December, now I have to re-format it again. Again I told ya. This is what will happen when a beginner in gadget-world being assigned to take care of a lappy. Destruction. Errr.. Hopefully not. Amin, hopefully not. 

Abangman is at home now, if I went home, the probability of problem will solve is 99.9%. And this Sunday he will return to Shah Alam which might take quite some time for another return-home. So, again, I regret it. My technician is gone!!!

What's made it worse is, I forgot that this Saturday is Kak Cik's birthday. 2nd of June people! Argghhh... And since Cik Sura, my lovely aunt, was at Kelantan, they plan to celebrate the birthday trio this Friday, oh, it is tomorrow! Waaa..... Sdeyh sumpah sdeyh. Nak jugak join birthday party ramai-ramai kat Rumah Maa. Mesti best. Both of my elder and younger sisters birthday. And I miss it. *crying. 

Background laptop dah dalam mode berkabung. (tak percaya tanya Amni ngan Nabila). And tomorrow, black it is. Babai.

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Pink

Mood:  I'm coming home, I'm coming home. Yeah. I lie.
Music: Stay


I hate when people ask for opinion, but the way they ask are much more like I have no other choice except to nod my head for what they said. It is a reverse reaction. You gave me answer for what you asked. How ashamed. 

Wrap it up. Almost done here, err I mean for AS. One paper to go which is lucky paper 1 Biology. Say hello to MCQ. I still need to finish my presentation for Malaysian Study. May Lee has been waiting for ages for my part. Poor her, but she is a very kind and tolerable girl indeed. *tabik

I have a thought. 
People can be different in many ways. Those who talk a lot might not be good at recognising others' emotions. Those who tend to choose to be quiet all the time may be good at expressing their feeling by writing, poetry, using quotations and so on. Because I met these people and they are really impressive upon playing their roles. They are unpredictable. Sometimes situational cue does have its own influence on how to manipulate a person's thought. People change according to places that they'd been admitted to. It is called adaptation. And there are zillions of ways how people can adapt to a particular places. They act differently at different places causing others to think that they might have multiple personality. But actually they are not. Fuhhhh.... Sumpah aq yakin korang tak paham. Don't feel bad to admit. Please do. 

Bagi konklusi la senang.
It is not about dispositional factor only that has an effect on a person's behavioural changes, please take into account situational cue as well.

Madah yang tak bleh blah pada larut malam. Abaikan.

Oh hey, Ramadan is approaching near! It is somewhere in this July. Considerably a month and half from now on. Oh yeah! Can't wait. I miss Ramadan, and with His kindness I am hoping to be able to meet with this year Ramadan. InsyaAllah.

Al-Baqarah:185
2:185

Sahih International

The month of Ramadhan [is that] in which was revealed the Qur'an, a guidance for the people and clear proofs of guidance and criterion. So whoever sights [the new moon of] the month, let him fast it; and whoever is ill or on a journey - then an equal number of other days. Allah intends for you ease and does not intend for you hardship and [wants] for you to complete the period and to glorify Allah for that [to] which He has guided you; and perhaps you will be grateful.


 Presentation MS on 1st of June.
MS exam is on 4th of June.
Biology P1 is on 13th of June.
Allah permudahkan =)

Kak Cik's birthday is on 2nd of June while Kak Yong's is on 12th of June.
Gotta to think of gifts to be bought.
See u soon!

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Helium filled!

Saturday.

Hye hey hello and behold!

Two more papers. I won't say that I am excited to death. Well, Biology is a major headache. It is a brain-cramp subject. It requires tonnes of spaces in your right hippocampus in order to digest all of the facts. I swear. But I do not know why, I do not hate it. In fact I love learning'em. It is on this Tuesday and paper 1 is on 13 of June. Arghhhh..

Mengucap panjang. 

The day I met Madam Harlina to confirm whether she would be my reference writer, as she is my tutor, she said "It's tough actually, well, I do not teach you, so I do not know you very well, do you mind to ask one of your subjects teacher perhaps to write it for you?"

Headache. Again.

Subject teachers? Ermmmm... Well, I got Miss Aizan for Maths and she claimed clearly that she do not write the reference letter. Miss Ann is my current Biology teacher, but she is very new and fresh, this is her first year of teaching A-level. Madam Faye for Chemistry? She is indeed an active and awesome teacher. She is in my list. And Mrs Beadsworth for psychology, as far as I've been informed, she is going to retire in July so maybe not. Oh wait, how about Mr Vroege? He is a great teacher but.................

Yeah. I had been very confident and that was the step of 'berani mati'. I saw Mr Vroege entering the Biology's Department and I stood up outside the department trying to calm myself. Take a deep breath. For 15 minutes I stood up, menyusun ayat yang proper, hoping that Mr Vroege would agree to be my reference writer. Then, dengan lafaz bismillah dan dengan penuh yakin, slowly I walked to his table.

Conversation!

I: Good morning Mr Vroege! Are you busy?
Mr V: I always busy my dear, but not when you are around. Yes Syifa, what can I help you?
I: (My heart was hyperventilating at this moment.... Sumpah nerves tahap 7 petala) Errr... Mr V, do you mind if I ask you to be my reference writer? (Jantung dah gugur bergolek-golek di atas lantai...) 

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Mr V: I normally write only for Oxbridge candidates. Are you that brilliant?

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Pengsan. Kadar oxygen debt sudah terlampau tinggi akibat inaerobic respiration yang infiniti. *Black-out.

HAHAHAHAHA

Sudah la. Aku nak baca Bio. Makin lama menulis makin tinggi tahap ke'merapu'an aku. Good night peeps!

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Bunga-bunga DOA

Bismillah..
Hai kawan-kawan. Hari ini 1 Rejab. Tahukah anda? ^^

Uhh terasa lama jer tak update kan kan? Tapi masa terasa seperti pantas memecut lagi pantas daripada pecutan mesin cahaya masa doraemon yang berkuasa cahaya. That is when we call it as 'the urgency'. Alhamdulillah sudah menapak tiga minggu menjalani exam A-level, AS. Kuddos to six papers and hello to the remaining four. Allah permudahkan. InsyaAllah. =')

I have coffee every night for the whole exam weeks. Huh.

Bunga-bunga doa.
That was the title for Majlis Fikir for this evening conducted by Ain, Syurah-mate. 

Antara yang diulas oleh Ain,

1. Doa itu adalah cara kita bermanja dengan Allah swt, Sang Pencipta. Yeah, we all know that He is the most knowing, Dia tahu impian kita, Dia tahu apa yang kita sangat ingin-inginkan, but He want us to ask from Him. Make du'a that we want the things badly. He want us to tell Him about the things that we want. Is it convincing enough if you want things, this and that but you never ask for it? So, don't hesitate to ask. Minta jer apa-apa, Dia Maha Mendengar.

2. Have faith in our prayer. We do not simply say things that we do not believe in rite? So, every time you perform prayers, yakinlah bahawasanya doa tersebut akan dikabulkan. Nothing will happens without His willing but kasih sayang Allah mengatasi kemurkaanNya. Have faith in Him, please do ^^

2:186
Sahih International

And when My servants ask you, [O Muhammad], concerning Me - indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. So let them respond to Me [by obedience] and believe in Me that they may be [rightly] guided.
Malay

Dan apabila hamba-hambaKu bertanya kepadamu mengenai Aku maka (beritahu kepada mereka): sesungguhnya Aku (Allah) sentiasa hampir (kepada mereka); Aku perkenankan permohonan orang yang berdoa apabila ia berdoa kepadaKu. Maka hendaklah mereka menyahut seruanku (dengan mematuhi perintahKu), dan hendaklah mereka beriman kepadaKu supaya mereka menjadi baik serta betul.


3. Sebab doa tidak dikabulkan, antara sebab-sebabnya ialah, meremehkan kekhusyukan dan kerendahan diri dalam berdoa. Berdoa dengan hati yang lalai, it shows that you are not sincere. It is like your friend is texting when you are talking to her. It is not polite and you will mad. So, imagine how Allah will feel when you do the same for Him. Pay Him the utmost respect.

4. Memenuhi kriteria seseorang yang doanya akan dikabulkan. Fahamkah? Okay, it's like this, this is an analogy. You are a brilliant student, all-rounder beb, all-rounder. But dengan sedikit kecuaian, you dapat 79 marks for your maths. You hope for the teacher's mercy to get at least an A. But unfortunately, you always skip the math class.Do you think that the teacher would give you one mark for an A? Would she? Back to Du'a. Kalau kita tidak memenuhi ciri-ciri garis panduan yang Allah tetapkan untuk kita as muslims, selalu tak solat, selalu ber'partayyyyy' malam-malam buta, but bila susah sikit jer, susah sikit sangat sangat bro, then mintak doa. Do you thing Allah would grant your du'a? You do not even fulfill the criteria pon. But we never know, as He is the most Generous. Tapi agak-agak laa kan, usaha kena ada, baru rasa licin jer nak berdoa. Kan kan?

5. But in the end, renungkan balik. Adakah kita diantara golongan yang meminta doa whenever we have problems and distress? How about when we are happy? Do we perform du'a? Yet, there are always boundaries  for those who are grateful and not. May He guide us all.


"Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pengampun dan Maha Menerima Taubat.
Sucikanlah diriku daripada dosa-dosa yang menyesakkan dadaku.
KepadaMu aku memohon dan hanyalah padaMu aku mengharapkan kasih sayang.."

Pray for me for the next four papers ya!
Chemistry p3, Maths statistic, Biology p2, Biology p1.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

On the way

I want to list down all the things that I am hoping to do in my life.
It is a remarkable achievement when you accomplish things that you want to do.

My ambition: Doctor. I am on my way. God bless


Alhamdulillah for all His blessings.
Thank you Allah.
You taught me life with your mercy and love.

Spread love.