Showing posts with label examination. Show all posts
Showing posts with label examination. Show all posts

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Miss me not

Missing you.

I miss the time when I woke up where the only thing in my mind was 'Am I too late for Dragonball?'
I miss the time when I waited for after Asar, so that i can go to the field, met up with neighbors, and start to play hide-and-seek, polis sentri, lompat getah and so many more traditonal games.

And today, the frequent thing that came to my thought after I woke up was 'I haven't finish studying yet'

So nerd.

I will never define myself as a nerd because I know so many things outside the circle of my course (not sure whether it is good or bad)  Well, the main point is, I said I wanted to update blog more frequent yet I never manage to do so. *sorry peeps

I'm going to Italy on 14th of May. Mmmm,, I am not really excited because fears surpass everything.
I want to do well. Really well.. So that I have no regrets. Hate regrets.
And I am going to return home on 12th June. InsyaAllah.

I am going to move out from my current apartment by the end of this month. To where? A house of course!!
InsyaAllah, 56 Wilton Court, Cork.

I haven't finish studying for my Clinical Examination paper tomorrow. So I have to go now. 

Flowers at Blarney Castle. Spring 2014

Till then folks.
Miss me not.

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Hey there Numbers!

Bismillah..

I have statistic paper on Thursday.
I am currently doing the exercises with earphone stuck in my ears.
I love maths, it is the only subject that allows me to multitask while doing it.
How cool is that?

Well, as always, pray for me ok?
=)

Monday, May 27, 2013

Paper 3 Biology

Tengah hari kat Ky panas gila weh.

Ok, bukan satu intro yang sopan.

Well, well, currently I am revising for my paper 3 Biology which is practical. Two hours of answering those confusing facts, expectations from the examiner.. Mmm.. I prayed that I am able to get A* for this paper so that I can cover the marks I get for my paper 4 and paper 2 Bio. InsyaAllah.. amin.. 

Esok, 11.15 till 1.30. I will be starving while observing the slide under microscope.
Who cares, A* baby!

Amin.
Tolong Amin kan plis.

Oh, lupa, I private kan my blog.
What the hell I am thinking.
Puffffff......

Saturday, May 25, 2013

Hampir habis A-level #1

Dearest, when I read this post, it was on the day that I finished answering my most frightening paper of all the papers I took for my A level which was Biology paper 4. Alhamdulillah, I think I have my made my best. Everything I have on my mind, I spill them out on the paper,, not literally. 

Alhamdulillah.

Yes people, when other candidates probably are counting their days to finish their last papers, I still have five more papers to face. And I don't feel bad about it. I will give my utmost to all the papers.

I have not more that a month to leave Ky. I am so excited. But I would probably sad on the day my friends and I have to bid goodbye. However, I really hope that we can all meet again soon in UK. Please pray for me... 

Well, I have statistics paper awaiting for me on the table. More post on sayonara KY will be coming out next. Hehehe.

Ya Allah, Alhamdulillah.

Monday, May 13, 2013

A-LEVEL

I decided to hide my blog. Why? Because I am not in the mood to share anything personal.
Currently I am having my biggest-written exam in my whole life, well until now at least. It is A-Level examination. I have 12 papers to face. I have a month and half more days in Ky, enjoying the last minutes studying, lepakking, eating and crying in Ky. I hope it will end with a happy smile.

I don't know the exact plan for my future. I am afraid and terrified. But I know, whatever HIS plans, they are something that I can bear. InsyaAllah. I am a strong girl you know. I think no one ever cried as much as me in Ky. For what reasons? Lots of them, and I will share them all someday. 

I hope that all will end well. No matter if I still have no placement when the Awards Day come, I will still say Alhamdulillah to Allah for this meaningful journey. As I stated in front of HIM that, I will do my very best and leaves everything in His hand. 

Alhamdulillah for this live Ya Allah, thank you for chosen me as your slave. It was a gift for me. And I am very happy and honored to serve for you, and Islam. 

"Ya Allah, strengthen my iman so that whatever consequences in the future, I can say Alhamdulillah as I knew that is what you'd give me."

I miss Ramadan. Hopefully to spend this year Ramadan with more good deed goes along with it. I miss Tarawikh, I miss sahur and I miss tadarus. And hopefully I will focus to seek more for His forgiveness and blessings.

May Allah protect me with any wronged niat or any proud feelings. 
Astargfirullah..

p/s: I'd done my very best for my paper 2 Biology just now. I will hope for the best outcomes...

Saturday, March 2, 2013

Go Go Gunners

Status: Deeply sad and emotional unstable. 
Music: Run by Snow Patrol

I should hide my face now. Yesterday, I promised myself if I got A for my organic test, I will reward myself with a new Arsenal jersey. And the test was this morning. And based on what I answered, A seems quite high to be grab. So sad. I want that jersey so bad.

Well, I think we shall wait for the marks.

And have I told you about another sad story about the new sweater I'd just bought?
Few months ago, I saw a very prettay sweater at the mall. And you know what I saw, I thought I saw a Liverpool badge on the left corner of the sweater. And it was blue in color. I was pretty sure that it was Liverpool. Well, although I am very much a Arsenal girl, but I do not hold any grudge towards Liverpool as it is my Abah favorite team of all time. Actually I did look for Arsenal's but I can't find it, so when I saw the Liverpool's, I just quickly grabbed it and went to the cashier. If it was Liverpool's, I thought of having my Abah pay for it and surely he didn't mind.

Unfortunately, when I returned home, it was not Liverpool's, but Chelsea's!!!!  Stressed! You have no idea how much I hated Chelsea. And yet I accidentally bought it. Why on earth  that I did not look at the badge properly? What was I thinking, it is BLUE! BLUE I said! It made sense rite, Chelsea=Blue. Liverpool = never blue. I felt so stupid.

And the consequence for that regretted event, I kept the sweater in my closet at home for about two months. Buried it with a crushed hope and dream in the closet. (I am that dramatic when it came to football) And only last holidays, I remembered about the sweater, and made me thinking, I was the one who bought it, and membazir adalah amalan syaiton ni rojim. Therefore, I took it and brought it back to college. Sadly yes, but at least it occupied me when I was too lazy to put long sleeve shirt on when my stomach was grumbling and I had to go to the dining hall. 

Although I hated when people asked me spontaneously, "Aik, asal Chelsea dohhh?", I think, I have to bear with it. Whatever. An Arsenal keychain is hung on my bag but I wear Chelsea's sweater instead. How ironic was that. 

Never mind, I knew I am always a Gunners. Just pretend that you see my case as Van Persie's betrayal to Arsenal and went to MU, or Henry's immigration to Barca long long time ago, or or Reyes decision to Madrid. Similar case huh. Whatev.

Tojo must be 'gelak'ing me when he knew about this story. Well, as if I am going to tell him. Memang tak la kan. Salam berhujung minggu.

Monday, October 1, 2012

October


Status: I decided to update my blog after so long.. Why no updates? I'd been through many obstacles and hurdles for the past 2 months. But He always guided me all the way. No worries =')


But I never stop walking. I am a strong girl! yeah!
People said, bad times only make you stronger, well I have to agree and move on and...


My Ucas application,
1. University of Aberdeen
2. Cardiff University
3. Newcastle University Upon Tyne
4. University of Liverpool
5. Sheffield University (Biomedicine)

I have every specific reasons why I choose for those universities. Certainly not putting my utmost hope for all of them but Allah knows best for His slave. Medic is one tough job. I will apply to all the medical school in every possible country. May Allah bless my path. InsyaAllah. And we'll see where will I be in September next year okay. ^^

My semester examination in less than a week from now. And after that Ielts examination. Band 8.5 baby!
Amin...

Thursday, June 14, 2012

The Curtain is closed

Alhamdulillah. All praises to Almighty God. 
Akhirnya Advance Subsudiary (AS) telah ditutup tirainya.
Syukur, syukur, syukur.
I had done my part half way, and what's left is to make du'a always for Allah will grants me all As in the exam. Amin, amin, amin,. ^^

Time to muhasabah for everything that happened for the last two sems. There were always up and down. I need to improve as I have promised myself to do so. Growing up and become more matured. Independent. No more seniors to keep me alarmed about all things that I'd missed. Gonna miss them. 

I called umi yesterday, and seemed like baby Danish already can talk with me through the phone! Well done Danish Donat! hahaha~ And had a long chat with abah. I miss my family. Tak sabar nak balik Kelantan. Yeay! 

wowfunniestposts:

WHAT LOLOL.
 laugh trip
Had a long day HA HA HA seeing this. Miss Abah.  Camni kowt abah
jaga kitorang dulu ='D

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Bunga-bunga DOA

Bismillah..
Hai kawan-kawan. Hari ini 1 Rejab. Tahukah anda? ^^

Uhh terasa lama jer tak update kan kan? Tapi masa terasa seperti pantas memecut lagi pantas daripada pecutan mesin cahaya masa doraemon yang berkuasa cahaya. That is when we call it as 'the urgency'. Alhamdulillah sudah menapak tiga minggu menjalani exam A-level, AS. Kuddos to six papers and hello to the remaining four. Allah permudahkan. InsyaAllah. =')

I have coffee every night for the whole exam weeks. Huh.

Bunga-bunga doa.
That was the title for Majlis Fikir for this evening conducted by Ain, Syurah-mate. 

Antara yang diulas oleh Ain,

1. Doa itu adalah cara kita bermanja dengan Allah swt, Sang Pencipta. Yeah, we all know that He is the most knowing, Dia tahu impian kita, Dia tahu apa yang kita sangat ingin-inginkan, but He want us to ask from Him. Make du'a that we want the things badly. He want us to tell Him about the things that we want. Is it convincing enough if you want things, this and that but you never ask for it? So, don't hesitate to ask. Minta jer apa-apa, Dia Maha Mendengar.

2. Have faith in our prayer. We do not simply say things that we do not believe in rite? So, every time you perform prayers, yakinlah bahawasanya doa tersebut akan dikabulkan. Nothing will happens without His willing but kasih sayang Allah mengatasi kemurkaanNya. Have faith in Him, please do ^^

2:186
Sahih International

And when My servants ask you, [O Muhammad], concerning Me - indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. So let them respond to Me [by obedience] and believe in Me that they may be [rightly] guided.
Malay

Dan apabila hamba-hambaKu bertanya kepadamu mengenai Aku maka (beritahu kepada mereka): sesungguhnya Aku (Allah) sentiasa hampir (kepada mereka); Aku perkenankan permohonan orang yang berdoa apabila ia berdoa kepadaKu. Maka hendaklah mereka menyahut seruanku (dengan mematuhi perintahKu), dan hendaklah mereka beriman kepadaKu supaya mereka menjadi baik serta betul.


3. Sebab doa tidak dikabulkan, antara sebab-sebabnya ialah, meremehkan kekhusyukan dan kerendahan diri dalam berdoa. Berdoa dengan hati yang lalai, it shows that you are not sincere. It is like your friend is texting when you are talking to her. It is not polite and you will mad. So, imagine how Allah will feel when you do the same for Him. Pay Him the utmost respect.

4. Memenuhi kriteria seseorang yang doanya akan dikabulkan. Fahamkah? Okay, it's like this, this is an analogy. You are a brilliant student, all-rounder beb, all-rounder. But dengan sedikit kecuaian, you dapat 79 marks for your maths. You hope for the teacher's mercy to get at least an A. But unfortunately, you always skip the math class.Do you think that the teacher would give you one mark for an A? Would she? Back to Du'a. Kalau kita tidak memenuhi ciri-ciri garis panduan yang Allah tetapkan untuk kita as muslims, selalu tak solat, selalu ber'partayyyyy' malam-malam buta, but bila susah sikit jer, susah sikit sangat sangat bro, then mintak doa. Do you thing Allah would grant your du'a? You do not even fulfill the criteria pon. But we never know, as He is the most Generous. Tapi agak-agak laa kan, usaha kena ada, baru rasa licin jer nak berdoa. Kan kan?

5. But in the end, renungkan balik. Adakah kita diantara golongan yang meminta doa whenever we have problems and distress? How about when we are happy? Do we perform du'a? Yet, there are always boundaries  for those who are grateful and not. May He guide us all.


"Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pengampun dan Maha Menerima Taubat.
Sucikanlah diriku daripada dosa-dosa yang menyesakkan dadaku.
KepadaMu aku memohon dan hanyalah padaMu aku mengharapkan kasih sayang.."

Pray for me for the next four papers ya!
Chemistry p3, Maths statistic, Biology p2, Biology p1.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

self-navigation

 Wednesday it is. Dinner tonight, chicken chop! How yeah.
Psychology paper 2 and Biology paper 1 trial tests tomorrow.

Stalk meja kiasu, yerr, bersepah saya tahu.

Fell in love? Love the real thing,  please. 
I had a story, to be shared, I use to have a symptom of 'approving-denial-syndrome' which is a kind of disorder that I experienced to avoid seeing a reality that fears me to death whenever I came across the the reality in my mind. The feeling of intimidating about a future that I have to go through. So, I kept it only in my mind, pretending that i have no idea about it. Errr,,, confusing huh?

It is distractions. Approving distraction in order to get rid of any possibilities of getting hurt or fear of the results or outcomes. Once the actual time came for you to face the denied reality that you had created, you cringe. I mean, I was. 

Giving up something the heart adores is one of the hardest battles we ever have to fight.

Get it? It is hard to let go. We,a normal human being. Loving too much things that we adore is a norm. Till the day or time, we need to let go, we feel terribly sad. Possessive. 

 As humans, we don’t deal well with emptiness. Any empty space must be filled. Immediately. The pain of emptiness is too strong. It compels the victim to fill that place. A single moment with an empty spot causes excruciating pain. That’s why we run from distraction to distraction, and from attachment to attachment.

 He is always be by our side. You too can feel it if you take time, or at least give your heart a chance to feel Him within us. He is there to guide. Don't be sad. La tahzan. Difficulties are just tests. Tests to make us stronger. The world is cruel by human's rule. But nothing is cruel or arduous by His rules. He is The Most Forgiving and Caring. Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim.

Why does that happen? Why do we have so much trouble sacrificing what we love for what God loves? Why can’t we just let go of things? I think we struggle so much with letting go of what we love, because we haven’t found something we love more to replace it.

I am more happy to share a link where you can read this magnificent article by Yasmin Mogahed

 21:1
Sahih International

[The time of] their account has approached for the people, while they are in heedlessness turning away.
Malay

Telah hampir datangnya kepada manusia hari perhitungan amalnya sedang mereka dalam kelalaian, tidak hiraukan persediaan baginya.
(Al-anbiya':1)

A simple reminder from the holy Quran. Are we ready to be there yet? Astargfirullah.
 Re-programming my navigation system (muhasabah diri) is what I am doing right now. InsyaAllah, improving to become better and better.

"Nabi tak pernah ajar umat baginda tentang 'sudah terlambat'. Kita tidak pernah terlambat. Jika esok kiamat, hari ini ada benih dalam tangan, tanam jer benih tersebut. Tiada masalah."
 ~Ustaz Don Danial~

Remember the words. It is never too late.
Pray for my success tomorrow. ^^
May Allah bless you.


p/s: Tadi dapat tahu ada gegaran gempa bumi di negara jiran, impaknya terasa sampai ke Malaysia, magnitud 8.9 katanya. Semoga kita semua dalam perlindungan Nya. Amin.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Wresting

Bismillah.


I know this is not easy. But nothing is impossible. Gonna work hard to achieve my mission. 

"I always, always, and always have Allah by my side. So I am not going to give up."
^^
Subhanallah wa bi hamdihi subhanallah hil azim.
(Jadikan amalan ek!)

Rasulullah menerangkan bahawa ada satu amalan yang ringan dilakukan, tetapi mempunyai timbangan amat berat di sisi Allah. Amalan itu ialah ucapan Subhanallah wa Bihamdihi dan Subhanallahil Azim. Ini dijelaskan dalam sebuah hadis, daripada Abu Hurairah, Rasulullah bersabda: Dua kalimat yang ringan diucapkan dan amat berat di dalam timbangan serta dicintai oleh ar-Rahman adalah Subhanallah wa Bihamdihi (Maha Suci Allah dan dengan memujiNya) dan Subhanallahil Azim (Maha Suci Allah yang Maha Agung) (Hadis riwayat al-Bukhari dan al-Muslim). 

Trial, I'm coming
Flight at 8.00 am. Jumaat. 
May Allah eases everything.
Pray for my success!

Monday, March 26, 2012

Fainted

Status: Awaken. After being bashed with pails of clean water.

Bismillah.. 
Today is Monday. Tersedar. Bukak-bukak ni trial doeeeh! Panik. Tak nak dengar bila balik Ky, "Weh, aq tak study lansung kat rumah" Lepas tu mula la bersengkang mata malam-malam dalam chalet dengan berbekalkan coffee three in one. Cuba bayang kan yang ko nak habiskan semua syllabus AS tu dalam masa satu malam. Tak logik, tak logik. *dah terasa kena tampar belom?

Past years dah buat? Aq ingat lagi senior-senior masa minggu induksi lagi dah pesan, "Nak excel dalam exam, past years wajib habes buat. Khatam lagi baik!" Sapa setuju, angkat tangan! Foinneee.... Kononnya dah paham laa kan? 

Bio. Teringat akan Mr Vroege dengan tiba-tiba. Walaupun beliau tidak lagi mengajar aq, terngiang-ngiang jer dalam kepala nasihat beliau sewaktu dalam kelas. Err... not to mention dengan maksud yang cukup menikam jantung, buah pinggang, bertubi-tubi rasanya...

"You are not doing CIE just because you are forced to. CIE is for somebody who are willing to cope with difficulties and sacrifices. If you are weak, I recommend you to quit. If not, stop being a woman!"
*mahu pengsan sekarang tak?

Back to reality. Kate boleh buat. Bolehnyer laa.. Positive. Predicted grade chemistry based on this trial weh!(yang len pon aq raser memang amik result trial. eh, ke salah?) Sedor banyak-banyak! 


MAN JADDA WA JADDA

Wahai seniors yang dihormati, sesiapa yang baca laa kan.
Tolong bagi nasihat/brainwash kepada junior mu yang kerdil ini. Lempangan-lempangan secara mata pen juga dialu-alukan. 



Firman Allah SWT bermaksud:”Sesiapa melakukan kebaikan samaada lelaki atau perempuan,semuanya akan mendapat kehidupan baik didunia dan akhirat serta mendapat balasan baik daripada apa yang mereka lakukan"(surah An.Nahl,ayat 97).


Good Job Big Clap
Jie double 'O' di, Jay o bi. *repeat twice sambil tepuk tangan

Maaf. Random. "Papp!" Kena tampar sekali lagi.