daRKness

mood: teringin nak minum hot latte~

music: theme music blog kak enin...

olmos a week right?? fuh... blurr and tired, awaiting for my 

'fairygod' brother to call me..  bnyak nak tnye neh! cpat lah call~

chickened out when I realised there are so many people out there

who I have to compete with... risaw~~

Ya Allah tenangkan lah hati hamba Mu ini...

dalam rumah yg serba gelap neh which I am the only person

yang still awake lg..

tiber2 jer rinduu my senior and also a sist to me

Kak Ainin Sofia.. I used to teman kak enin stay up studying

dlu kan kat hostel... she is my role-model taw!

kak enin,,!!! I still need your motivation words neh~

lacking of self-confident sesangat ni...

tolong Syifa plissss~~

p/s: pegi sekolah td for signing those copies of slip exam...

I choose it the way HE set it for me..

SALAM UKHWAH..

I'll think about it,, deeply and seriously

ni kire decision for my future undertaking kan?

so, I choose my course, and it is MEDIC..

I apply for MARA oversea,,

and I want to follow the lead of my seniors who are also my idols,,

~Kak Azie, Kak Ainul, Kak Ainin, Abg Puyid, Kak Fisza~

lots of them,, insyaalah, I'll pray for the best...

maybe zillions of hardship along my path,

I promise to never give up, even I have to crawl, climb the mountain,

my decision is FINAL!

once I am so afraid about what will I experience soon,

still, I believe in myself as I always put my 100% faith on HIM..

from my story,, I knew HE never let go His slaves who

work hard and pray...

x kire lah kat mana pon rezeki yang aq akan dpt soon,

aq akan sentiasa b'syukur to Him...

as Kak Eno said, rezeki ade kat mana2 jer,, as long as you

do your very best, insyaallah everything would be fine.

I owe you! ^^

aq memang tak kuat,, I need those advises from people around me,,

thanks to my seniors,,, 

forget to mention, abe Aiman and Kak Kam yg x putus2

give me the tips and so on...

p/s: still xleyh nak attach th upu form,, xthu nak wat camne ni, but still, never quit kan? insyaallah dipermudahkan.. I am going to choose medic jugak for my local study! ^^

muhasabah~

~SUBHANALLAH~

human memang x perfect kan.. 

I want to change so bad... hampir mnitis air mata ku.. bler t'kenang

how far that I go from the exact path yg spatutnya aq lalui..

astargfirullah..

that's it, next time you see me, insyaallah I 'd change for good

pray for me,, okay!

as I always say,, He knows the best for me..

Ameen~

Don't play with my BRAIN

HAZARD!!! HAZARD!!!!

mood tak normal skang neh, bleh membawa kpd sakit mental 

yang minor.............

nampak tak?? that is my brain yg mseh normal dan sihat walafiat

ntah bgmna rupanya klu ia hampir EXPLODE!!

akibat pening mngisi scholars nyer form plus the upu lagi........

headache yang amat.. sigh~

Who's that girl??

ASSALAMUALAIKUM you alll!!!! owh yeah!

haha~ starting yang xleyh blah b'semangat gitu.... okay, back to the basic laa kan..

ader aper ngn title??? WHO'S that GIRL?? apekebendaa ekk??

owkeyh, owkeyh, maybe ader yg ter'pop' out into mind psal Alexandra Potter nyer novel kan?

hahaha~ yg cover nyer camneh

owh, absolutely a nehi nehi guess,, but aq memang dah baca buku neh..

klu nak tnya aq, I would give 4 stars laa, sebab the story is quite interesting,,, cter nyer lucu2, bnyak gak aq

nak t'gelak and not to mention love story yg quite cute...

okay2, aq  kupas sket the plot, for those yg looking for interesting book to read...

cter neh psal Charlotte Mearyweather yg own a PR company... she has a great career, handsome boyfriend, car, and everything laa kan, tpi her life does'nt seem wonderful.. smpai laa one day, she met herself at age21..

then, berlaku laa some story kat situ, then she found out that she had a secret admire... and so on..

haishhhhhhh~

pesal aq leh buat preview buku plak ni???? homaigod! homaigod!

ngarut sumgoh~ hihihi.... owh yerr, about the title... ader sorang girl neh, she used to be the first person that I met kat my boarding school when I was in form 1.. she addicted to writing a lot! we sometimes fight, then we can't stand long fighting with each other,, to tell the truth, I love making her life miserable... hahaaha~

she is also my personal health consultant which taking care for my diet at hostel!!! 

now we are still best friend,, I had being informed that she wants to take the law course soon.!

"homaigod! are you going to sue me?? I'm sorry for reading your diary and love letter secretly when you were asleep!" hahaha~

great times! great times! but still I wish you the best in your life okay bud!

be a great lawyer tawww! insyaallah segala kenangan kter aq akan kenang ntuk di cterkan kpd anak cucu cicit aq nanty... muahahahaaha~

a BLESSING from HIm..

ALHAMDULILLAH..
the best word to start with... penantian dah berakhir, I got my SPM result today..
"sesungguhnya Dia maha mengetahui setiap yang berlaku ke atas hambanya"
Aq dah janji nak share kan?? well, here it goes..


As HE heard my prayer, HE knows my effort as well, then HE granted me
with HIS blessings.. ALHAMDULILLAH... praise to Almighty HIM..


I'd got straight 10 A's in my SPM examinaton.. yet, I still can't thank HIM enough..
HE had set a wonderful path ahead for me,, to see and walk on it..
then it convinced me more that HE always know the best for me..
when you work hard on something, then strenghten your faith on HIM after that,
believe me... You'll be relief. no matter what the outcome, 
He is nearer to your heart.. INSYAALLAH...

hahaha~ malam result lukis bende neh.. xleh tidow akibat t'lalu rsaw plus nervous..

klau nak tulis 'special thanks to' nie memang bnyak.. tapi xper laa kan..

~JUTAAN TERIMA KASIH~

umi ngn abah tercinta 'PN SARIHA DAN TN HJ ABD MANAN',,,, cikgu2 yang saya amat kasihi ~ckg Mad, ckg Ramli, Ticer Yatt, Ticer Norma, Ckg Rosliza, Ckg Aminah, Ckg Notterzam, Ckg Aishah, Sir Feen, Ustzh Suria~ ,,,, adek-beradek ku yang satu rahim ~kak yong, aboy, abangman, kakcik, adek~
,,,, classmates ku yg terBAEK! 5Alphashine 2010 ,,,,,, ahli2 dorm c2-1 iaitu pengawas yang memang sempoi! ,,,,, serta semua yg mendoakan kejayaan ku... terima kasih.

xlupa.. sekolah ku SEKOLAH MENENGAH SAINS TG MUHD FARIS PETRA..

yg menjadikan aq sbg manusia yang berjaya..

xkisah laa kan.. semuanya dah hbes.. aq kini berdoa agar aq ditawarkan biasiswa ntuk meringankan beban my parents.. impian aq ntuk melanjutkan pelajaran ke luar negara dalam bidang perubatan moga2 tercapai hendaknya... INSYAALLAH..... tahniah kpd semua kawan2 yg berjaya m'dpatkan result yg gempak..

to all my classmates, thniah!!! kter berjaya! all of us dapat 10 A, 9A, 8A jer..

ALHAMDULILLAH..


akhirnya aq dah berjaya catat sejarah diri aq yg aq dah target dm hidup ni..
UPSR 2005: 5A
PMR 2008: 8A
SPM 2010: 10A


okey, enough said! ALHAMDULILLAH once again..

hehe~ merosakkan SKRIN!

hahahaahahaa~
nak terbang tinggi-tinggi ah!
abg Menjah, jgn marahh yerr! ngeh3~
ADER aq KESAH??? :-p

first TAG for this blog... ngeh3~

1. Adakah kau rasa kau HOT?

last time check the temperature,, kat klinik Nik sebab demam,

mm.. 35 degree.. hehe~ hotkah??

2. Upload pic kau dari pc sekarang jugak!

3. Cerita la pasal gambar tu..

ni pic lamerr woo.. time nih umur ku baru16 taun.. wohohoo~

4. Bila kali terakhir kau makan ayam?

err,, hari sabtu 19 Mac, makan ~panas dan b'golep~ or namer saintifik nyer Hot and

Roll dngn Maryam Jamilah kat KBMall.. eh, ade ayam ker dalam tus??

5. Lagu terakhir yang kau dengar?

hehe~ lagu Because I'm stupid by SS501.. layan korea skang nehs.. I have a crush ngn

the band nyer leader.. Kim Hyung Joon.. hehe~

6. Apa yang kau buat selain menyelesaikan tag ni?

tengok cter paradise ranch walaupon t'amat laa x suke ngn heroin

nyer... naseb baek ader Changmin.. huhu~

muka dah blushing dahh~

7. Selain nama sendiri, anda dipanggil dengan nama apa?

Syifa, Cipa, Cipo, Ilyani, Afa..

most of them call me Syifa lah...

kurangkan skandal pada nama.. hehe~

8.  Tag lagi 5 orang!

saper yer????

1. Fatin Zulkifli

2. Aiman Lala

3. Fatimah Muhd

4. Syaza Syamimi

5. Sharah Ayumi

9. Siapakah No 1?

oowww... huhu~ my best friend forever, slalu mlepak tdow dlm dorm

aq maser dop asrama dlu.. 

10. Kutuk Cakap sesuatu pasal No 5 . 

homaigod... xley kutuk.. hihi~ sahabat primary school lg..

skang neh dah jadik model yg anggun lg b'gaya..

kalah Hanis Zalikha gitu.. woohoo~

11. Orang No 3 ada hubungan dengan sape?

wwaaw! yg ni amat laa femes... hehe~

countless, rmai peminat ni.. tapi rser nyer dier stay lagi kowt

ngn org Penang.. (correct me if I'm wrong yer.. huhu)

 12. Bagaimana pula dengan budak No 4?

wanita pujaan malaya yang neh! huhu~

seorg yg amat pandai b'gaya.. cikgu Suhaimi panggil dier

klon Mila Af.. ko guane Za??

14. Kata kata cinta untuk No 2?

haisshh~ gler nak bagi kate2 cinta kat dier ni??

hehe.. xley2, he is my big bro laa~

muehhh4.. nanti dkunci aq kat dlm toilet nanti..

16. Berikan 5 perkara yang kau tahu pasal No 1.

1. skang ni mnuntut kat UTP

2. pen. kelas 4 n 5 Alpha yg berkaliber

3. Ex- ketua floor Rahman

4. xley makan pedas2 amat cam aq nie

5. selalu balik prep ngn Aida Azira

17. Persamaan antara kambing dengan lembu.

both are mammals n daging2 dorang memang femes

especially klu time kenduri kahwin.. 

18. Perasaan ketika jawab test ni.

m'gigil ksejukan dalam balutan selimut sebab hujan turun

dgn lebatnyer... aww!

19. Gay or les?

maseh attracted kat boys lagi.. hehe especially member2 band 2pm..

homaigod! homaigod! dah lompat2 tergedik-gedik dah~

so, neither... huahahahah~~

credit to missmajaz.blogspot.com

coz men'tag'kan aq benda ntah hape2 ni kan.. hehehe~

SEEING THE FUTURE,,

running, cheering, climbing, walking...
all these steps are leading ahead right???
never feel tired of them.. as they are you're path..



keep walking.. if you fell, just hold on..
can you see the holder?
they are all along your journey...

KEAMANAN TERGUGAT....

SUBHANALLAH... can't think enough words to thank HIM...
my grandma is slowly recovering... ALHAMDULILLAH...
Praise to Almighty God...





dah lamer rsernya tak m'gedik kat blog ni.. yer laa kan, my activity recently is Nursing my beloved grandma kat hospital... hahaha... xder nyer aq nak mengeluh... coz she is the one who takes care so much about me...
sekali-sekala aq berbakti, dapat pahala besar woo...
kat hospital, seyes aq cakap, memang klu uolls tu penjaga,, there's nothim much uolls can do.. alih-alih dop perhatikan patients yg pelbagau ragam.... ader yg mengerang kesakitan, ader yg menangis sebab takut nak operations, ader plak yg b'cakap tu,,, sebatu dah bleh dengar coz hearing problem... macam2...


when I saw those panoramas, I thought a lot... we suppose to be thankful dengan keadaan kter yg sihat walafiat..
xperlu pergi jauh2 cam Jepun, Palestin, Afghanistan, Ghana ntuk tengok keadaan orang ditimpa musibah..
even the surroundings can give us the picture...
ALHAMDULILLAH is not a complicated word,, just say it.... senang2 jer pahala dah dikreditkan dalam akaun kter... x ker gitu???





Berbalik pada title... KEAMANAN TERGUGAT???
aish?? naper2? ada perang ker?? hahaha~
xder laa, actually, KEAMANAN hati aq ni yang teramat laa TERGUGAT skang neh...
mcam dlanda tsunami+earthquake+gunungberapi kt Mayon dah...
laaa... uolls kan thu RESULT SPM akan kuar 23 Mac nie....
Ya Allah... HOMAIGOSH!! HOMAIGOSH!!
berdebarnyaaaaaa jantung hati ku......


syes aq cakap, aq xthu nak rasa apa dah... let it be...
skang neh aq berdoa agar m'dapat result yang cemerlang... aq dah muntah smua ilmu, nota2, exam paper sets, blood circulation system, neurone2, impulsive force, pascal principle, redox reaction,  logarithms, hwangho sampai ke mesir purba. balik smula ke zaman reinassance....
bak kater.... memang smua ah... 
walaupon ader few papers yg crash kat tngah jalan, dtambah dngn roadblock hati yg kcaw...
aq dah buat yang terbaik... ALHAMDULILLAH...
kini, aq b'serah kat DIA.. syukur dengan segala ape yg akn diberiNya... 
He always know the best for His slaves..
have faith on HIM.. ape-ape pon, terima dengan REDHA and IMAN...
insyaallah, you'll be blessed...

DUTY as a good GRANDdaughter

In the name of Allah, the most merciful....


It had been a week since my grandma was warded in the hospital due to a critical desease which is a nightmare to every woman,, I believe.. she suffered from a breast cancer... god mercy... on the day, my dad-side grandma was also sent to the hospital due to unknown desease that caused her looked so pale... such a story... well, I love both of them of course, to see them in such pain, made me felt so sad and worried...


I spent almost four day looking after my grandma in HUSM... I was pleased to do so as I really hope she get well soon.... well in fact, I'm enjoying myself watching the doctors and nurses doing their job... I really hope someday I will work in the hospital as doctor too... Insyaallah... besides, I discovered that I'm really into this profession because I think that I don't mind spending whole time in the hospital and take care of the patients..
SERIOUSLY! I'll pray hard for my dream to achive... and also to my friends who share the same interest as mine to pick medicine soon,, I remember few names... Nurfatinun Nisaa, Akmal, Alia Delaila, Anaz Sakhawi..
Hopefully we are able to make our dream come true... with the God will,,


please pray for my grandma to discharge soon...