Once upon a time during Ramadan

Bismillah

Being able to celebrate Ramadan for the whole month, insyaAllah, is one very rare occasion. For years, seven years to be exact, I was not able to enjoy Ramadan at home, Alhamdulillah, this year 2013, I am finally at home! Selalunya sempat berpuasa di rumah dalam 2-3 hari macam itu jer. Due to living in boarding school and college. So, this year is going to be a blast!

I like performing terawikh at the Masjid Al-Ahmadi which is the mosque in front of my house. I grew up in there. When I was a kid, my friends sekampung and I always gathered at the mosque after Asar to play games. We played polis sentri, lompat getah, hide and seek, and other traditional games there. The mosque's compound is very spacious, so, we declared it as our favorite spot besides the padang nearby. 

There was one Ramadan, probably when I was a five years-old-girl, I went to the mosque during solat terawikh and prayed only two rakaat of terawikh then I got tired and took off my telekung. After that I went out of the the tempat solat, to find out my friends were gathering di bahagian belakang masjid. They are playing 'lompat-lompat' from one color of the carpet to another. (you know that karpet di masjid kan ada garisan-garisan dua warna untuk memudahkan proses meluruskan saf). And the level gets tougher, macam main lompat jauh, to see who jumped the furthest. Well, I had no idea why they were playing that game but kids,,,, they invent games out of random things.

So, I had no mood to play along so I just sat there and watched them play. But unfortunately, they became very loud with the laughter and screaming, there was one angry pakcik came and scolded us all. Some of us managed to slip away, but I was one of the victims. Padahal aku duduk tercongok je tengok dorang, pun terkena tempias. weyhehe.... 

And he said to us, if we'd ever came again, make sure to stay quiet to respect those who pray.

After the witir, there was announcement advising parents to take care of the children and if possible do not bring along under-aged kids to the mosque. My umi then lipat maut berpaling kat aku dengan jelingan lagi tajam daripada Tan Sri SM Salim or Ct Nurhaliza unruk memastikan adakah pengumuman itu ditujukan khas untuk aku. Ha ha

Now, masjid di depan rumah sudah melami banyak proses peng'upgrade'an. The compound is getting smaller due to tambahan binaan-binaan and the best part is, the masjid now have airconds weh. Dan dengan itu ia menambahkan kekhusyukan aku tatkala solat dalam keadaan sejuk dan nyaman. Hah gitu... Eh riyak. Astargfirullah. 

Hehehehe..

But still I missed Masjid Semesta in Faris Petra. The only masjid that I'd ever experienced yang jemaahnya almost always exceed the capability of the female prayer room sampai kena hampar tikar kat bawah untuk makcik2 outsiders untuk solat. Tu pon sebab semua pelajar kena paksa pergi masjid for Terawikh. Hahahahahahahaha

Ok Bai. Eh Bye.

Sayonara 2012

If I have to say it, 2012 was  probably the most toughest year of my life. 

I remember every single day that I had to wake up and felt sad for the rest of the day.

I will mostly want to keep all of those away from me. Lock them in one box and throw it into somewhere in Artic ocean. We'll never going to meet again. 

Only think about it made me sad. However., I definitely learnt a lot throughout the year. Alhamdulillah, for the lesson the I learnt I become a better person.

2013.

Be nice to me. 

I hate to live in sadness.

I hope this year will be the best year so far for my entire life.

I am after one thing, TO FLY.

Bismillah.

Perbaharui niat, perbaharui azam.

~Semakin rajin

~Jadi hamba Allah yang lebih baik

~Graduate from Ky dengan bergaya

~Result A-level dengan warna-warna berterbangan

~Nak jadi anak yang solehah

~Nak FLY

Amin Amin Amin

February nanti bakal menginjak umur 20-an. No more teen-ages . Its time to change my attitude towards maturity. Udah udah laa dengan perangai ko yang budak-budak tu. Allah, guide me the way please..

Weekend again...

Status: Randomness awesome

It is weekend in Ky. Happy! I love weekend in Ky. But I would be alone again this week as for 'bebudak silat" are having their trip to Janda Baik. It's okay lah. It is not like I doesn't have anything to do right? My schedule are packed! 

I got two tests coming up this Monday. Chemistry and Psychology. So, tonnes of notes to be 'scanned'. I have my Bio practicals undone. I have two Maths chapter to be cover. And two essay to be done with five articles to read for my Ielts. I got taekwondo's practical on Sunday. See, I told ya my schedule is packed! 

I eavesdropped two person were talking at the cafe,

Boy: Why don't you take medicine instead. You are smart dowhh.

Girl: "Na-hhh,,, although so many people got and did medicine but not so many who survive"

I was like...... staring at her and "we'll see..."

“Dan orang-orang yang berusaha dengan bersungguh-sungguh kerana memenuhi kehendak agama Kami, sesungguhnya Kami akan memimpin mereka ke jalan-jalan Kami; dan sesungguhnya (pertolongan dan bantuan) Allah adalah berserta orang-orang yang berusaha membaiki amalannya.” [al-Ankabut, ayat 69]


My words when it comes to weekend: " Yeah cuti!! Banyak masa nak kemas bilik, tengok movies, basuh baju, lepak-lepak!"
Ayat normal budak Ky bila weekend: "Yeah cuti!! Banyak masa nak buat homeworks, revises, nak cover balik chapter bla bla bla..."
Did you see the differences? (*__*)

Finding Technique

Live Learn Love Laugh

I Think I Have Found  Mine =)

 Sahih International
"......Indeed, Allah loves those who rely [upon Him]."
3:159

"Dear heart, please be strong.."

Hujan lebat di bumi Ky, through my window ke arah kampung Topaz.

Esok ada program dengan super seniors.

tajuk,

P/S: I Love You.

Love who? Love Rasulullah

Two papers to go. To be frank, I was terrible.

Salah diri. Salah saya. Saya hampir putus asa.

Sounds weak huh? Kinda laaa... 

People compares, so do I.

Tapi bila fikir, "apsal nak compare? ko tak tahu efforts orang len, ko taw efforts ko jer kowt."

But I am not a 'giving-up' person. I may feel weak, hopeless at some time but

it's time to re-gps my mindset. I am better than this, I know I am. 

Hari-hari col umi,

Aq: Umi hari nie paper....... (bla bla)..... Umi doakan Afa deh. Suruh abah doakan Afa jugak.

Umi: Doa kan sopmo doh nyer.... Buat yang terbaek jer.

If I said, I xbleh buat paper.... (blabla), then she said, "Tak pe, takpe, fikir kan yang next paper plak, Yang lepas tu amik pengajaran" 

Mom's words are always comforting. Minta maaf umi, Afa tak buat molep2 exam. Nanti Umi, cubit Afa sebab malas kat rumah masa study week  yg lalu deh.

Hujan, terpaksa dinner ngan maggi. Paper 1 Bio menanti pada hari Isnin.

K Bai.

Tensed Up. It's on!

Status: Ditinggalkan seorang diri lagi as usual weekend neh di dalam chalet L45 , Sapphire Village, KYUEM.

Mood: sugul.

Music: Lagu Hindustan

Bismillah...

Banyak benda berlaku dis week.. Sports Carnival, tests, practical, Ticer Yatt, MYC approachim near.. 

Paling sdeyh: Ticer Yatt, my beloved ticer... Dah xder.. Innalillahiinnalillah hirajiun... Miss her already.. Yer la kan,,, selalu lepak ngan beliau kat staff room, selalu x siap homwork beliaw sbb she was so baekkk, merengek-rengek minta nak ke Makmal Best every single English lesson, mintak she belanja makan kat kafe Kak Zan, kluar ngan beliaw ke KBmall ngan budak2 Alpha, celebrate hbes SPM, I can even remember stiap detik ngan beliaw... I noe my classmate would feel the same kan? ='(

She was my class teacher during form4... Form 2 and form 5 pon blajar ngan beliau gak..

May Allah placed her kat tempat para syuhada... I will always pray for her..

TQ  Allayarham Ticer Yatt... 

Paling sibuk: Sports Carnival... perghhhh,,, totally messed up kan my schedule..  I maen Volleyball doo... hahaha~ Ripleys believe it or not? ibaratnyer laa kan... Tpi klu nak dikirakan efforts 'tukang sorak' I bnyak gak  laa membantu... hehe~ Hey guys, you should see budak2 Ky maen basketball, agressive gler.. Macam tngok NBA pon ader... (btol, seyes tak tipu!) no exception for boys n girls. Dua2 maen cam lipas kudung, cpat gler... See, even I yang serba tak tahu psal basketball pon jadik exsaited tak bertempat.. haha

Paling dizzy: Chemistry! I sdeyh laa taw especially bila orang compare2 kan kita ngan orang len.. I taw I slow sket, but seriously I try my best catching up, mner  bleh nak comparekan aq ngan si budak Alvin ngan Jason tuu, dorang national scholar, 100% marks tu dah selalu... Aq realise sper aq...

But I wont give up! InsyaAllah dipermudahkan... Allah sentiasa membantu hamba-Nya yang berusaha. So, aq kene up kan lagi usaha aq! yeah!

Paling perit lagi memedihkan: Sewaktu Faye tayangkan predicted grade kat slide ngan masa dpat surat markah yang akan dihantar kat sponsor ngan parents... *collapsed 

MYC (Muslim Youth Camp): tak sabar rsernyer nak pegi... hihihi~ semoga pelbagai ilmu dapat ditambah nanti... dapat kuar dri Ky plak tu.. ehehehe~ Astargfirullah, btolkan niat.... 

Aq nak buat special thanks sket, kepada Elinar Yasmin, Diyana Amalina, yang banyak bagi semangat kat aq, supports sumer.. Kak KD yang ade jer nasihat bliaw bagi kat I.. Terima kasih semuanya.. I seyes sayang kat korang semua. Ukhwah till end insyaAllah =)

Top-Up kan iman.. 'harden'kan aqidah~

Status: Woke up late this morning as I telan 2 bijik panadol penyebab pengsan ntuk kebahkan my fever neh... Haishhhhhh~ 

Mood: Rindu Umi, rindu Abah, rindu rumah.

Music: The Call by Regina Spector

I am a reader but I'm a terrible one... I love hanging-out in the bookstores but in the end I won't buy any... Orang kata, nak seribu daya, tak nak seribu dalih.. So, I you love to read, kat mana-mana pon you bleh read, for those yang tak mampu, lots of inisiatif korang bleh buat to get the reading materials... Bukan kedekut, tapi nak jimat and still gain the knowledge. Kan? kan?

I rasa 'kosong' laa... Faham tak? kosong, empty, rser cam ade benda yang tak cukup, rser cam tak sedap duduk.... Sebak sedeyh sayu pilu sudu garpu seriyes tak tipu... Nak buat homework pon cam tak ngam... Padahal esok exam Maths... Bio sumer tuu kejadah tak revise lagi... Ya Allah... Berikanlah aq taufik dan hidayah Mu... 

If you seek Him, God can raise you up, and replace the darkness of the ocean, with the light of His sun. He can transform what was once your greatest weakness into your greatest strength, and a means of growth, purification and redemption. Know that transformation sometimes begins with a fall. So never curse the fall. The ground is where humility lives. Take it. Learn it. Breathe it in. And then come back stronger, humbler and more aware of your need for Him. Come back having seen your own nothingness and His greatness. Know that if you have seen that Reality, you have seen much. For the one who is truly deceived is the one who sees his own self—but not Him.  Deprived is the one who has never witnessed his own desperate need for God.  Reliant on his own means, he forgets that the means, his own soul, and everything else in existence are His creation.

  I always love articles,, inspiring words... From my experiences yang serba hijau, muda, pucuk lagi ni,, I can conclude to myself, whenever I seek Him, I felt aman, tenang.. Alhamdulillah.. I tak mintak dilable warak, budak baik, sumer tuu,, becoz for those yang knal I mesti pikir,, "Hak eleh,, si Syifa tu poyo jerr, padahal bukan nyer baik sngat" Then let it be... I tak kesah... People change, you can't judge them based on what you know only... Yup, kadang-kadang I lupa, lalai, seronok sngat, gelak tak hingat dunia,, typical human being.... So, terima lahh I seadanya (cewaaahhh)... But if we do know who are we commit for in this world, who are we rely on in every single prayer, He judges you! He knows you well than you know yourself..

"In the end, He do not call the Qualifies, but He qualifies the Calls"  

~So, I need to gler-gler top-up kan my ibadat , kredit nak calling2 manusia di dunia tak cukup tak pe, asal kredit nak call Him kat Padang Mahsyar nanti lbeyh daripada cukup~

"Ya Allah, If you do read my heart, my prayers, our conversations before I sleep everyday,, I beg Your Mercy and Your Kindness, please accept my taubat... I'm weak, I always need you to guide me. Please don't let me far astray, I'm afraid that I'm not able to meet you among the Syuhadahs, the Prophets.. Lead me to straight path..."

Then exalt [Him] with praise of your Lord and ask forgiveness of Him. Indeed, He is ever Accepting of repentance.

~An-Nasr [110:3]

P/s: 12 July-12 August.... Dah sebulan rupanya I bertapak di bumi Ky... Alhamdulillah. May my days ahead is always in His blessings.... =) Yeahhhh!

SpicY and HoT!

SALAM SATU MALAYSIA!

Status: tengah tunggu pukul 12.00 p.m sebab nak tengok Coffee Prince kat ntv7

Mood: lalalala~ Owww yeahh yeahhh..

Apakah citarasa anda? errr... Maksud pencoret apa yang anda suka makan? Meh nak share satu, dua, tiga, secret ngan korang semua meh... Rapat sket, nak bisik kat telinga nie, ehehehehe(terkeluar suara gatal), pencoret sebenarnya................ (ala-ala nak buat confession) suka sangat makanan pedas! Suka itu tak ekstrem ngat bunyinya, okey, obses makan makanan yang pedas! Bak kata orang putih passion, (emm, agak melampau disitu) hahaha~ Secret laa konon, klu classmates, dormmates I dulu dah sah-sah dahh  dop buang lada2, cili2, sambal2 dalam tray I maser makan kat dining dulu kan? ehehe~ Dan obsesi ini menjadi semakin membimbangkan apabila I kat umah..

lada yang baru dipetik drpd pohon.

Kat belakang rumah pencoret, berderet-deret(hiperbola) pokok lada taw? Umi pencoret yang tanam.. Dan tengok, colour nye bukan merah yer, tapi purple! Lagi pedas dan hot! Sodap jika mahu dicicah dalam budu.. =) 

Fakta: Pencoret boleh makan 5 biji dan keatas cili/lada sewaktu lunch, dinner. Dan pencoret tak rasa nak minum air akibat kepedasan pon. Bahaya kan? adoiiiii~

Manakala dua perkara yang pencoret amat-amat alergik, tak suka, *geleng-geleng kepala adalah

Corns! Tak tahu naper x suka ngat benda ni... Pencoret suka perisa jagung, ais krim jagung, air jagung sumer tuu, tapi amat laa tak suka the corns themselves. Faham? Klu mende nie ditabur atas ABC ke, bubur jagung ke, OMG, nehi-nehi for me..

*I'm a completely opposite from my best buddy, Fatin Aneeda because she loves corns! =)

dan satu lagi yang pencoret tak gemar....

  

Beans! Tak suker okay, tak kira lahh, baked beans, kacang hijau, kacang panjang, ke mnape sumer tu,, I put them aside klu ade any in my plate. I am absolutely a vegetables lover taw, but seriously, I don't do beans. So, what's yours? hehehe~ 

sedu-sedan

Tiba-tiba tersedu, faham dop? SEDU. Orang kelantan panggil sed'du.! haha~ Selalunya babies jerr yang sedu-sedu ni, sebab orang lama-lama cakap (kepercayaan dahulu kala) 'sedu' ni sebab the babies tu nak membesar!

Maser I dop tengop TV tadi, sinetron Amanah Dalam Cinta hehehe, tber-tber jer tersedu la plak! My mom cakap, klu minum full glass of plain water nanty ilang, so, I b'gegas laa pegi minum air masak tersebut. And yess, the sedu was flown away! (baguih gop petua org lama ni ek?) 

Then I asked my mom, "naper Afa sedu umi?" my mom said... dengan selambanyer.. "Nop besar lah tuu.." And I was like??? Besar?? What the chicken? No, no, nehi, nehi!!!! I ran to the kitchen again, I drank the water again and again, hampir hbes segeleng kowt air pencoret telan.. (errr,,, air guna telan ke?) My mom then b'tempik, "Buat aper tu???? Hbes smpai air, pastu susah kena tadah air lg!" 

Grrrr... "tak moh besa, skang neh pom besa doh aper??" then, my mom burst with her laugh.. "Minum ahhh banyop2 air tu,, nanti tadah balik yer!" Ade ke nyer gelak kan I... huh... 

p/s: adekah "besar" tu including the heights? Owwwwhhh, saya mahu tinggi lagi! Setinggi awan! (okey, hiperbola yang melampau)

Bersalahnyerrr.....

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...
mood: xbermaya


weip!!! aq ada nak buat confession niee... dngar smua.. ( mksud aq.. baca smua..)
ari ni kan... aq pergi p'jumpaan PBSM... b'sama2 Mcyam tanpa Nisaa...
ni first time aq kuar meronda2 ke jalan raya dngan motor..
takowt gak.. wlaupon aq dah ade lsen yg sah.. hahaha
hati aq x tenteram mimikirkan reaksi KHIDIR yg merangkap bos PBSM  aq laa kan..
sbenarnye aq dah lmer x pegi meeting ni.. sibuk plus xder transport plus kehujanan
lately... MAAF KAN SAYER...


aq dah jadi serba salah... talking about commitment laa kan.. aq memang dah lack of it..
mula2 aq join benda neh... dengan full of enthusiasm aq volunteer nak join...
skang neh... aq rser x layak... xcukup bagus ntuk b'tugas b'sama dorang...
seyes aq cakap... aq rser so lucky getting to know Mila, Khidir, Hasni sahabat primary school aq,
they all memang happening gler....


walaupon korang sumer memang xkan baca blog aq neh....
seyes aq cakap... TERIMA KASIH for the great moments....
I may not good enough to commit... bukan aq x maw tpi aq xley nak janji n btol2
commit to the schedule laa... SORRY korang... btol dngan penuh  keikhlasan
di hati aq memohon kemaafan...
truly, aq xpenah x rser b'salah bila aq skip the meeting...
percaya rr...


aq harap sangat korang akan bacer post aq neh... huhu (m'harap jer rr)
sebab aq nak korang taw yg aq so damn quilty about it...
terutama nya Khidir... maaf rr bos!
psal korang nak amek gmbar tuh, aq skli ag mintak ampun....
I'm not the person who is so into the camera...
aq bab2 b'gambar ni,memang aq failed! korang sumer cantekk beb!
haha... bukan aq xnak tpi... sorry, spoiled ur guys nyer mood...


to Mila: enjoy knal ngan awak ... harap kter keep in touch ek!
to Hasni: ko kawan aq smpai mati... best fren till end.. tq ajak sy join PBS neh,, a
I owed you so much!! thanx hun!
ntuk Yam ngn Nisa: korang memang knal aq sngat2 laa kan... we talk about this when we meet soon..


the problem is here, it is not anyone's fault, if I have to give much clearer
reason, I rather blame all of it on my side...
it is my fault that I am the one who cant give full commitments..
till I ends up to be such a troublemaker for you guys...
to tell the truth, I cant spill all of this to you guys...
as I am not having the courage... Yet, I am so sorry...


Post aq kali ni seyes aq cakap, aq b'trus terang....
sooner or later aq kena britahu gak kan? but I choose to let you guys know dalam ni
it may be not sincere enough... because macam aq x beritahu sndiri..
tapi insyaallah, aq akan sentiasa harap korang jadik volunteer yg b'tauliah.
have fun, no worries, enjoy the duty!! okey!


mmmm... moga2 korang faham.. 
aq amik ksempatan neh, nak wish Happy Birthday to Pejo, my best buddy..
smoga ko pnjang umur...


CAW!!

Yeah!!! I've got my LICENCE!

SALAM SATU MALAYSIA!!

hehehe... dngan mlihat jer title post aq kali pon, aq rser korang konfem faham..

I were up at ease right now!!! oh yeah!!

akhirnya, slepas lama aq b'korban masa n tenaga...

aq dah berjaya m'dpatkan lesen2 yg aq craved for..hahahaha

adoi.. double test.. and I were so glad that I manage to get them both..

Alhamdulillah..

nak dijadikan cter rr kan, ari ni ari AHAD bersamaan dengan 20 JAN 2011

aq ke pjabat cekgu memandu aq seawal kul 8 pagi

aq dah t'pacak kat ctu.. ( dgn b'smangatnya.. hoho)

then aq ke Akademi Memandu KIST kat Bachok..

yes, aq pegi buat test motor dlu!

b'debar nak mampos.. hahaha

aq b'nombor 33 sesi yang kedua pd pkul 10.30!

yer saya! melaporkan diri!! hehehe

~ ntuk korang nyer info laa kan, aq bawak my own helmet

coz helmet kat akademi tuuu.. MASYAALLAH busukkk!!!!~

jadi, nsehat aq  korang yg nak test motor tuu bawak2 rr helmet sendiri yer!

aq suka sngat pegi klas mmandu ni..

sebab aq dah buat rmai kwan.. even ketemu smula sama kwan lama..

Cdah, Akak, Kak Nabila, Teh, Amani, Nadia,

Norsyah, Zenn, Syafiq, n so on..

gonna miss you guys.. 

 

okey rr, mula2 aq cter kat uolls, waktu aq tunggu my turn for motorsikal nyer test kan,

aq dop tepi sorang mamat nih.. oleh krn, kami

tunggu nyer lmer gler.. smpai aq pon dah t'sengguk2 dah..

mamat tu ketuk helmet aq lalu b'kata

" weh, kjut aq taw bila smpai turn! aq nak tdow ni, dah 

ngantuk gler thap babun"

blom smpat aq m'beri apa2 respon, lalu nak mnoleh ke arah

mamat tu, DYER DAH TDOW!

adoii... bila smpai jer turn aq, ckg Rizal hnya panggil hingga no aq jer

aq x ingat nak kjutkan si mamat tuh..hahaha

sori rr weh, aq dah xingat apa2 dah asal sluruh jantung jer b'bunyi..

gabra gler..

alhamdulillah.. aq buat yang t'baek skali  dan dgan yakin nyer..

lpas aq buat tu aq trus ke pondok jpj..

lpas tngop jer yg aq LULUS, ingin jer aq lompat2 kegirangan..hehehe

ltey taw tak? dah rr cekgu Hakim cpat2 suh aq ke tmpat test kreta plak

yer rr kan, tkowt plak aq t'lpas turn..

Saya calon bernombor 39, mlaporkan untuk diuji encik!

"Oi awak berangan aper tu?? cepat hantar borang awak ni kat pondok JPJ sana!"

jerit ckgu Rizal... hahaha smpat lak aq berangan..

blom sempat aq duduk b'istirahat kat atas krusi kat tmpat mnuggu kreta..

NO 39, SILA KE KERETA 9 SEKARANG!

aper nih?? aq xduduk ag.. ltey pon xhilang ag nih..

rse nak BOM jer pondok JPJ kat atas bukit tuh!!!

dngan spantas kilaynyer aq ke kreta b'nombor 9 tuu

okey2.. bertenang2..

check mirrors, rapatkan seat, seatbelt okey,

aper ag eh?? okey rr, jlan!!!

weh, apsal x gerak ni?? orang jpj kat atas tu

dah laung "weh cik adik!! cpat sket.. rmai ag nak buat ni!!"

oooo.... nanty dlu... knapa xgerak neh??

oo,, rupanya aq x jatuh kan handbrake.. hahaha

okey tkan minyak, naek bukit!

kat bukit plak, xleh turun plak.. 

punya aq b'gelut kat ats tu,,, akhirnya aq b'jaya mlepasi task bukit!

OH YEAH!!

then, yang parking nyer, ngan task 3 penjuru pon aq wat ngn baek skali..

mnuju ke task bhagian 3 JALAN RAYA..

harap2 dpat pak cik JPJ yang sportim... PLEASE...  

skali nama aq di "announce" ntuk naek kreta no 15..

blom msok ag,, aq dah nmpak bukan pak cik, tapi ABANG JPJ

b'kaca mata hitam, dngan unifom nyer..

fuuuyooo... t'ganggu concentration aq neh..

hensem lak tuu.. hahahaha

ulat bulu dah naek badan dah,,

bila aq sedia ntuk diuji,, aq tnya Abang JPJ tuh, 'boleh sy mula encik?"

beliau mengangguk...

"saya nak awak memandu ngan YAKIN, PANTAS  dan STEADY"

kata Abang JPJ tu..

mak oii, tegas nyer... mula2 bawak kreta tu, b'gegar dan kelam kabut sket..

dngan lantang " AWAK NI BLEH BAWAK KRETA KE???"

aq t'diam lalu  b'kata.. "Insyaallah.."

dlam hati aq bagai sluran darah t'sumbat dah...

sampai aq hmpir t'lpas tmpat U-TURN...

cik abang tuh dah naek suara dah..

"wei, wei.. kat cni lorongnyer.. KHAYAL KE???"

aq hanya t'sengih bak kerang busuk..

aper2 pon aq b'jaya dan LULUS!!!

hehehe.. agak mnarik laa... well, trima kasih kat abang garang tuh..

kini aq dah dapat 

LESEN P

ntuk motorsikal n kereta.. hehehe

utmost gratitude aq nak ucapkan buat cekgu2 aq

yang rmai giler2.. dalam merealisasikan lesen aq.. hehehe

~ ckg Cek Hasyim, ckg Mansor, ckg Yie, ckg Rizal

ckg Hakim, ckg Ivy n xlupa my beloved ABAH~

        

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p/s: Actually I kinna feel like deleting this post because I see the immature side of me in this post. However, I cancel it due to respect of remembrance that I once was a childish-thinking like girl. And that is a good thing. Updated 16/6/2012

HAppY BIRTHDAy Ato ME..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

TO ME..

SWEET 18th birthday..

hopefully to live on

sweet and wonderful life

this year of 2011..

dear friends,

thank you for all the wishes..

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TwiRLing ArouND..

<ASSALAMUALAIKUM>

So far so good.. but nothing much to say...

ingat nak share pasal program yang aq join recently laaa...

skang ni, insyaallah aq akan join PBS crew untuk unit3 Kota Bharu..

PBS is the short-call for Persatuan Badan Sukarela..

kawan aq Hasni yang ajak aq at the first place.. so, she asked me whether ada ag

x saper2 yg interested nak join ktorang..

aq da ajak rmai gak kengkawan aq, but yang btul fanatik n interested is

one and only MARYAM JAMILAH ZAIDI..

(amik ko nak suh aq promote kan.. hehehe)

FYI, this society is more to red crescent society laa, tpi yg len pon bley join sama..

if you guys involve dalam ni, the society will call uolls for camping where 

uolls will be the facilitators to the bebudak sekolah laa..

uolls yang akan conduct the camping tu nanti..

cam I skang ni, waiting for the call to join a camping at Bachok..

but, uolls kene sit for exams first.. ade exam for CPR and First Aid..

klu korang nak nek pangkat to sarjan ke, mejar or even pegawai,

korang kene join the course plak..

and who knows, the society maybe call uolls to join the camp all over the world

cam kat thailand, myanmar , vietnam.. 

but the great news is uolls not only get to travel for free,

but also uolls will receive some allowance depends on your pangkat and places 

that uolls go laa.. not forgetting uolls will absolutely making frens..

aq dah attend latihan pc stakat ni, bru 2 kali..

nanty aq ade exam on 24-25 Feb..

enjoy gak kuar ngan Yam , after that makan2 kat luar SMK Puteri tu..

tapi surely laa kan  komitmen play an important role here..

aq ni pon susah sket, coz driving class non-stop nowadays,

men dkat2 result ni, cam mood nak lepak2 pon dah sorrow dah..

tmbah plak transport susah sket.. 

tapi okey laa, at least I gain new experience instead of

just sit at home watching movies memanjang.. kan??

Oh ya, sambil2 tu aq ader dengar2 dah rmai dah senior2 aq kat Faris Petra

dlu dah fly.. Alhamdulillah.. aq harap sangat aq dpat ikut jejak dorang..

Insyaallah.. Well, to my seniors wlaupon korang maybe xkan bace blog aq neh,

aq wish have a great flight.. smoga selamat sampai hendaknya..

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CoMMiTMeNTS... lots of sacrifices...

IN THE NAME OF ALLAH S.W.T

the most gracious and the most merciful

Daily routines yet not seem to be changed... I dah bawak kereta uolls!!! hehehe

(announce sket) jadik, mna2 ada ibu nak bersalin ke,, nak pegi toilet awam x sempat ke..

caling2 laa I, I would be delighted to bawak korang.. muahahaha


okeyh.. okeyh.. really la kan... mna la nak brubah, dop pon kat rumah jer..
ni, nak share opinions la sket sambil2 b'celoteh lbey panjang kan..
aq rser laa, aq ni dah bnyak sangat buat clap spanjang 17 thun dkat2 nak hbes aq hdup neh..
Subhanallah... Allah still grant me a pink of health to commit and serve on his path..
kadang2 bler rser t'amat laa lalai khidupan kat umah,
aq rather choose dop jauh2 daripada family, dop kat negara orang sesorang
asalkan aq lbey dkat kpada Si Pencipta...
kat umah ni.. to tell uolls the truth la kan,,
aq enjoy jer lbey, tngop tv, maen game, facebook...
xder benda yg m'datangkan manfaat lansum.. sdey.. sdey..
tapikan aq ni anak manjaa... memang dop hostel dlu pon, tiap2 minggu merengek nak blik umah..
tapi my attitude kat sana seyesly b'dozen2 kli ganda lbey baek @ 'jurus'..


talking about commitments.. we all have them.. inside or outside..
it is a duty that can never be denied!! seyesly aq cakap!
aq bagi cntoh mudah laa kan... aq was once a prefect kat skulah dlu..
although I am thinking about how I take the duty, x smuanya perfect..
cam aq slalu jer cari excuse mser kena duty tunggu bebudak lmbat ke klas
mser aq form4.. aq pkir.. nape laa aq plak yg kna b'dri cam tunggul catat nma org lwat
neh, cam rr aq xder kje len?? ( dah rr aq ni jnis yg mmg suke g ke klas awal)
eee... not my interest rr buat bende2 yg leceh ni..
rse cam nak penyek2 jer budak2 yg lambat neh!!

but it was called a commitment.. I had to take it!
sorry my partner klu ade time aq cabut.. hehe


ingin aq tegas kan di cni.. aq ni seorang yang xsuka (klu benci.. cm jahat sngat plak)
m'beri dan mnerima komitmen... esp, klu hal tu bukan psal aq..
aq bukan selfish.. tpi it is more to not taking any risk or tkowt2
klu aq x dpat beri yg t'baek, aq akan kecewakan rmai org..
jdi aq tend to buat benda ikut cara aq...





x ke ltey klu kiter kna pkir psal org len?? hbes kter??aq x nafikan yg kte kena 
give and take.. but to sacrifices yourself just to comfort others
is not my way to rules..


slalunya laa kan, bler topic commitment is debated..
most people would think that it is more to relationship..
x benar.. sbab bukan dalam p'hubungan jer m'merlukan kita
to be responsible..in all case, it is a must to commit..

uish.. klu tanyer aq laa kan,, couple duple ni biar mintak jauh2 dlu..
ee... bukan caranya laa, budak2 ag dah pndai I SUKER KAT U,
U SUKER LAA KAT I BALEK..

oh my gosh.. absolutely nehi nehi to me..
blajar tinggi2 biar hidung mak bapak tu stinggi menara KLCC r dlu..
nak msuk topic gak?? it is a commitment to your parents laa beb!


okey, kter chill balek lpas isu sensitif on air jap tadi, 
try to cooperates ngan rmai orang.. uolls bukan jer dpat tambahkan kawan
otherwise u will gains lots of knowledge..
kat dunia ni, we are serve with tones, millions of wonder
for us to discover, to learn about them..
 Allah s.w.t x ciptakan sesuatu for us to just look or stare at them but to
take advantages from them also..
we are in the dark room if we can't barely even see them all..
SUBHANALLAH..


tu laa our foremost commitment in this world..
to be His slaves..


aq akui.. aq x rr smpai thap perfect tpi aq definitely is working on them..


You can just sit back, do nothing and see the world change..
try to earn something each day, without any single complaint..
LIFE IS ABOUT MORE THAN JUST LIVING..


ni fakta ek nak kongsi,, from the book yang aq dah lmer baca..
tpi sori x ingat title..


if a person is given choices, he/she will definitely take a long time
to make up his/her mind which finally contribute to non-clear goals of life..
why don't just give no choice to him/her so that he/she will only
follow one path and focus to one goal first! SUCCEED!


faham x quote ni?? renung2kanlah yer..
okey la.. las nyer advise, if you dare to take commitment, you must be committed..
originally from Syifa ni yer.. hehehe


aq bukan la pandai b'falsafah tpi xsalah klu kongsi kan?
uolls gain one more knowledge hari ni..
klu ader nak feedback ke aper, rajin2 rr komen ekk!


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SECRET GARDEN

salam...


lteynyer hari nie.... xder buat aper pon... tapi.. ntah laa... the day seems so plain..
klu nak decribe... mcam makan nasi putih dengan lauk gula dan garam..
neither too sweet nor too salty...
i am looking forward to discover myself... i mean the true me.. maybe the deep down of inner me..
cam sdey jer cakap cam neh... but its true.. smua yang aq buat seems meaningless..
doesnt feel like THE ROAD NOT TAKEN pon... 
more to like THE DEATH IN THE OPPOSITE HOUSE....
well; I can keep sighing and wish for everything goes well..
adoiii... what to do...


dah rr... done with that already~!! 
refer back to the title...
SECRET GARDEN
it is not like I went to a place such a secret garden..
sbenarnye ni adalah korean drama!! latest hit taww!!!
best gler... I was first recommended by my brother.. mula2 xmaw tngop.. 
yer laa... title pon mcam produk kebersihan jer.. hahahaha
tapi once dah tngop.. melekat jer kat komputer...
 it has 20 episodes.. so much drama.. but this drama is so so different..
aq mungkin not a fanatic k-pop or something like that.. but SERIOUSLY!
this drama caught my attention.. dah rr hero dyer hensem gler!! 



  ni rr main poster dyer... so sweet.. hehehe


casts dyer
HA JI WON : Gil Ra Im
HYUN BIN :  Kim Joo Won
YOON SANG HYUNG : Oska/ Choi Woo Young
KIM SA RANG :Yoon Seul
PHILIP LEE : Im Jong Soo


walaupon korang bkan pminat cter2 korea.. aq gerenti klu korang tngop cter ni..
pasti korang lompat2 sambil guling2 atas katil sbab t'lalu best!! hahaha
cter ni slightly laen laa.. aq mula2 pon x expect yang plot cter ni become so unpredictable..
bagi jejaka macho yang nak tngop cter ni.. make sure yang org len berada beribu ribu batu drpd anda..
hahaha.. seyesly.. nanty kuar gak air mata jantan korang..
tapi not forgetting part2 yang lucu aka lawak tahap dewa..
aq pon sampai tarek-tarek rambut ketawa.. hahahahahahaha


cter ni psal typikal lelaki kaya bernama Kim Joo Won yang own department store laa..
dyer ada sepupu yg mrupakan pnyanyi kegilaan rmai b'nama Oska..
one day, ( ececece, cam tngah deliver bedtime story plak..) Kim Joo Won t'jatuh hati dengan sorang minah cool... stuntwoman gitu.. nama dyer Gil Ra Im... mcam2 rr Joo Won buat nak suh Ra Im
jatuh centa ngan dyer.. tapi sumernya jadik makin complicated bila mereka t'msuk hutan dan sampai
ke sebuah mysterious garden dan mnum wain bunga... keesokan hari yhey found that yang mereka dah b'tukar badan.. so hilarious laa klu korang tngop lakonan mantap Hyun Bin yg dah jadik 
perempuan.. hahaha.. well, slebeynya korang tngop rr sendiri yer! aq konfem korang akan 
b'trima kaseh kat aq..


aq memang dah btul2 jatuh centa laa dngan Hyun Bin.. hehe( muka dah merah.. gatal..)
oh yer, cter ni baru jer release akhir thun lpas... dan dorang mnang bnyak award ngn cter ni..
RUGI X TNGOP!!! hehe.. sempat promote lakk..
kepada saper2 yg mnat nak tngop.. korang bley watch online kat jacinda1st.com 
or korang bley download sendri ek!.. teknologi kan makin canggih.. pndai2 rr korang yer!
 ok laa nak hbes kan post bi dngan sket gambar2 cter neh.. ENJOY!








 

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