Eco-Trip 2012

Status: Finishing my homeworks, pure Maths, Chemistry and IELTS tasks. Although I know that I probably not going to make it all of them today, at least I am trying. 

Music: Viva viva la Espana.

Confession, I did stay up late yesterday for the sake of watching the final euro match, Spain vs Italy. Yes, I did fall asleep sometimes in the middle but just for few minutes. And the result was beyond I expected although I really wanted to see Spain won the title again, 4-0 was totally humiliating for Italy. Way to go Spain!

Well, I do not propose to talk about the Euro actually coz it will never end. Here the main purpose.

Last week, the second semester ended dramatically with all the tears and goodbyes. Then, all the students of Kyuem bade farewell to the each other especially the seniors-seniors and the seniors-juniors. Juniors-juniors? Nahh, we just went home without any regrets. HAHA

Sunday, 24th of June, 48 bio students including me, joined an annual trip organised by Biology department called Eco-Trip to Perlis State Park. It was a four days trip. Lawatan sambil belajar laa lebih kurang. Because it involved analyzing, determining problems, and planning skills that we will require for our paper 5 Biology in A2. So yeah, memang an education trip laa. The journey from Ky to Perlis State Park took 6 hours of back-ache on bus. Dizziness was reduced as I only listened to my mp4 and ate nothing during the journey. Thanked to Jida, Mas and Husna who kept offering me food, but I had to pass with all respect.

The activities that we had were so much fun. I was in group 2 and the members were awesome. We got May as our dedicated team leader, Jidah, Husam, Hui, Ayiesha, and Mursyiida. What I enjoyed the most was the 'Night Walk'. We went to see the waterfall. The water was so cold and crystal clear. But I can't get the picture of it because it was very dark. Other activities were, soil study, set up the light trap, catching the butterflies and identifying the species, set up pitfall traps and identifying insects species.

Nothing much to talk about ,so just enjoy the pictures!

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The arrival.

My group 2

our light trap! We shared it with Mr Vroege' group 1

Identifying the insects' species

I had no idea what it was, a giant centipede maybe?

our second pitfall 

wajah-wajah bercahaya, menggali tanah.

tekun

soil study!

More pictures in my fb account if anyone wants to see them. I will be going to Langkawi tomorrow. Till then, bubye. Have a nice day!

Us. ^^

p/s: Nisa insisted me to mention her name. So, yeah, miss Nurfatinun Nisaa Aziz is a hard-die-fan of my blog. Awwww, *touched.

A Rebel Yell

He said that I would make lots of great friends.
I said never. I am not an amiable kid.

He said that I would love and care so much about the team.

I said not in this world. I hate the team. What they only did were criticizing.

He said that I would have the best senior years.

I said you'd got to be kidding me? Who are going to take care of me when I am a senior?

He said that I would be damn so sad once I had to step out of the place.

I said could there be any joyous moment than that day?

He said you'll be fine.

I said I will never be. I am alone.

Life was unexpected. Those words that came out from the 'I' were totally contradicting from the beginning. Now, this was the 'I' answers.

I made lots of great friends, who were worth more than diamonds. How could I not see them before. They were always right beside me. They were the one who taught me life. They wished me for my happiness. They are the ones that I didn't want to be replaced apart from anything in this world. 

The team. Could there be any team that are better that my team, if were not for them, I wouldn't learn the value of teamwork. There are some of them who shed my tears when I felt like a loser. They heard my stories, they respect my opinions. They accepted me the way I am in the team. The gave me credit for my capabilities.

Senior years. Never in my life I'd imagined that my senior years were so colorful. I still can reminisce the days that I had with all my classmates. We developed the bond, very strong bond, even stronger that the covalent bond in the diamond. We loved each other, so much. Should us be blame for that? 

Leaving the place was the most painful, broken-hearted thing that I ever did in my life. How I love the place, every single spot in the place gave me the flashbacks of the day that I learnt, that I laughed, I cried, I lost faiths in myself. Those were the things that never escaped from my brain-memory. They remained, I wont let them leave.

See? Did you noticed how much I worked hard to survive. The only reason for my pathetic reasons in the beginning were I doubted myself because 'he' got in the way. 'he' was the mist that I could not see the humungous tunnel for me to walk in. It was my fault for involving myself into 'he'. And 'he' was an inexplicable humility. Blame myself for being that weak.

But today and afterwards, I have HIM. Always HIM. HE will never leave me behind. Did I said 'never'? I mean never ever... 

I serve  myself for ISLAM. Don't beg me to give my heart to you. Because HE holds my heart so tight that even I can't help to escape myself from HIM. Alhamdulillah.

Preserve me with your mercy ya ALLAH.

From a deep,dark ocean

Assalamualaikum.

"Ketika diri mencari sinar, secebis cahaya menerangi laluan, adakalanya langkah ku tersasar, tersungkur di lembah kegelapan..."

Sahih International

And if an evil suggestion comes to you from Satan, then seek refuge in Allah . Indeed, He is Hearing and Knowing.

(7:200)

Daripada Kak Adah yang disayangi,

‎:: iman itu umpama air laut.. naik turunnya spt pasang surut.. ombak itu adalah ujian, menghiasi suatu ciptaan.. indah di mata tapi al-Khaliq lebih mengetahui.. Lantaran itu, ar-Rahman tak menguji melainkan hambaNya akan mampu menghadapinya.. teguhnya pantai mendidik insan y seakan pasir, kdg2 pasir itu akan hanyut bersama, tapi sebaik2 ciptaan Rabbi, ia kan kembali pada pantai.. Allah mentarbiah jiwa hambaNya y selalu leka agar tak jauh dari keagunganNya.. semoga murkaNya tak menghukum leka..::

 Kadang-kadang kita sering leka, alam dunia terlalu indah di mata, sehinggakan ia mengaburkan pandangan kita terhadap keindahan syurga. Jika hari ini kita 18, 19 tahun, siapa sangka jika riwayat kita tamat pada usia 20? Cukupkah segala amalan yang kita kerjakan sepanjang hayat dikandung badan?  Apa alasan kepada Sang Pencipta, jika disoal tentang amalan di dunia?

Sedarlah diri, lakukan pecutan dalam berbuat amalan kebaikan. Amatlah rugi bagi seorang muslim yang hatinya keras untuk memahami Islam.

Matang = Faham Islam.
Siapa yang memahami Islam yang sebenar, kematangannya akan melangkaui mereka yang lebih berusia.

~Hilal Asyraf~

 Saya sedang berusaha menjadi hamba yang 'matang'. Doakan saya. Doakan Islam. ^^

Indeed, my protector is Allah , who has sent down the Book (Al-Quran); and He is an ally to the righteous.

(7:196)

 Jom, menjadi hamba! ^__^

Syukur Syukur

Alhamdulillah.

Dear readers, do yo know that Allah swt is so kind?, He is so sweet, He is so pemurah and penyayang. This morning. I had a kind of 'test',, I mean human's test. I did'nt even revise for it. I woke up late, and I prepared for the test just 7 minutes before I took them. Seriously I told ya, it had been 2 weeks since my final revision for it. I was like "What am I thinking???" 

Imma gonna fail! That was what I'm thinking. and yeah, I'd been very nervous gilerr.. Starting to become a pessimistic person. Three of my seniors and I were the second group in action. I thought I did badly. 

But Alhamdulillah, once again, Allah had given me His mercy. I didn't know what I can do without His merciful help. I passed the test. I never thought that I would. Alhamdulillah. It made me think, I'm so ignorant if I think that I passed because of my efforts. D-uhhhh, I 'd done nothing, I even went there with my sleepy panda eyes! Allah is the most Gracious. 

Bismillah, 

"Ya Allah, forgive me for my ignorance. I am your slave. Pity me ya Allah as I did lots of sins. Accept my taubah, accept my ibadah. As I live in this temporary world is to become an a'bid and your khalifah. Do accept my prayer ya Allah."

Ameen.

Muslim Youth Camp 2011

Bertempat di Kuala Kubu Baru, kem Bina Semangat =)

Muscom annual activity

Modul director: Ariff Ismail

Layan gambo dulu ek, nanti I explain wat was this camp all about.

Presenting.....

dalam hall semasa nak buat kuih melaka =)

Bersama-sama teammates tngah berusaha menguli buah melaka...
orang Kelate call'em as ONDE-ONDE

Kami amat bertungkus lumus taw!
tapi sempat gak posing disitu =D

Forum dari super seniors dan turut ada juga, Ustaz Nizam

Kami kene naik benda alah yang tinggi di taw.

Dan ada gak aktiviti ngan tali tarzan ni... hahaha~

Ustaz MARi MENGAJI kat TV9 tu pon ade gak sebagai
penceramah jemputan

Brother Syah Kirit, one brilliant muallaf who knows
and expert in Islam. More than an original muslim
would be.

My group. We love each other.

Okay dear readers, time for explanation,, What was this camp all about? MYC.. The objective of this camp was mainly about to keep your faith in Islam, to learn the beautiful of Islam, to muhasabah whether are you a good muslim or not, to strengthen the ukhwah between all of us, KYUEMians.

What  I got in this camp:

I learnt a lot. I always felt that I am lacking of ilmu, especially about Islam. Since I was in Faris Petra, I was eager to learn how to be a better muslim. I aim for jannah, always would be. I want to be a muslim by choice not by chance. But I don't know why. As time passes, alhamdulillah, Allah heard my prayers. He made it easy for me, as I left boarding school, I was sent to Ky, which  had being a wonderful place for me to study, discover Islam. This MYC thing is one of them. Semua orang pon boleh joined MYC dan tak semestinya bebudak alim, budak surau jer. Because we were there to learn, as long as you have the 'niat' to learn, to understand your faith, it was alright. If you asked me anything pasal Islam, I would say that all I want to find is the mardhatillah, keredhaan Allah. Other than that, I am still in the process of learning. I was not from the 'sekolah agama' ke anak ustaz ke... But I was glad that Allah chose me to be one of His slaves. Alhamdulillah.

Overall, I would like to thank everyone, budak2 KY yang joined this camp, facilitators, Kak KD yang mula2 ajak I joined this camp. Terima kasih daun keladi, panjang umur I nak join MYC lagi. =)

para muslimat =)

Sekian.. Wassalam.

CINTAILAH ILAHI

Secretary Housetrip.,,, perghhh

kenangan berhari raya dengan kanak-kanak 5Alphashine.
'Boarding school life'

Status: Baru balek dri meeting

Why am I agree to do dis? Cam rilekk glerr jer time aq nak volunteering stuffs ni kan?? 

Reasons:

1. Aq nak belajar buat proposal 

2. Aq nak memantapkan rate of 'kepantasan menaip di lappy' sebab my handwriting already nice wat?? =P

3. Aq nak cuba belajar cooperating dengan community

4. Nak mingle ngan budak2 Sapphire laen.

5. Semangat cinta akan house! err.....

Mid-sem examination is approaching near. Speaking test for IELTS aq dah ter'postpone' after study week. Berlambak-lambak handouts psychology yang nak ditelaah.

Malam ni ade Inter-faith dialogue yang aq konfim pasti best!!! Budak Taylors jer yang datang, KMBians and KMSians xleh datang.. Rugi ahh korang kan.

Nak share satu ayat =) La Tahzan people!!!

Sahih International

So do not weaken and do not grieve, and you will be superior if you are [true] believers.

(Al-Imran:139)

Top-Up kan iman.. 'harden'kan aqidah~

Status: Woke up late this morning as I telan 2 bijik panadol penyebab pengsan ntuk kebahkan my fever neh... Haishhhhhh~ 

Mood: Rindu Umi, rindu Abah, rindu rumah.

Music: The Call by Regina Spector

I am a reader but I'm a terrible one... I love hanging-out in the bookstores but in the end I won't buy any... Orang kata, nak seribu daya, tak nak seribu dalih.. So, I you love to read, kat mana-mana pon you bleh read, for those yang tak mampu, lots of inisiatif korang bleh buat to get the reading materials... Bukan kedekut, tapi nak jimat and still gain the knowledge. Kan? kan?

I rasa 'kosong' laa... Faham tak? kosong, empty, rser cam ade benda yang tak cukup, rser cam tak sedap duduk.... Sebak sedeyh sayu pilu sudu garpu seriyes tak tipu... Nak buat homework pon cam tak ngam... Padahal esok exam Maths... Bio sumer tuu kejadah tak revise lagi... Ya Allah... Berikanlah aq taufik dan hidayah Mu... 

If you seek Him, God can raise you up, and replace the darkness of the ocean, with the light of His sun. He can transform what was once your greatest weakness into your greatest strength, and a means of growth, purification and redemption. Know that transformation sometimes begins with a fall. So never curse the fall. The ground is where humility lives. Take it. Learn it. Breathe it in. And then come back stronger, humbler and more aware of your need for Him. Come back having seen your own nothingness and His greatness. Know that if you have seen that Reality, you have seen much. For the one who is truly deceived is the one who sees his own self—but not Him.  Deprived is the one who has never witnessed his own desperate need for God.  Reliant on his own means, he forgets that the means, his own soul, and everything else in existence are His creation.

  I always love articles,, inspiring words... From my experiences yang serba hijau, muda, pucuk lagi ni,, I can conclude to myself, whenever I seek Him, I felt aman, tenang.. Alhamdulillah.. I tak mintak dilable warak, budak baik, sumer tuu,, becoz for those yang knal I mesti pikir,, "Hak eleh,, si Syifa tu poyo jerr, padahal bukan nyer baik sngat" Then let it be... I tak kesah... People change, you can't judge them based on what you know only... Yup, kadang-kadang I lupa, lalai, seronok sngat, gelak tak hingat dunia,, typical human being.... So, terima lahh I seadanya (cewaaahhh)... But if we do know who are we commit for in this world, who are we rely on in every single prayer, He judges you! He knows you well than you know yourself..

"In the end, He do not call the Qualifies, but He qualifies the Calls"  

~So, I need to gler-gler top-up kan my ibadat , kredit nak calling2 manusia di dunia tak cukup tak pe, asal kredit nak call Him kat Padang Mahsyar nanti lbeyh daripada cukup~

"Ya Allah, If you do read my heart, my prayers, our conversations before I sleep everyday,, I beg Your Mercy and Your Kindness, please accept my taubat... I'm weak, I always need you to guide me. Please don't let me far astray, I'm afraid that I'm not able to meet you among the Syuhadahs, the Prophets.. Lead me to straight path..."

Then exalt [Him] with praise of your Lord and ask forgiveness of Him. Indeed, He is ever Accepting of repentance.

~An-Nasr [110:3]

P/s: 12 July-12 August.... Dah sebulan rupanya I bertapak di bumi Ky... Alhamdulillah. May my days ahead is always in His blessings.... =) Yeahhhh!

Sahur!!! Sahur!!!

Status: 11 Ramadan.

Music: Laungan azan subuh.

Sedar tak sedar dah lebih 10 hari dah pun kiter semua berada dlm bulan penuh keberkatan dan kemuliaan, Ramadan al mubarak.... Rasa sedih bertandang, apa sangat amal yang aq dah kumpul... Rasa macam lebih banyak membazir daripada mengutip... Nauzubillah. Typical human being, bila dah lepas baru terngadah.... Sedeyh.....

Skang ni pagi pagi memang liat jer nak pegi sahur... Bukan tak bangun tapi malas nak keluar chalet jalan pegi DH.... Adoiiiii~ Si Amni tu memang stiap pagi jer calling2 I kjutkan bangun sahur.... Still malas gak,, ape laaa nasib badan... Padahal waktu pagi hening subuh ni laa nak tengok bintang2 kat Ky yang bertaburan,, seyes cantekkkk! 

"People compares, they always do" 

Faham tak?? Aku tak tahu nape aq dah terbiasa nak men'compare'kan Ky ngan Faris Petra... Mungkin sebab 5 tahun ber'ramadan' kat hostel Faris Petra, jadi cam nak ter'compare' lak ngan Ky. But the truth is, tak banyak beza dooo.... Klu kat Ky berbukan kat DH ngan tray kejadah sumer tu, kat Faris Petra dulu pon kat dining n the tray jugak. (cuma tray Ky lawa sket jerrr) The food pon lbeyh kurang jer gak, cuma kat Faris Petra ada nasi kerabu ngan budu waktu berbukak while kat Ky ktorang penah berbukak ngan spagetty, mushroo soup, garlic bread jer... =D Klu dulu solat kat Masjid Semesta, kat Ky ada Surau As Saad. Kat Faris Petra ada tadarus, kat Ky pon ber'tadarus' gak.... Dlu ke bazar kat Pantai Timur Hypermarket kat Pc, kat sini bazar kat Tanjung Malim. Conclusion, nothing much to compare laaa....

Tengah-tengah down memikirkan iman yang turun naik ni, Alhamdulillah I terjumpa a warm, beautifully organize ayat from the al-Quran:

Sahih International

That Allah may forgive for you what preceded of your sin and what will follow and complete His favor upon you and guide you to a straight path

~Al Fath:2

See? He never forget His slaves, but do we remember Him often? Istighfar.. He is willing to forgive our  late sins and what will follow. I remind myself to always think before I do something, if I do this, would Allah swt will disappointed with me? I don't want to upset Him.... Sepanjang I hidup, Alhamdulillah Dia tak pernah lupa untuk limpahkan I dengan banyak banyak sangat rezeki. Tak lupa juga He granted my wishes, my doa. I would be so ungrateful if I fail to serve for Him.. Come on Syifa!!!! Bangun! Jangan lalai! Your aim is to grab the 'keredhaan Allah'! Manfaatkan Ramadan, who knows that you'll never meet the future Ramadan? 

Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah, Allahuakbar...

Remind me my dear friends, don't let me lalai dengan dunia...

New leaf

Kenal daun? Gambar daun lahh nie =)

Tadi mase dop godek-godek stuffs yang nak bawak ke kolej, tiba-tiba 'pop out' aper dahh bacaan for sujud sahwi? Dah lama dah tak buat sujud sahwi. Alhamdulillah,, semoga bertambah khusyuk lahh yer ibadat. Subhanallah. But wat's the ayat once again? Then I remember, teros jer I konfimkan kat internet. =)

سُبْحَانَ مَنْ لَا يَنَامُ وَلَا يَسْهُوْ

~ Maha suci Allah yang Tidak Tidur dan Tidak Lupa~

 And yup! That's the ayat! Alhamdulillah.. 

Oh ya, Sujud Sahwi adalah sujud dua kali yang dilakukan selepas atau sebelum salam kerana terlupa/tertinggal  dalam solat.

"A man who decided to change on twelve hour dies on eleventh hour" 

Penah dengar quote ni kan? I wonder.. Coz selalu jer dengar orang cakap,"Hidop ni sementara, enjoy selagi boleh", "Live your life to the fullest", "Masa muda ni lahhh nak enjoy, kang tua nanti taubat lahh"... Seriously, I'd heard all of that. Yes, hidup ni sementara and mati itu pasti. But only a few yang mention pasal mati dalam favourite quotes dorang and whatsoever.. Kalau lahh hari ni enjoy bagai nak rak segala, tapi esok mati (misalnya) tak ke mati katak kite? Tak cukup pun bekal nak bawa mengadap Allah swt. Nauzubillah.. Sedangkan kehidupan akhirat tu lahh yang kekal. Get my point?

I am waiting for the Ramadhan this year. As I was quite disappointed with the one I had last year. My Ramadhan tahon lepas was very very hambar. I was so busy with SPM-studying pada waktu malam, then I tertidow and bangun agak lewat as 6.oo am. *sad... But still alhamdulillah, tadarus went well during the afternoon, walaupon agak kalut ngan prep. Notes: Last year kitorang start tadarus kat masjid pada waktu tgh hari, sebab dah xboleh masuk asrama between the gap zohor and prep. Tak macam zaman muda-mudi form 1,2,3 sumer tu yang tadarus was after Asar.  

Life quite hectic last year. Jadual sumer berubah 180 degree different. Then we had to be in the dining room as early as 6.40 pm because kitorang kene siap kan our table, bubuh lauk, nasik sumer for ntuk berbukak. And yes, hidang menghidang lonih jadi semakin weirdo, we didn't use tray anymore. Even kuih pon kene sorok, sebab ader jer manusia yang suka amik hak orang. Well, budak sekolah laa kan... Notes again: meja prefect pon xder dowh kat dining.

But still, I managed to khatam last year! Thanked Allah. Hopefully to do the same this year. I have no idea how Ramadhan at Ky going to look like, I hope pengisian is more lahh.. 

From cik Hlovate di dalam Contengan Jalanan:

'' Orang yang beriman melihat hari di hadapannya sebagai kesempatan untuk meraih cinta dan redha Allah serta untuk mendapatkan syurga. Untuk itu dia perlu bekerja keras melakukan pekerjaan yang baik. Bagaimanapun sibuknya, dia tetap waspada agar tidak lalai daripada mencari redha Allah. Dia meneladani doa Nabi Sulaiman a.s sebagaimana di riwayatkan dalam ayat ke 19 surah an-Naml, dengan harapan Allah akan memberinya petunjuk dalam kegiatannya sepanjang hari: ".... Ya Tuhanku, berikanlah aku ilham untuk tetap mensyukuri nikmat-Mu yang telah Engkau anugerahkan kepadaku dan kepada kedua ibu bapaku  ,dan untuk mengerjakan amal soleh yang Engkau redhai; dan masukkanlah aku dengan rahmatMu ke dalam golongan hamba-hamba Mu yang soleh"'

(an-Naml:19)

Sahih International

So [Solomon] smiled, amused at her speech, and said, "My Lord, enable me to be grateful for Your favor which You have bestowed upon me and upon my parents and to do righteousness of which You approve. And admit me by Your mercy into [the ranks of] Your righteous servants."

 Hope for the better, pray for the best, push yourself to the limit. The sun is brighter, and the moon is beautiful, the nature is calming if you look them along the word "Subhanallah"

I am not perfect, but I look for a better me. I welcome anyone who are willing to teach me Islam. =)

MUJAHID.. MUJAHADDAH...

ASSALAMUALAIKUM


Aper khabar smuanya?? 
Kekadangkan pernah tak kita terfikir bahawa kita sering sahaja mendapat apa yang kita inginkan.. segala limpah kesenangan dan kesihatan tubuh badan... Meski bukan setiap saat kita memohon kepada-Nya agar diberi kemurahan rezeki.. dan apabila kita mendapat sesuatu yang diingini adakah kita bersujud syukur serta mengucapkan kalimah Alhamdulillah.. Pencoret bercakap mengenai hal ini berdasarkan pengalaman pencoret selama 18 tahun menjadi hamba Allah di atas muka bumi ini... Subhanallah...
I'm not a perfectionist neither an  intelligent person.. I'm just me.. kekadang sedar kekadang lupa...
Throughout my whole journey, since I was kid,, I tend to ramble, do everything although it is not necessary.. I guess by trying something new will shape a better me.. Well, not all of them are wrong.. 


Dear readers,, meh nak cter something..
When I was in primary school, I am a quite active person.. I used to participate in story-telling, academics quiz, camping, all kind of sports ( to be mentioned, lots of them).. No one really knows the reasons why I was so eager joining all of those activities.. And yet, by joining all of the co-curricular activities, I was still perfoming in my academic.. weird huh? Don't ask me why, because I am so not a read-a-lot student.. But I was still aiming for either MRSM or boarding school,, hopefully my secondary school would definitely located outside of Kelantan.. How I wish somehow..


Nak tahu nape pencoret craving for secondary school which is outside Kelantan? and the same reason why I was keeping myself busy with the activities at school? hahaha... It is so funny because I was just twelve at that moment.. Suppose a 'kid' think a lot, well I mean kinda stuff that was so beyond to think of.. Never mind.. Actually, I hate being at home.. The only thing which helps me get through the days, is only TV.. haha,, like d-uhh.. My annoying siblings, and we fought all the times when it comes to "giliran sesaper tengop TV" hahaha.. typical kids.. mende gadoh psal tu.


But when I was accepted to Faris Petra Secondary Science School ( skang dah high perfomance school you, zaman I dulu sempat ngan kluster jer) I learnt a lot of unthink-of stuff.. seriously! Listen korang,, duduk kat boarding school neh, korang akan develops more about self-thinking, independent skills (laa, cam dlm karangan laa) and to anyone yang seeking for improvement of 'ibadat', here is the place.. bla,bla,bla SBP mcam jail laa, cam hapak xleyh bawak henset laa, rules sana sini and whatsoever,, if you guys xleh nak adapt, don't blame the environment laa,, nampak sngat yang korang tu lembik.. ops! sorry ayat ter'over' misbehave.. pardon me,.  To tell the truth kan, pencoret banyak belajar kat sini, tak only for exam-oriented , but on how we can survive despite segala kekurangan.. I am not only talking about my school yer, whenever you go, choose the right path dear.. Life is not that easy, sometimes we have to be demanding! klu korang jenis yang just go on with the flow all of the times, susah kak, abang... I used to be naqibah ( Badan Pelajar Islam), this organization is mainly to give advises, and organise usrah.. to my adik2 yg penah dengar Kak Syifa cakap ( I wont say them as 'ceramah') salah silap, maafkan yer.. Like I said, I am not a perfectionist, but I always seek for self improvement.. always be... 


After being here, I love home so much! and it also makes me appreciate for having such a wonderful family.. penah dengo, missing makes you loving! Pencoret memang sayang ngat kat rumah after five years kat Faris Petra, parents (of course laa), siblings too,, hahaha,, their annoying made me remember every single fighting kat umah... sayang smua adek-beradek ku... owwww....


To recall my journey, I'd never heard somebody personally advise me to take care of my religion,.. I wish taw takk, when somedays there are persons who kindly said.. "Syifa, tolong jaga agama Allah",, kita selalu dapat aper yang kite nak kan? (I mean most of the times) but pernah tak kita berusaha memberi apa yang diperintahkan-Nya? It always so easy to take rather than giving.. okay, okay.. understood! I am still in the middle of learning, understanding, somewhere in between.. Realizing this, yes, I admit without His helps, I am nothing... Usaha memang selalu ade, tapi prayers, tawakkal, faith, are the things yang memang amat diperlukan.. 
we are khalifah dear,, always bear in mind please.. (I am reminding myself as well)

“Dan Kami tidak mengutuskan engkau (Muhammad) melainkan untuk menjadi rahmat bagi seluruh alam.” 

[QS al-Anbiya’, 21:107] 

Jika kita belajar sejauh mana sekali pun,  hati kena ikhlas, insyaAllah dipermudahkan segala urusan.. All of us are human being, sama jer, darjat ke ape mende are not count okay. Kalau kita baik di mata-Nya, insyaAllah baik di mata seluruh umat.. Tak kira kat mana pun, we are the one who decide nak pilih jalan mana, we did have choice unless we destroy them. Dear teens, jaga ibadat, jaga hubungan dengan Allah dan sesama makhluk.. God bless you =)

“Orang-orang yang beriman, mereka berperang di jalan Allah, dan orang-orang yang kafir berperang di jalan Taghut, maka perangilah kawan-kawan syaitan itu, sesungguhnya tipu daya syaitan itu lemah.”  

[QS an-Nisa’, 4:76] 

 “Dan di antara manusia ada orang yang mengorbankan dirinya untuk mencari keredhaan Allah. Dan Allah Maha Penyantun kepada hamba-hamba-Nya.” 

[QS al-Baqarah, 2:207] 

muhasabah~

~SUBHANALLAH~

human memang x perfect kan.. 

I want to change so bad... hampir mnitis air mata ku.. bler t'kenang

how far that I go from the exact path yg spatutnya aq lalui..

astargfirullah..

that's it, next time you see me, insyaallah I 'd change for good

pray for me,, okay!

as I always say,, He knows the best for me..

Ameen~