He is watching

Have I told you I am a fragile and soft-hearted girl?

Yes I am. Believe it or not. 

Mood swing, feel so happy for a while when watching the dikir barat performances on conjunction with Malam Citra Budaya. But when I slapped myself into reality, hey Syifa, wake up! 

Cinta Allah. Forever to be grabbed. Seek taubat Syifa. Fast, now.

"Tuhan tidak pernah menjanjikan satu hari tanpa ujian dan halangan dalam kehidupan ini,

tetapi Dia menjanjikan kekuatan buat kita setiap hari untuk melalui semua ujian yang Dia beri."

~Quoted~

Tak faham lagi?

Sahih International

Say, "O My servants who have transgressed against themselves [by sinning], do not despair of the mercy of Allah . Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful."

Malay

Katakanlah (wahai Muhammad): "Wahai hamba-hambaKu yang telah melampaui batas terhadap diri mereka sendiri (dengan perbuatan-perbuatan maksiat), janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah, kerana sesungguhnya Allah mengampunkan segala dosa; sesungguhnya Dia lah jua Yang Maha Pengampun, lagi Maha Mengasihani.

 Az-Zumar: 53

=')

Iridescent

Bismillah

This is going to be a short post. I promise. I had lots of kerja rumah to be settled yet I am insisting to update this blog. Hehe

Well, guess what? Alhamdulillah, this petang, we, students of Kyuem had got our Kad Diskaun Siswa and RM 250 baucar buku (sorry la, budak-budak Ky lambat sikit dapat).. Best Best. And more good news that The BigBadWolf  Books will organised another aftermath sale and we can use our voucher! Hurrah. InsyaAllah, my friends and I are planning to go on trip to MIECC next week! Amin amin amin. May Allah makes ease our plan.

Nak tunjuk jugak.

And yeah, the actual point is, of course petang tadi we had to queue for a very long line which we ourselves did not sure whether we were on the right lane. Like I'm swear, panjang gila barisan tadi. Nabila was lined up behind me. While queuing, I was thinking of one thing. 

"Semua benda yang best kat dunia ni mesti kena tunggu dan ramai orang nak. Tapi kalau kita sabar dan yakin kita akan dapat, insyaAllah kita akan dapat jugak"

Do you get my point? Or maybe not.

Okey macam ini,

Dapat vouchers buku tu best kan? Semua orang nak. Dan aku pun dah beratur dah. Walaupun lambat menunggu dalam barisan, akhirnya aku dapat jugak. Then, I reflected it with what I've been through everyday once when I wake up. 'Bilalah nak dapat offer ni?' But when I realised, a small good thing such as the vouchers pun nak kena beratur panjang bagai, then apatah lagi dengan the big thing such as an offer yang beribu-ribu orang nak. So, the key point is be patient. Good things do not come easy. 

And Allah loves As-Sabirin (the patient ones.) 

(3:146)

A senior once told me that, "Wherever, whenever, you are, you always can find ibrah in everything even in a very very small things.' And Alhamdulillah, by living like that, I'll be calmer. Berbaik sangka dengan Allah. Dia punya segala isi di bumi dan di langit. We should be humble and ask from Him. Indeed He is the Most Giving. =)

The promise

Status: Homework. Math test tomorrow. *fainted

Location: GH. (Great Hall) Minggu Citra Budaya night.

Si A, to be pronounced as Si A not CA. Si A is  a chinese guy in one of my classes at Ky.

Si A: Err, hello there, hye can you please pass me the camp(camera).

(He was sitting in front of me during the prize-giving ceremony and the camera was right beside me)

Me: Oh, here you go.

Si A: Thank you so much. (pause.......)  Are you the girl in my **** class? We are in the same class right?

Me: Yup, two classes actually.

Si A: Really? How come I didn't notice you at all. Oww, so you do talk?

Me: I do. I talk everyday.

Si A: But why you are so invincible? I don't think my friends will recognize you either. You should talk more laa. (He used as friendly tone as possible) 

Me: I am fine. Thank you. ^^

.........................................................................................................................

I was alone in my chalet. After Zohor, I found this. 

(14:21)

Sahih International

And they will come out [for judgement] before Allah all together, and the weak will say to those who were arrogant, "Indeed, we were your followers, so can you avail us anything against the punishment of Allah ?" They will say, "If Allah had guided us, we would have guided you. It is all the same for us whether we show intolerance or are patient: there is for us no place of escape."

Malay

Dan mereka sekalian tetap akan berhimpun mengadap Allah (untuk dihisab pada hari kiamat); kemudian orang-orang yang lemah (yang menjadi pengikut) kepada orang-orang yang sombong takbur itu akan berkata kepada mereka (yang menjadi pemimpinnya): "Sesungguhnya kami telah menjadi pengikut kamu; maka adakah kamu dapat menolak daripada kami sedikit dari azab Allah? " Mereka menjawab: "Kalaulah Allah menunjukkan jalan selamat kepada kami, tentulah kami tunjukkan jalan itu kepada kamu. (Sekarang) sama sahaja kepada kita, sama ada kita menggelisah dan mengeluh atau kita bersabar, tiadalah sebarang jalan bagi kita untuk melepaskan diri (dari azab itu)".

And even the satan will say this to you.

(14:22)

Sahih International

And Satan will say when the matter has been concluded, "Indeed, Allah had promised you the promise of truth. And I promised you, but I betrayed you. But I had no authority over you except that I invited you, and you responded to me. So do not blame me; but blame yourselves. I cannot be called to your aid, nor can you be called to my aid. Indeed, I deny your association of me [with Allah ] before. Indeed, for the wrongdoers is a painful punishment."

Malay

Dan berkatalah pula Syaitan setelah selesai perkara itu: "Sesungguhnya Allah telah menjanjikan kamu dengan janji yang benar dan aku telah menjanjikan kamu lalu aku mungkiri janjiku itu kepada kamu; dan tiadalah bagiku sebarang alasan dan kuasa mempengaruhi kamu selain daripada aku telah mengajak kamu lalu kamu terburu-buru menurut ajakanku itu; maka janganlah kamu salahkan daku tetapi salahkan diri kamu sendiri. Aku tidak dapat menyelamatkan kamu dan kamu juga tidak dapat menyelamatkan daku. Sesungguhnya dari dahulu lagi aku telah kufur ingkarkan (perintah Tuhan) yang kamu sekutukan daku denganNya". Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang zalim (yang meletakkan sesuatu pada bukan tempatnya) beroleh azab yang tidak terperi sakitnya.

Are you a leader? Are you a follower? That doesn't matter because you are the one who will suffer from all of you wrongdoing, misbehavior and sins. The leader will be punish if he lead his community to the wrong path. The follower will be punish for choosing and electing a bad, devious leader. It is a matter of fact, punishment for the  wrong choices. So, Every time you want to make a decision, think wisely! 

No one will help you upon those sins that you commit for, except for 'syafaat' from our beloved Prophet pbuh. So why wait? Do selawat for him everyday as he will help us because we are his ummah. Amin, Amin, Amin. 

Rasulullah pbuh had made the promise right? And have faith that he will never ever let us down. Never.

 If, if, if we first do no let him down.

Jom selawat banyak-banyak! ^^


p/s: The ayats are from surah 'Ibrahim.

Day 11: Back to December

Bismillah. 

There there, the closure day of the year is almost here. Say hello to new year! Well, actually we did celebrate our new year not too long before, Awal Muharam but I guess people are more eager to celebrate the upcoming January rather than Awal Muharam. And why was that? You have your own answer, so rethink about it. 

Fireworks, concerts, movies, dinner at fabulous restaurants *include candle lights are the ways we, people, human being celebrate our New Year. And I do not mean all of us are in that way. Some, major proportions of humans who are still living in this planet are the victims of hedonism. It is a trend and a shame. Astargfirullah.

Our Lord, The Almighty, do give us a reminder. Sometimes we take them too lightly, and that make us gone astray. Who should be blame for this? We, ourselves.

Al-An'am (6:32) 

Sahih International

And the worldly life is not but amusement and diversion; but the home of the Hereafter is best for those who fear Allah , so will you not reason?

Malay

Dan tidak (dinamakan) kehidupan dunia melainkan permainan yang sia-sia dan hiburan yang melalaikan: dan demi sesungguhnya negeri akhirat itu lebih baik bagi orang-orang yang bertaqwa. Oleh itu, tidakkah kamu mahu berfikir?

 Please, do give your soul, your mind a chance to strengthen your faith. Faith in Islam.Most importantly faith in Allah swt. You will not regret it. HE gives you HIS words, ayats.

Al-Qiyamah (75:20)

"Kulla bal tuhibbu nal ajilah"

Sahih International

No! But you love the immediate

Malay

Sedarlah wahai orang-orang yang lalai. (Sebenarnya kamu tidak ingatkan kesudahan kamu) bahkan kamu sentiasa mencintai (Kesenangan dan kemewahan dunia) yang cepat habisnya.

Less words are used, but it reveals a BIG meaning. Sehari semuka tafsir pun cukuplah ^_^

Imperfect human beings are who we are. Tolong ingatkan aku katanya Ana Raffali. Kbai

Day3 & Day4 : Busy as I say

Bismillah.

A promise to be kept. And here I am, spending some time for you, my dearest blog.

And the time flew like the cold, noisy river water. They're fast. Very fast I told ya.

I have to go elsewhere this Sunday. Lots of stuffs should be taken care of, dozens of works need to be completed. And yet I start to realise that speed is all I need. And not just speed, I crave for acceleration people! 

Distractions, temptations go away. Leave me alone.

*Oh dear, I am not being pessimistic.

Please remember, for what HE asks me, you, us to do, there is no any harm in it. ISLAM teaches you good deeds, and for you to ease everything that you work for. Do not dare to sigh. Your job is to study, just that. And for you getting the remarkable grade, then you will fly. Everything is just in-front of you, Syifa. *or do you need to double the spectacles?

So which favors of your LORD would you deny?

*Credit to Fifi

وَجَـٰهِدُواْ فِى ٱللَّهِ حَقَّ جِهَادِهِۦ‌ۚ هُوَ ٱجۡتَبَٮٰكُمۡ وَمَا جَعَلَ عَلَيۡكُمۡ فِى ٱلدِّينِ مِنۡ حَرَجٍ۬‌ۚ

22:78

Sahih International

And strive for Allah with the striving due to Him. He has chosen you and has not placed upon you in the religion any difficulty.

Malay

Dan berjihadlah kamu pada jalan Allah dengan jihad yang sebenar-benarnya Dia lah yang memilih kamu (untuk mengerjakan suruhan agamanya); dan Ia tidak menjadikan kamu menanggung sesuatu keberatan dan susah payah dalam perkara agama

  Get my point? Actually it is for self-reminder. I am becoming quite troublesome to myself lately. 

Study hard, pray hard.

Quran is the best remedy. Nite!

p/s: Congratulations to all my high school juniors back in Faris Petra which ranked 1st in their PMR. Sbp I supposed. New record huh? Not bad. And of course the teachers are the playmakers! =)

From a deep,dark ocean

Assalamualaikum.

"Ketika diri mencari sinar, secebis cahaya menerangi laluan, adakalanya langkah ku tersasar, tersungkur di lembah kegelapan..."

Sahih International

And if an evil suggestion comes to you from Satan, then seek refuge in Allah . Indeed, He is Hearing and Knowing.

(7:200)

Daripada Kak Adah yang disayangi,

‎:: iman itu umpama air laut.. naik turunnya spt pasang surut.. ombak itu adalah ujian, menghiasi suatu ciptaan.. indah di mata tapi al-Khaliq lebih mengetahui.. Lantaran itu, ar-Rahman tak menguji melainkan hambaNya akan mampu menghadapinya.. teguhnya pantai mendidik insan y seakan pasir, kdg2 pasir itu akan hanyut bersama, tapi sebaik2 ciptaan Rabbi, ia kan kembali pada pantai.. Allah mentarbiah jiwa hambaNya y selalu leka agar tak jauh dari keagunganNya.. semoga murkaNya tak menghukum leka..::

 Kadang-kadang kita sering leka, alam dunia terlalu indah di mata, sehinggakan ia mengaburkan pandangan kita terhadap keindahan syurga. Jika hari ini kita 18, 19 tahun, siapa sangka jika riwayat kita tamat pada usia 20? Cukupkah segala amalan yang kita kerjakan sepanjang hayat dikandung badan?  Apa alasan kepada Sang Pencipta, jika disoal tentang amalan di dunia?

Sedarlah diri, lakukan pecutan dalam berbuat amalan kebaikan. Amatlah rugi bagi seorang muslim yang hatinya keras untuk memahami Islam.

Matang = Faham Islam.
Siapa yang memahami Islam yang sebenar, kematangannya akan melangkaui mereka yang lebih berusia.

~Hilal Asyraf~

 Saya sedang berusaha menjadi hamba yang 'matang'. Doakan saya. Doakan Islam. ^^

Indeed, my protector is Allah , who has sent down the Book (Al-Quran); and He is an ally to the righteous.

(7:196)

 Jom, menjadi hamba! ^__^

Time for WAR

After seminggu kat rumah for study week,, wlaupun bukanlah 'study week' sangat pun. Non-stop next week aq akan berhadapan dengan sem-exam. My first sem-exam. Don't give up before berjuang. Watever the result is, aq takkan sdeyh (mcam dah dpat jer gambaran nyer camne kan...) dan aq takkan compare dengan orang len.. Sbb aq tak taw efforts orang len, tapi aq taw efforts aq. Chill =P

Bak kata Kak Miera, "seteruk mana pun result korang, move on jerr, xder laa sampai xleh hidop bagai, nak mati, nak kuar kolej.. Buat jerrr."

Malas ahhh nak bermadah-madah panjang neh, especially nanti naek bas malam ni, mesti bebudak se-Ky ngan aq mention, "Aq xsentuh buku lansung doewww!", "Eleh, rilek rrr,,, aq pon tak kiasu gak", "Balik Ky kter kiasu laaa", "Ehhh,,, takowtnyerrr banyak lagi tak tahu niii...".

Percayalah korang, yang berkata sebegitu adalah mereka yang dah habis 4-5 kali hafal buku sudah.

Jangan terpedaya.

Hidup tak terhenti dengan penyesalan.. (Apsal aq epik semacam neh?)

Gambo Masjid kat depan rumah. (gambo diamik menerusi tingkap bilik Kak Cik) Tempat aq membesar, bermain hide&seek, tempat berterawih, tempat solat, tempat bermain beskal... Balik Ky mesti rindu masjid.... uhuk3....

Oh ya, semalam aq bersemangat dengar khutbah Jumaat, (melalui tingkap bilik jerr )

Imam ada memetik ayat dari surah Al Ahzab:72

Sahih International

Indeed, we offered the Trust to the heavens and the earth and the mountains, and they declined to bear it and feared it; but man [undertook to] bear it. Indeed, he was unjust and ignorant.

Malay

Sesungguhnya Kami telah kemukakan tanggungjawab amanah (Kami) kepada langit dan bumi serta gunung-ganang (untuk memikulnya), maka mereka enggan memikulnya dan bimbang tidak dapat menyempurnakannya (kerana tidak ada pada mereka persediaan untuk memikulnya); dan (pada ketika itu) manusia (dengan persediaan yang ada padanya) sanggup memikulnya. (Ingatlah) sesungguhnya tabiat kebanyakan manusia adalah suka melakukan kezaliman dan suka pula membuat perkara-perkara yang tidak patut dikerjakan.

 Banyaklaa lagi yang beliau explain, but the keyword is there, "Sesape yang pegang amanah, peliharalah ia sebaek mungkin, sebab semua amanah tersebut akan disoal di Padang Mahsyar kelak". Best doeee cter Ustaz ni kongsikan.. Tapi aq xpandai nak cter kan balik. Sorry adek kakak sekalian.

(Rahsia: Aq ngan Husna penah stay kat tempat solat muslimat di Ky, masa solat jumaat. Sebab nak dengar khutbah drpd Ustaz Malikie. Secret taw, jangan bagi taw org len! Shuhhhhh)

Bas pukul 9.30 malam ni ke Tanjung Malim

Doakan selamat pergi dan sampai yer =)

Bismillah,....

Life what you make it

Dear life, please be colourful. I wish to be happy, I wish I could be a better slave for HIM, I wish I am a better ummah, I wish I am a daughter that every parents would love to have, I wish I am a wonderful companion, I wish I am an excellent student, I wish I don't feel bad about my life...

But all of them are just wishes.

Did I wish for my efforts to be enough to get what I wish for?

Ungrateful.

There's should be a large space for Allah, Rasul, Islam..

Ungrateful again.

By time, mankind is in loss,

Sahih International

Except for those who have believed and done righteous deeds and advised each other to truth and advised each other to patience.

 You knew what surah is this. =)

Thank You Allah. Alhamdulillah.

Apabila bosan......

Flashback......

Situasi di Ky.......

Kat depan chalet slepas balik solat Isya', ternampak a group of budak Sapphire berbual-bual... Dengan bersemangat laa kan aq nak join, my mind wondered wat they were talking about?? Ade taklim ke hari ni?

Sedari X:  Come Syifa, join us!

Aq: Ade ape hal? Ade announcement ke?

Sedari X: No, we're just chatting. Do you know Adam Levine?

Aq: Errr.... budak Ky ke tu?

Para sedari smua: hahahahahahahaha~ 

Seyes malu dowh,,, mana laa aq tahu Adam Levine tu sape. Sumpah tak kenal pon. Then oleh sebab teramat laa malu, aq meminta diri ntuk masuk ke dalam chalet.Kononnya, nak siapkan omwork maths. Hadoii..... Klu korang tanya aq sape Van Persie, Fabregas, Samir Nasri, Arshavin, Walcott ke boleh laaa aq jawabkan... Okeyh, tanya player Arsenal yang dahulu kala pon aq bleh jawab gak, Thierry Henry, Jose Antonio Reyes, Jens Lehman, Mathieu Flamini, Dennis Bergkamp, Emmanuel Adebayor and bla bla bla.....

Bila aq ingat semula laa kan,,, before masuk secondary school, aq memang dah berjinak-jinak tengok EPL kan... Then bila masuk boarding school, agak jarang dah aq dapat tengok TV. Tapi, korang faham-faham laa kan, classmates aq memang 'informer' bab2 score di pagi hari. And part paling tak best, bila Arsenal kalah, sebelom aq jejak masuk dining hall for breakfast jer, dah ada makhluk2 prihatin yang laung "Syifa, Arsenal mu kaloh semalea!" you're welcome. (aq selalu ke DH awal glerr kowt, sbb nak study kat kelas after tu)

Geng-geng Arsenal kat Faris Petra:

Solah, Pase, Adil, Anah, Wong (dan aq dah tak ingat dah....)

hahaha~ tibe-tibe jer... No offense.

Di Ky, aq dah tahu menahu ape-ape pon  psal EPL... Kekadang masok IT lab, skodeng2 laa gak kan score... (wahaha,,,, tpi kelas ICT Dr Ravi dah habes...) Let the gone by gone.. InsyaAllah bler sampai UK nanti boleh fanatik balik... =D 

Kat ky ni, insyaAllah, nak jaga semua, nak jadik rajen, nak jadi ayu hafaz quran slow-slow, nak join usrah banyak2, nak fokus ape yang penting dulu. Dulu tak nampak sangat ape signifikan Allah beri tu, tak bagi yang ni, benda tu susah, yang ni senang pulak,, sebab jarang berfikir. Sekarang dah besar, Alhamdulillah fikiran dah semakin waras, dah dapat berfikir dengan lebih baik, rasa syukur tu terlalu banyak sebenarnya.... 

Subhanallah Alhamdulillah Allahuakbar

Sahih International

And those who strive for Us - We will surely guide them to Our ways. And indeed, Allah is with the doers of good.

(29:69)

 InsyaAllah =)

Study Week

Status: Konon laaa kan....

Aktiviti: Mix and terabur...

Saya rajenn sebenarnya.... Saya kan nak jadi doktor.... Tapi......

Memetik kata senior Omar Khalilurrahman di FB,

"The awkward moment when a college gives you a one

week study leave, but the place you can really study 

is in college"

Dan juga kata2 seorang senior ky yang amat peramah dan berguna,

"Ohh chill lah, sem exam jer kot, x pnting sgt pun.

(mau keno bunuh aku ore lain tau ________ oyak gini)"

Dan Kak Rain berkata,

" Oh come on,,,, waktu after 1st sem exam, hampir 95% jumpa mr azman 

sebab xlepas point. huahua"

(Ucapan2 diatas tidakku tokok tambah yer)

Adakah I mudah terpengaruh??

Study, study, study!

La yukallifullah hu nafsan illah wusaha...

Ayat hari nie:

Sahih International

And Allah wants to lighten for you [your difficulties]; and mankind was created weak.

(4:28)

Ujian Budak A-level

Status: 24 Ramadan.. Sad :(

Day after day, kesabaran makin teruji manantikan hari Sabtu yang bakal berkunjung tiba.. (Balikkkk Kelantannnnnn!!!!) 

Dear Syifa,

Kenapa penat? Bukan ke dulu kemain ko nak belajar medic? tak ke? tak ke? Baru Cambridge A-level jer kowt.... Pehal ko gelabah semacam? (bunyi bajetnyer terer gler kowt CIE).. Sabar, even Fatimah mengadu penat kat Rasulullah pon, Rasulullah suruh sebutkan 'Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah, Allahuakbar'... Apatah lagi kan ko? Don't feel like  you have it enough... This is only the beginning derrr... Say bismillah....

Tu lah manusia, kter tak lari dari rser give up... Istighfar.... Penat-penat jer SPM, interview bagai klu dahh sket pon rser leteyh.. Sabar yer =)

Kak Ajah:

"Ingat, kita adalah hamba Allah, jangan pernah persoalkan kenapa Allah uji kita begini.. Sebab tugas seorang hamba adalah untuk mengikut semua arahan Majikannya"

Aisyah Hani:

"You choose medic rite? So why complain on science? It's your job to find the way of studying. Don't be afraid of 'try and error' concept. Once you'll find you own way of studying, just stick on it."

Zameer Eizaaz:

"Syurga itu adalah untuk orang hebat-hebat dan bukan untuk orang yang biasa-biasa. Mujahadah itu pahit kerana syurga itu manis."

Kak Adah:

"Berubah itu susah, ambil masa. Jika dulu kita tahu sahaja, sekarang kita dah tahu dan faham. Be strong, insyaAllah dipermudahkan."

Hijaz Adenan: 

"Jom jadi scholar terbaik untuk Kolej Yayasan Ramadan!"

Sometimes few sentences can make us think big. I am on my way of finding Him. I want to change. Setinggi mana pon darjat kita di dunia, kalau hati terasa kosong tak kemana... Kenapa Allah bagi kita 24 hours and not 25, 27 hours semua tu? Dia Maha Mengetahui.. 

And Allah's command:

Sahih International

And I did not create the jinn and mankind except to worship Me.

(Adh-Dhariyat 51:56)