Go Go Gunners

Status: Deeply sad and emotional unstable. 

Music: Run by Snow Patrol

I should hide my face now. Yesterday, I promised myself if I got A for my organic test, I will reward myself with a new Arsenal jersey. And the test was this morning. And based on what I answered, A seems quite high to be grab. So sad. I want that jersey so bad.

Well, I think we shall wait for the marks.

And have I told you about another sad story about the new sweater I'd just bought?

Few months ago, I saw a very prettay sweater at the mall. And you know what I saw, I thought I saw a Liverpool badge on the left corner of the sweater. And it was blue in color. I was pretty sure that it was Liverpool. Well, although I am very much a Arsenal girl, but I do not hold any grudge towards Liverpool as it is my Abah favorite team of all time. Actually I did look for Arsenal's but I can't find it, so when I saw the Liverpool's, I just quickly grabbed it and went to the cashier. If it was Liverpool's, I thought of having my Abah pay for it and surely he didn't mind.

Unfortunately, when I returned home, it was not Liverpool's, but Chelsea's!!!!  Stressed! You have no idea how much I hated Chelsea. And yet I accidentally bought it. Why on earth  that I did not look at the badge properly? What was I thinking, it is BLUE! BLUE I said! It made sense rite, Chelsea=Blue. Liverpool = never blue. I felt so stupid.

And the consequence for that regretted event, I kept the sweater in my closet at home for about two months. Buried it with a crushed hope and dream in the closet. (I am that dramatic when it came to football) And only last holidays, I remembered about the sweater, and made me thinking, I was the one who bought it, and membazir adalah amalan syaiton ni rojim. Therefore, I took it and brought it back to college. Sadly yes, but at least it occupied me when I was too lazy to put long sleeve shirt on when my stomach was grumbling and I had to go to the dining hall. 

Although I hated when people asked me spontaneously, "Aik, asal Chelsea dohhh?", I think, I have to bear with it. Whatever. An Arsenal keychain is hung on my bag but I wear Chelsea's sweater instead. How ironic was that. 

Never mind, I knew I am always a Gunners. Just pretend that you see my case as Van Persie's betrayal to Arsenal and went to MU, or Henry's immigration to Barca long long time ago, or or Reyes decision to Madrid. Similar case huh. Whatev.

Tojo must be 'gelak'ing me when he knew about this story. Well, as if I am going to tell him. Memang tak la kan. Salam berhujung minggu.

Untalkative Bunny

Music: Lagu Kita by Aizat Amdan

Mood: Penat but I stay awake! Test S2 on Hypothesis Testing tomorrow.

A junior gave me this button badge for my belated birthday
Yeay! hehe.  Thank you miss RunsingRuncing!

Bismillah. Finally this is it, just now I had finished one very last Muscom meeting at surau. So, as our President had mentioned in the fb group, everyone must give final speech during the meeting, I was already cuak for days as I don't know what to say. I mean of course I would say 'sorry' and 'thank you' but is there anything that I would like to clarify? As expected, once I entered the surau, I already knew that the mood should be gloomy and melancholic. 

So, basically all of us, gave our own speech on how we learnt something and appreciate  Muscom. There were few times when I cucuk-cucuk Ain asking her what I am supposed to say. I ended writing some footnotes on my phone in case I am terribly lost!. Diyana said to me, 'Ala Syifa pandai cakap laa, tulis blog pon best jer', then I was like bermonolog dalaman 'Omaigad, she read my blog! Did I ever termengumpat her in my blog??' just kidding hehe. Any way, I replied to her, ' Eh tak sama la, kite tak pandai cakap. Dalam blog tu tulis bukan cakap, tak pe lah.' Yes, it is true. Most of the time I feel so comfortable spilling out all trashes in my mind in my blog since it is very convincing that no one would read my blog. Well, at least that is what I thought. So, here, in this very own page, I am more out-loud than I am in actual life or in facebook. 

Back to the topic, so in my amanat speech during the meeting, I mentioned that Muscom taught me to be more quiet and do not talk much especially in meetings. Yes, it did. I was a lousy, talkative girl back then when I was in high school and primary school. But when I came to Ky, I am a girl which is living in her own world. Hah. Tak da la samapai macam tu. But I am being different from the norm. It was a good thing actually as when you are quiet, you tend to learn more and hear more. Being observant does not make you an idiot but teach you to be more concerned on what are happening around you. Seriously.

Apaapapun, hand-over is on Thursday. Malam. Surau As-Saad. Do come. Eh, budak Ky jer la. Yana pun yang tengah baca tu, moh datang. Hehehe.

Conclusion, I am no good at confronting people. So, if you want me to express what I feel about you, do write them down or ask me on my Formspring

LOL

SetuaHujungNyawa

Status: Aq rasa ngantuk gila skang neh walaupon jam di tangan menunjukkan pukul 6.30 petang. Tak boleh tidur, malam ni episod last Setia Hujung Nyawa kotttt...

Bercakap tentang SSH, pagi tadi punya lah semangat aku bangun tidur awal-awal walaupun semalam tidur pukul 3 pagi, dan free block aku di hening pagi, aku sudah bergegas pergi ke bilik tv sbb casts of SSH akan muncul di MHI pada pukul 8.15. hehe.. Dan seusai kelas Bio, ada free block lagi, dan ke bilik tv lagi untuk tengok sekali lagi penampilan casts SSH di WHI pada pukul 12.30. Nampak tak ketaksuban melampau di situ. Buruk betul perangai aku. And this another syndrome of tak sabar nak balik rumah esok! Yeay! Oh ya, petang tadi pon ada live chat dengan Amar Asyraf dan Nelydia dekat portal tv3. Yang ni aku tak follow laa sebab banyak sangat dah aku membuang masa hari ni. Esok test taw tak! Taw tak! Dah jangan nak berangan tidur awal malam ni ek.

That's all, nak pegi dinner and terus ke tv room.

Sekali ni jer, episod akhir dah pun. 

Ok Bai.

Random-talks

Bismillah.

Yesterday I made one post in fb about my dissatisfaction on how a person commented on me on a piece of junk paper, and you know what I am not the only person who got 'the sumpah-tak-boleh-blah comments'. There were few other members as well who also got that terribly-not-well-organise-harsh comments. Well said girl, you are so brave. I mean, if you have guts to comment like that on paper, I am sure you have no probs on talking one on one will ya? But no, I am not going to make a chaos out of this. Really, people are not as nice as they look like. The person who wrote 'it' might be the person who once sat beside me in Chemistry class. I am not pointing my finger to anybody, just saying. Only Allah knows.

Well well well,

I hate repaying hatred. So lets move on. As I attended Czech Republic medical school talk, I noticed that Czech wasn't bad after all. And the living cost there is not as high as Uk, like daaahhhh.... Only few who turned up at the talk, but I am getting a good insights through their briefings. But of course, I am crossing my fingers to Ireland, if the God permits.

My conversation with Abah was always interesting. My Abah is a kind of man who is very fond of gadgets. I called Abah just now, and guess what, he has had a new Iphone 5. Jealous. Haha. Well-updated Abah. And I am just like a mak nenek babbling through the phone, "Ya Allah, bukea ko ado doh handpon, beli pulok wak gaponyo? Eeee,,, banyok pitih weh datuk ni..." And the rest was history. And one sad news was, I called home and my Umi just went to Langkawi for 4-days meeting and next week I will return home for chinese-new-year break but unfortunately my parents will off to Labuan. I is sad. haha..

Till then folks, 

I have to study. Chem and Maths. Tests are on Friday. Bye.

Pink

Mood:  I'm coming home, I'm coming home. Yeah. I lie.

Music: Stay

I hate when people ask for opinion, but the way they ask are much more like I have no other choice except to nod my head for what they said. It is a reverse reaction. You gave me answer for what you asked. How ashamed. 

Wrap it up. Almost done here, err I mean for AS. One paper to go which is lucky paper 1 Biology. Say hello to MCQ. I still need to finish my presentation for Malaysian Study. May Lee has been waiting for ages for my part. Poor her, but she is a very kind and tolerable girl indeed. *tabik

I have a thought. 

People can be different in many ways. Those who talk a lot might not be good at recognising others' emotions. Those who tend to choose to be quiet all the time may be good at expressing their feeling by writing, poetry, using quotations and so on. Because I met these people and they are really impressive upon playing their roles. They are unpredictable. Sometimes situational cue does have its own influence on how to manipulate a person's thought. People change according to places that they'd been admitted to. It is called adaptation. And there are zillions of ways how people can adapt to a particular places. They act differently at different places causing others to think that they might have multiple personality. But actually they are not. Fuhhhh.... Sumpah aq yakin korang tak paham. Don't feel bad to admit. Please do. 

Bagi konklusi la senang.

It is not about dispositional factor only that has an effect on a person's behavioural changes, please take into account situational cue as well.

Madah yang tak bleh blah pada larut malam. Abaikan.

Oh hey, Ramadan is approaching near! It is somewhere in this July. Considerably a month and half from now on. Oh yeah! Can't wait. I miss Ramadan, and with His kindness I am hoping to be able to meet with this year Ramadan. InsyaAllah.

Al-Baqarah:185

Sahih International

The month of Ramadhan [is that] in which was revealed the Qur'an, a guidance for the people and clear proofs of guidance and criterion. So whoever sights [the new moon of] the month, let him fast it; and whoever is ill or on a journey - then an equal number of other days. Allah intends for you ease and does not intend for you hardship and [wants] for you to complete the period and to glorify Allah for that [to] which He has guided you; and perhaps you will be grateful.

 Presentation MS on 1st of June.

MS exam is on 4th of June.

Biology P1 is on 13th of June.

Allah permudahkan =)

Kak Cik's birthday is on 2nd of June while Kak Yong's is on 12th of June.

Gotta to think of gifts to be bought.

See u soon!

My bad

Status: I had a wrongdoing. To a person. Whom  I do not like much but for no reason. So, it reversed to become my fault. And I admit it. 

We can not choose the person that we are willing to work with. It is not an option. So, why sighed? Why questioned? Do you have the privilege to condemn? Why are you being so picky? Why?

*melancholic tone

Dreamed library at home. Fulfill it for me please!

Fortune cookie

Bismillah. 

I have a dream, when I was a little girl. I dreamed to own a cute, calming, sweet little wooden house on a tree. Every evening, I looked below the tree and called upon the cute animals which were white rabbits, tiny birds, and  hamsters. Those animals could talk and they accompanied me all day long. We sang and I prepared for them breakfast. We went to the garden in the middle of the forest and admiring the colorful flowers. We laid on the greenery field and watched the blue clouds floating away. 

Hand-made wooden house.

Once upon a time, there was a poor handsome man, wearing an old, brown-in-color shirt,  knocking my door. He asked me "Why are you here?" I said "Young man, this is my house" Then he replied, "Stop talking nonsense! Wake up, and study girl!"

Fine, I awoke. Happy? ^^

Gambo takde kaitan. Heh.

Day 9: Exigency On the Go

Status: Facebook is a triumphal place for you to waste time without you realising it or not. I knew it for such a long long time ago. But pretend to be an ignorant is who I am. Haizz.

28th it is people. Two days more to enter a new year. I hate it, it is not like I am being a disgraceful kid here. It is you know, when times fly you are getting older. When you are getting older, you include yourselves into many responsibilities. That's make you more matured. Then, hello adults, goodbye teens. What we can do are just live. Live with no regrets, make everyday special. Cherish every single moment in your life.

I had a chat with Kema, my besties, classmate, dormmate, prefect-board mate. Just now. We talked about how we miss school so much. How are we now, differ from who we are during our school-girls time. And we knew, we changed. As for me myself, at Ky, I do not talk much. When I said, not much, I really do. I told my besties about it, and they are just like, "Sejak bila mu jadi pemalu??!" Concisely speaking, aq tak suddenly evolve jadi pemalu but aq teramat kurangkan ke'frequent'an berbual and approach people. Inferiority complex. Maybe.

2012 approaching near. I will sit for my AS exam, so do Syafirie at KDU. Only two of us out of  22 my former classmates who took Cambridge A-level, And and and also Ramzi. Totally forgot about him. Most of  my friends took Edexcel . So yeah. Gonna put my focus up high. That's what Cikgu Ramli always taught me. No matter how many times I slept during his class. 

I got an invitation to attend a so-called class reunion tomorrow. Macam lama sangat laa terpisah kan semuanya? Feel very lazy but I really want to meet my friends. Especially would be damn busy next year. All of us. 

This is only my lame analogy:

If you feel comfortable to be with somebody or you like someone, you would be very likely want to talk to him so bad rite? *I use 'him' because I'm a girl. Example, why am I watching  Sony Lifestyle TV Magazine? I am not a gadget-lover of course, they are pricey I told ya. If is not for Oli Pettigrew, I wouldn't watch it. Misbehavior again. Apa kaitan dengan reunion? Off topic much.

Cehh, off to go. Banyak plak merapu for this post. Bai.

P/s: frust arsenal draw dengan wolves. bersemangat jer aq tengok.

Day 5: Eve

The krismes eve. Am I not going to celebrate it. Like d-uhhhh.

Just wanna say that lots of cool movies on air tonight. Temptations here they come.

Gambo takder kaitan. But these kids are so cute dohhhh.

I am gonna do my work. Started to cringe rite know. Holidays are about to end. Yeah, I know that for sure. Suffice saying, I am a pathetic kid who are so afraid of growing up. I watch cartoons so that I think that I never leave childhood. Back to my sense, 2011 almost end *very close I tell ya and I will be 19 next year. The closure of all teenage years. 

*I am being dramatic and talking gibberish nowadays. Just ignore.

BTW, Greg Sulkin why so hot? And he is British. Arrrghhhhhh.