Monday, May 12, 2014

I believe

Even someone who is so focus, can get out of line.
Why?
because along the way she forgot the reason why she stepped in the first place.
She forgot why she is here.
She forgot why she really want this before.
She forgot why she was very hardworking.
She closed her eyes.

Then, her eyes were sealed. 
She can't see the past. And the future.
She can't get her feet on the ground.
Because she was afraid to stand up.
She was afraid she might fall.
So she decided to sit.
Waiting for someone to lend a hand.

She waited and waited.
After so many days and months passed,
no one even bother to take her hand.

She thought of doing something.
"Maybe anyone around me didn't know that I need helps"
So, she shouted.
Out loud.
So that someone would hear it.

Until one day,
she was about to give up,
Someone came.
He whispered, 
"I'd been watching you from afar for too long"
He took her hands, and guided her to the destination.

Before He let her hands go,
He said,
"If you need anything, just anything,
look for me, 
I'll be there.
I'll will always watch over you"

"So, don't be discouraged and don't be sad, 
when you are among the Believers"


p/s: Counting days for Ramadan. May Allah lead us to the holy month insyaAllah.

Saturday, May 10, 2014

After-exam talk

Wihuuuu~

One more paper to go!



Hari tu, aku scroll balik posts lama, bosan gila aku ni sebenarnya.
Most of my posts aku cakap pasal exams, asal aku post entry baru ja, mesti aku nak exam/tengah exam etc.
Mengakulah Syifa, ko nerd kan? Hahaha

Tapi kan the main reason why banyak post aku banyak pasal exams sebab masa nak exam lah aku tiba-tiba rajin nak buat semua benda walhal study tak habis-habis lagi. Masa nak exam lah aku menggatal nak menaip kat blog, tangan gatal ja nak berfacebook messenger dengan rakyat jelata, nak vacuum satu rumah, dan membasuh semua baju yang lansung tidak bersalah di dalam almari dan nak menghabiskan cerita korea sebanyak 16 episod dalam satu hari.
Syaitonirojim semua tu. hailaa..

teachingliteracy:

(by Caroline VB.)

Imam.
What is Imam? Define Imam.
(Mohon semua still tidak panas bontot)
Banyaklah kan dari segi falsafah dan bahasa mengikut kamus dewan bahasa dan pustaka semua tu.
Tapi dari sudut aku adalah orang yang mengetuai, those who lead.

Dulu, masa darjah dua kan, aku sekolah sesi petang. So, pergi sekolah pukul 12.50pm dan waktu zohor masuk pukul 1 lebih macam tu, so, aku selaku anak didikan Pasti Al Ahmadi Kg Cherang, akan menggulung kain telekung lalu disumbatkan ke dalam beg untuk dibawa ke sekolah. Kemain telekung nak yang sulam bagai, tak nak kalah dengan anak Cik Piah tukang jahit uolls. Ok nak dijadikan cerita, kami akan pergi ke musolla sekolah untuk solat zohor. Since masa subjek PAI ustazah cakap solat berjemaah dapat pahala banyak, kami pon nak lah mempraktikkannya, gila kau tak nak pahala banyak? tapi masa nak pilih Imam, kami semua blurr, sapa yang patut jadi Imam? Maka rakyat marhaen pon sebulat suara bersepakat, "Syifa! Mu jadi imam lah. Mu kan dapat nombor satu periksa hari tu!"

Dan aku pon dengan mendabik dada menyahut seruan menjadi imam kepada rakan-rakan se'batch' tahun dua pada ketika itu. Dengan alasan aku paling layak jadi Imam sebab aku dapat nombor satu dalam kelas. O yeah. To think about it, even kids know how to pick the leader (bukan nak brag. sumpah bukan bragging)
Even for pure and innocent minds, they chose a leader based on knowledge. Get it? Kenapa orang yang nombor satu yang layak jadi imam? Sebab dia paling berpengetahuan. So, a leader should be someone who knows thing, the most matured of all and dalam konteks lebih dewasa, orang yang paling arif dalam sesuatu bidang kerja. We don't randomly pick anyone to become leaders because a leader will lead the whole organisation. Rosak leader, rosak lah followers. Simple.

So makin dewasa ni (gituh) semakin faham betapa pentingnya seorang ketua dan betapa beratnya beban seorang ketua. Kenapa? Ramai orang boleh menyalahkan ketua jika berlaku ketidakadilan di hadapan Allah swt nanti. And if I am a leader, I can't imagine to even think about what am I going to say to Him. 

Natijahnya, jika sekarang orang nak pick aku jadi Imam solat fardu, terus aku dapat rasakan adrenaline rush dalam badan aku yang memang dup dap dup dap, kadang-kadang rasa dapat tachycardia. Kalau boleh aku akan menolak jika adanya orang yang lagi layak menjadi Imam. That is my personal opinion lah. Sebab aku takut dengan amanah. Sangat. Nak jaga Amanah Rakyat yang satu ni pun ketaq lutut cek apatah lagi nak menjaga yang lagi tinggi yakni amanah Allah. 


Astargfirullah. Mari istighfar ramai-ramai.

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Miss me not

Missing you.

I miss the time when I woke up where the only thing in my mind was 'Am I too late for Dragonball?'
I miss the time when I waited for after Asar, so that i can go to the field, met up with neighbors, and start to play hide-and-seek, polis sentri, lompat getah and so many more traditonal games.

And today, the frequent thing that came to my thought after I woke up was 'I haven't finish studying yet'

So nerd.

I will never define myself as a nerd because I know so many things outside the circle of my course (not sure whether it is good or bad)  Well, the main point is, I said I wanted to update blog more frequent yet I never manage to do so. *sorry peeps

I'm going to Italy on 14th of May. Mmmm,, I am not really excited because fears surpass everything.
I want to do well. Really well.. So that I have no regrets. Hate regrets.
And I am going to return home on 12th June. InsyaAllah.

I am going to move out from my current apartment by the end of this month. To where? A house of course!!
InsyaAllah, 56 Wilton Court, Cork.

I haven't finish studying for my Clinical Examination paper tomorrow. So I have to go now. 

Flowers at Blarney Castle. Spring 2014

Till then folks.
Miss me not.

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

LOL Hello all

Wow I can't believe that the last time I updated this blog was three months ago.
I guess what they say about Medic life was true after all.

How am I?
I am fine, really fine.
I start to love my life, my routines and my environment.
I am very sure that it will get tougher,
but hey I still alive am I =)

I got exams tomorrow.
Biochemistry and physiology. 
Pray for me will ya?

I will try my best to update this site again, hopefully soon.