Two Lovers

Walla

Assalamualaikum ^^

Mood: Eyes are still wide open as I slept for three hours during the day. So say hello to burn'en the midnight oil! 

Announcement:

There are four sport houses in Ky. Sapphire, Topaz, Garnet and Diamond. And I am a member of Sapphire. This very own weekend, all of the houses went  for the housetrips. Spideys to Avillion, Port Dickson. Diamonders to A famosa Resort in Malacca. Garnetrons to Tanjung Leman? And Topazian went to Pahang, I think. 

And I am still here, breathing, Alhamdulillah. Not goin' anywhere. In this verdant upland. So proud. Why? Don't ask.

I had been doing Maths for three hours and half. Still, tonnes of papers to be completed. Never felt tired of it. Maths was once my lover when I was in secondary school. Right now, I am so sorry. I have fallen in love with a more good-looking, complex but interesting, the 'sweetest' and romantic man of all. His name is Chemistry. You can call him as C. Oh wait. Too negative. Call him Chem. His last name is A*. 

Chem A*

How adorable.

How's trials? Well, as Maths got too jealous over Chem, he decided to pull his face and sulked. What I am doing right now, is trying to 'amik hati' and 'pujuk-memujuk' him back. And it's going to be the whole night. 

See, live is so hard when you have more than one lover. 

And I own four.

Chem, Maths, Bio, Psycho.

I try not to be bias. I do love all of them equally.

Disclaimer: Be loyal.

self-navigation

 Wednesday it is. Dinner tonight, chicken chop! How yeah.

Psychology paper 2 and Biology paper 1 trial tests tomorrow.

Stalk meja kiasu, yerr, bersepah saya tahu.

Fell in love? Love the real thing,  please. 

I had a story, to be shared, I use to have a symptom of 'approving-denial-syndrome' which is a kind of disorder that I experienced to avoid seeing a reality that fears me to death whenever I came across the the reality in my mind. The feeling of intimidating about a future that I have to go through. So, I kept it only in my mind, pretending that i have no idea about it. Errr,,, confusing huh?

It is distractions. Approving distraction in order to get rid of any possibilities of getting hurt or fear of the results or outcomes. Once the actual time came for you to face the denied reality that you had created, you cringe. I mean, I was. 

Giving up something the heart adores is one of the hardest battles we ever have to fight.

Get it? It is hard to let go. We,a normal human being. Loving too much things that we adore is a norm. Till the day or time, we need to let go, we feel terribly sad. Possessive. 

 As humans, we don’t deal well with emptiness. Any empty space must be filled. Immediately. The pain of emptiness is too strong. It compels the victim to fill that place. A single moment with an empty spot causes excruciating pain. That’s why we run from distraction to distraction, and from attachment to attachment.

 He is always be by our side. You too can feel it if you take time, or at least give your heart a chance to feel Him within us. He is there to guide. Don't be sad. La tahzan. Difficulties are just tests. Tests to make us stronger. The world is cruel by human's rule. But nothing is cruel or arduous by His rules. He is The Most Forgiving and Caring. Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim.

Why does that happen? Why do we have so much trouble sacrificing what we love for what God loves? Why can’t we just let go of things? I think we struggle so much with letting go of what we love, because we haven’t found something we love more to replace it.

I am more happy to share a link where you can read this magnificent article by Yasmin Mogahed

Fall in love with the REAL THING

 

Sahih International

[The time of] their account has approached for the people, while they are in heedlessness turning away.

Malay

Telah hampir datangnya kepada manusia hari perhitungan amalnya sedang mereka dalam kelalaian, tidak hiraukan persediaan baginya.
(Al-anbiya':1)

A simple reminder from the holy Quran. Are we ready to be there yet? Astargfirullah.

 Re-programming my navigation system (muhasabah diri) is what I am doing right now. InsyaAllah, improving to become better and better.

"Nabi tak pernah ajar umat baginda tentang 'sudah terlambat'. Kita tidak pernah terlambat. Jika esok kiamat, hari ini ada benih dalam tangan, tanam jer benih tersebut. Tiada masalah."

 ~Ustaz Don Danial~

Remember the words. It is never too late.

Pray for my success tomorrow. ^^

May Allah bless you.


p/s: Tadi dapat tahu ada gegaran gempa bumi di negara jiran, impaknya terasa sampai ke Malaysia, magnitud 8.9 katanya. Semoga kita semua dalam perlindungan Nya. Amin.

And I won't ask anything else

Need delicious coffee!

Realising

Umi, abah, Afa minta maaf.

Banyak yang berlaku minggu ni. 

Quotes

"if treasuring knowledge would be easy, heaven wont be its reward"
~kalau study itu senang, takkan syurga ganjarannya~

I asked Allah for all things that I might enjoy life.Allah said, No.I will give you life, so that you may enjoy all things.

I asked Allah to spare me pain.Allah said, No.Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me

Ujian bagi setiap manusia itu berbeza-beza. Mungkin kita fikir kita ini tidak bernasib baik, tapi adakah dalam semua perkara kita tidak bernasib baik.

Apa yang buat aku lebih berfikir sekarang adalah kasih sayang Allah terhadap hambanya tidak pernah berbelah bagi. Kita lupa, Dia ingatkan. Kita jatuh, Dia bangunkan. Tetapi semua kena ada keikhlasan dan kesabaran.

"Hanya dengan mengingati Allah, hati akan menjadi tenang"

Random thought:

Tak nak grow up. Nak duduk rumah ngan umi dan abah sampai bila-bila. Nak jaga mereka sebagaimana mereka jaga aku dari dulu sampai sekarang.

Tapi semua itu mustahil. 

Tak apalah. Kita berbakti la setakat mana yang kita mampu. 

Jalan menuju syurga itu indah walaupun kadang-kadang likunya berduri. Kena lah hadapi jugak kan. Ala, duri jer pun. Kat syurga nanti adalah ubatnya.

"Cinta dan enjoy apa yang kita lakukan. InsyaAllah, apa-apapun takkan terasa berat."

Sahih International

And We have enjoined upon man [care] for his parents. His mother carried him, [increasing her] in weakness upon weakness, and his weaning is in two years. Be grateful to Me and to your parents; to Me is the [final] destination.

 Sayang umi ngan abah sangat-sangat.