31st January

I wish there is one day where I am sitting in front of the beach at night, make a small campfire besides me, listening to the sea and wave, read a book till morning and wait for the sunrise.



p/s: This is a shout-out to my youngest brother, Happy Birthday Adik! Be a good head-boy (like your sister) and may you get 5A in UPSR this year. And please limit all your computer games, PSP, and Ipad stuffs. May Allah bless you. ^^

Random-talks

Bismillah.

Yesterday I made one post in fb about my dissatisfaction on how a person commented on me on a piece of junk paper, and you know what I am not the only person who got 'the sumpah-tak-boleh-blah comments'. There were few other members as well who also got that terribly-not-well-organise-harsh comments. Well said girl, you are so brave. I mean, if you have guts to comment like that on paper, I am sure you have no probs on talking one on one will ya? But no, I am not going to make a chaos out of this. Really, people are not as nice as they look like. The person who wrote 'it' might be the person who once sat beside me in Chemistry class. I am not pointing my finger to anybody, just saying. Only Allah knows.

Well well well,

I hate repaying hatred. So lets move on. As I attended Czech Republic medical school talk, I noticed that Czech wasn't bad after all. And the living cost there is not as high as Uk, like daaahhhh.... Only few who turned up at the talk, but I am getting a good insights through their briefings. But of course, I am crossing my fingers to Ireland, if the God permits.

My conversation with Abah was always interesting. My Abah is a kind of man who is very fond of gadgets. I called Abah just now, and guess what, he has had a new Iphone 5. Jealous. Haha. Well-updated Abah. And I am just like a mak nenek babbling through the phone, "Ya Allah, bukea ko ado doh handpon, beli pulok wak gaponyo? Eeee,,, banyok pitih weh datuk ni..." And the rest was history. And one sad news was, I called home and my Umi just went to Langkawi for 4-days meeting and next week I will return home for chinese-new-year break but unfortunately my parents will off to Labuan. I is sad. haha..

Till then folks, 

I have to study. Chem and Maths. Tests are on Friday. Bye.

Considerate

Bismillah

Sometimes when I wrote post on my blog, I always think of what will the readers react when they read my blog if I wrote badly about anyone specific. That is not so nice rite? 

Then, I am thinking of how can anyone put such harsh words on somebody when you know that the 'letter' will be sent to the person?

It is just unbelievable. I mean, come on Syifa, this is reality, there are many types of people. Some can be expressive, some can be very proper and kind.

And the one kind of letter that I received from '**' evaluation feedback, was not so nice. And it was even more saddening when I knew the person who wrote the letter is one of my friends (.. I think so)  I mean come on (again), do you think people will not notice it's your handwriting?

Well, I live in a mannered-family. And although I grew up knowing there are lots of different attitudes of human in high school, in this case, you just being impolite. How ashamed. I did agree to the written points given to me, but somehow, can you at least be more considerate? Pick the more gentle words yet still delivering the message, is that so hard? I am sad. Sad. Sad.

And please, if you do not know a person, don't judge. Just say, I do not know much about you. That's all.

Or else, you will be punish for making fitnah and creating stories. 

Pardon my emotional post.

Grow up

Bismillah.

Sometimes I felt stupid when I get mad or "tercuit' over a small thing. Because I do not always behave like that but when I do, something has really come up. And it was very funny how to act when you want people notice the change in your behavior. Dang. *pinky cheek* Grow up weh, grow up.

But one good thing about me, when I get mad, it is not last for too long. Probably today, if I get mad over someone, tomorrow I am okay with it. The probability is 95% well if you are my kawan. Just let me sleep people. And everything will recover to my full HP up.  I always hope that nobody will ever make a big deal of my stupidity and turn up at my room to apologize. I feel more and more embarrassed about my behavior.

Selepas tu mesti fikir, "Apa aku dah buat tadi... Bodohnya bodohnya..."

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation? 
You build up hope, but failures all you've known. 
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go. 
Let it go.

And in a burst of light that blinded every angel 
As if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
You felt the gravity of tempered grace
Falling into empty space 
With no one there to catch you in their arms.

But at least I do not get too carried away over emotions. It just don't suit me. Huh. Syifa is not a girlish, 'tacing-tacing' and  'sulking-sulking' kinda girl. Rosak coolness. Sumpah rosak.

Forgive and forget. I choose to forgive.

P/s: Someone had grabbed away my respect. For so long, I 'd always look up to X. Somehow X was not as ''good'' as I thought. Well, X had shown her true color. Irritating and judgmental.