Once being FRIEND, forever WILL BE...

<ASSALAMUALAIKUM>

recently being at home, it really does keep me as a dull girl... (not only JACK a dull boy)

seriously, I have being such a lazy girl who prefer sitting on the couch instead of doing some

beneficial activities... can  you guys imagine??

well, I am not trying to provoke that I was such a hardworking person before..

It just that it's getting more worse since it has being a really long time... being at home..

the schedule, totally CHANGED! and I am not so happy with it...............

okay, let's move on to the topic.. 

for 18 years I've been living on this so-called  momentary paradise,

I definitely have made lots of wonderful friends...

since kindergarten , primary school, high school, outdoor activities..

to tell the truth, LOTS OF THEM!!

throughout this whole journey, there' ll always HELLOs and GOODBYEs...

those are the things that we absolutely have to admit!

lately I've being thinking that there are no delete or erase in friendships..

once a person is a friend, forever he/she will always be...

am I right???

just think about it... a friend is not something that you can delete no matter how

much the person change... we cant desire a person to be like we want..

because all of us have gone through different, tremendous of experiences..

there... time change us based on what we experience..

nowadays, I met lots of my old fellas.. some of them change to benefits and 

some are not... some of them become more elegant, outgoing.. some are getting

more educated, nerdy, down to earth... some are tend to talk more than used to be..

for me, I don't mind  whether my friends are changing character or not..

It is just the same... as long as they always recognize me as their friend, 

..THAT IS MORE THAN ENOUGH.

I am not the one who judge a pal based on the personal look..

because,,, seriously, it is their own choice.. if they are so comfortable with

themselves, who are we to interrupt ???

we are not always besides them in this world, how can we bother

to complaint lots about it? just be grateful that you have friends..

don't be so arrogant as nobody's perfect...

take it, or leave it... don't even bother to complaint..

so the advise is here...

accept your friend for real...

once you learn to appreciate, for good others will do the same..

friends are gifts... handle them with care..

once broken, it's hard to get it back..

I LOVE YOU ALL MY FRIENDS!

Bersalahnyerrr.....

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...
mood: xbermaya


weip!!! aq ada nak buat confession niee... dngar smua.. ( mksud aq.. baca smua..)
ari ni kan... aq pergi p'jumpaan PBSM... b'sama2 Mcyam tanpa Nisaa...
ni first time aq kuar meronda2 ke jalan raya dngan motor..
takowt gak.. wlaupon aq dah ade lsen yg sah.. hahaha
hati aq x tenteram mimikirkan reaksi KHIDIR yg merangkap bos PBSM  aq laa kan..
sbenarnye aq dah lmer x pegi meeting ni.. sibuk plus xder transport plus kehujanan
lately... MAAF KAN SAYER...


aq dah jadi serba salah... talking about commitment laa kan.. aq memang dah lack of it..
mula2 aq join benda neh... dengan full of enthusiasm aq volunteer nak join...
skang neh... aq rser x layak... xcukup bagus ntuk b'tugas b'sama dorang...
seyes aq cakap... aq rser so lucky getting to know Mila, Khidir, Hasni sahabat primary school aq,
they all memang happening gler....


walaupon korang sumer memang xkan baca blog aq neh....
seyes aq cakap... TERIMA KASIH for the great moments....
I may not good enough to commit... bukan aq x maw tpi aq xley nak janji n btol2
commit to the schedule laa... SORRY korang... btol dngan penuh  keikhlasan
di hati aq memohon kemaafan...
truly, aq xpenah x rser b'salah bila aq skip the meeting...
percaya rr...


aq harap sangat korang akan bacer post aq neh... huhu (m'harap jer rr)
sebab aq nak korang taw yg aq so damn quilty about it...
terutama nya Khidir... maaf rr bos!
psal korang nak amek gmbar tuh, aq skli ag mintak ampun....
I'm not the person who is so into the camera...
aq bab2 b'gambar ni,memang aq failed! korang sumer cantekk beb!
haha... bukan aq xnak tpi... sorry, spoiled ur guys nyer mood...


to Mila: enjoy knal ngan awak ... harap kter keep in touch ek!
to Hasni: ko kawan aq smpai mati... best fren till end.. tq ajak sy join PBS neh,, a
I owed you so much!! thanx hun!
ntuk Yam ngn Nisa: korang memang knal aq sngat2 laa kan... we talk about this when we meet soon..


the problem is here, it is not anyone's fault, if I have to give much clearer
reason, I rather blame all of it on my side...
it is my fault that I am the one who cant give full commitments..
till I ends up to be such a troublemaker for you guys...
to tell the truth, I cant spill all of this to you guys...
as I am not having the courage... Yet, I am so sorry...


Post aq kali ni seyes aq cakap, aq b'trus terang....
sooner or later aq kena britahu gak kan? but I choose to let you guys know dalam ni
it may be not sincere enough... because macam aq x beritahu sndiri..
tapi insyaallah, aq akan sentiasa harap korang jadik volunteer yg b'tauliah.
have fun, no worries, enjoy the duty!! okey!


mmmm... moga2 korang faham.. 
aq amik ksempatan neh, nak wish Happy Birthday to Pejo, my best buddy..
smoga ko pnjang umur...


CAW!!

Yeah!!! I've got my LICENCE!

SALAM SATU MALAYSIA!!

hehehe... dngan mlihat jer title post aq kali pon, aq rser korang konfem faham..

I were up at ease right now!!! oh yeah!!

akhirnya, slepas lama aq b'korban masa n tenaga...

aq dah berjaya m'dpatkan lesen2 yg aq craved for..hahahaha

adoi.. double test.. and I were so glad that I manage to get them both..

Alhamdulillah..

nak dijadikan cter rr kan, ari ni ari AHAD bersamaan dengan 20 JAN 2011

aq ke pjabat cekgu memandu aq seawal kul 8 pagi

aq dah t'pacak kat ctu.. ( dgn b'smangatnya.. hoho)

then aq ke Akademi Memandu KIST kat Bachok..

yes, aq pegi buat test motor dlu!

b'debar nak mampos.. hahaha

aq b'nombor 33 sesi yang kedua pd pkul 10.30!

yer saya! melaporkan diri!! hehehe

~ ntuk korang nyer info laa kan, aq bawak my own helmet

coz helmet kat akademi tuuu.. MASYAALLAH busukkk!!!!~

jadi, nsehat aq  korang yg nak test motor tuu bawak2 rr helmet sendiri yer!

aq suka sngat pegi klas mmandu ni..

sebab aq dah buat rmai kwan.. even ketemu smula sama kwan lama..

Cdah, Akak, Kak Nabila, Teh, Amani, Nadia,

Norsyah, Zenn, Syafiq, n so on..

gonna miss you guys.. 

 

okey rr, mula2 aq cter kat uolls, waktu aq tunggu my turn for motorsikal nyer test kan,

aq dop tepi sorang mamat nih.. oleh krn, kami

tunggu nyer lmer gler.. smpai aq pon dah t'sengguk2 dah..

mamat tu ketuk helmet aq lalu b'kata

" weh, kjut aq taw bila smpai turn! aq nak tdow ni, dah 

ngantuk gler thap babun"

blom smpat aq m'beri apa2 respon, lalu nak mnoleh ke arah

mamat tu, DYER DAH TDOW!

adoii... bila smpai jer turn aq, ckg Rizal hnya panggil hingga no aq jer

aq x ingat nak kjutkan si mamat tuh..hahaha

sori rr weh, aq dah xingat apa2 dah asal sluruh jantung jer b'bunyi..

gabra gler..

alhamdulillah.. aq buat yang t'baek skali  dan dgan yakin nyer..

lpas aq buat tu aq trus ke pondok jpj..

lpas tngop jer yg aq LULUS, ingin jer aq lompat2 kegirangan..hehehe

ltey taw tak? dah rr cekgu Hakim cpat2 suh aq ke tmpat test kreta plak

yer rr kan, tkowt plak aq t'lpas turn..

Saya calon bernombor 39, mlaporkan untuk diuji encik!

"Oi awak berangan aper tu?? cepat hantar borang awak ni kat pondok JPJ sana!"

jerit ckgu Rizal... hahaha smpat lak aq berangan..

blom sempat aq duduk b'istirahat kat atas krusi kat tmpat mnuggu kreta..

NO 39, SILA KE KERETA 9 SEKARANG!

aper nih?? aq xduduk ag.. ltey pon xhilang ag nih..

rse nak BOM jer pondok JPJ kat atas bukit tuh!!!

dngan spantas kilaynyer aq ke kreta b'nombor 9 tuu

okey2.. bertenang2..

check mirrors, rapatkan seat, seatbelt okey,

aper ag eh?? okey rr, jlan!!!

weh, apsal x gerak ni?? orang jpj kat atas tu

dah laung "weh cik adik!! cpat sket.. rmai ag nak buat ni!!"

oooo.... nanty dlu... knapa xgerak neh??

oo,, rupanya aq x jatuh kan handbrake.. hahaha

okey tkan minyak, naek bukit!

kat bukit plak, xleh turun plak.. 

punya aq b'gelut kat ats tu,,, akhirnya aq b'jaya mlepasi task bukit!

OH YEAH!!

then, yang parking nyer, ngan task 3 penjuru pon aq wat ngn baek skali..

mnuju ke task bhagian 3 JALAN RAYA..

harap2 dpat pak cik JPJ yang sportim... PLEASE...  

skali nama aq di "announce" ntuk naek kreta no 15..

blom msok ag,, aq dah nmpak bukan pak cik, tapi ABANG JPJ

b'kaca mata hitam, dngan unifom nyer..

fuuuyooo... t'ganggu concentration aq neh..

hensem lak tuu.. hahahaha

ulat bulu dah naek badan dah,,

bila aq sedia ntuk diuji,, aq tnya Abang JPJ tuh, 'boleh sy mula encik?"

beliau mengangguk...

"saya nak awak memandu ngan YAKIN, PANTAS  dan STEADY"

kata Abang JPJ tu..

mak oii, tegas nyer... mula2 bawak kreta tu, b'gegar dan kelam kabut sket..

dngan lantang " AWAK NI BLEH BAWAK KRETA KE???"

aq t'diam lalu  b'kata.. "Insyaallah.."

dlam hati aq bagai sluran darah t'sumbat dah...

sampai aq hmpir t'lpas tmpat U-TURN...

cik abang tuh dah naek suara dah..

"wei, wei.. kat cni lorongnyer.. KHAYAL KE???"

aq hanya t'sengih bak kerang busuk..

aper2 pon aq b'jaya dan LULUS!!!

hehehe.. agak mnarik laa... well, trima kasih kat abang garang tuh..

kini aq dah dapat 

LESEN P

ntuk motorsikal n kereta.. hehehe

utmost gratitude aq nak ucapkan buat cekgu2 aq

yang rmai giler2.. dalam merealisasikan lesen aq.. hehehe

~ ckg Cek Hasyim, ckg Mansor, ckg Yie, ckg Rizal

ckg Hakim, ckg Ivy n xlupa my beloved ABAH~

        

 KLIK!


p/s: Actually I kinna feel like deleting this post because I see the immature side of me in this post. However, I cancel it due to respect of remembrance that I once was a childish-thinking like girl. And that is a good thing. Updated 16/6/2012

Bila Hati tak Bersyukur....

ASSALAMUALAIKUM


Aq sdey campur malu plus nak nyorok bawah meja darab nak
hantuk2 kepala kat dinding...
serius aq cakap...


gini cter nyer tdi...
lpas aq balek drpd driving class, aq ke rumah best fren aq, Fadhlin 
xjauh mana dari umah aq... lepak2 rr konon..
kat umah Falin tu aq ada men2 ngan fon aq..
xder laa kan.. reply2 mesej kengkawan..
Falin nyer kawan nmenya Farah pon ade skali..
tibe2 aq t'kuar cakap " xsuker rr fon neh.. function ciput.."
pastu tngah2 borak, fon aq jatuh ke lantai...
aq t'diam... rser cam xsedap hati jer...
Falin ngan Farah cakap dalam nada b'guraw
" tengok! tu rr kate x suke sangat.. kan dah jatuh..."
aq dngan selamba ag xnak admit " biar rr jatuh, bukan bez pon.. hahaha"
dalam hati mser tu.. adrenalin dah cover sumer lapisan badan aq ni..


aq pom balik rr rumah aq lpas tu..
hati cam dup dap dup dap...
seyes aq xthu knapa...
bila aq msok jer bilik aq..
fon aq skali ag jatuh.. dan aq tngok inner screen
fon aq dah pecah...
waaaaaaaaa....
sdey gler... aq panik dah.. memang fon tu dah jadik gtu dah..
fon tu abah aq yang kasi.. aq xnafikan aq ni xcerewet sngat
psal fon ni.. asal bleh col, hntar mesej dah cukup..


bler aq fikir dalam2 kan... aq rser He want to show me something..
semenjak-menjak ni aq t'amat laa lalai..
plus aq amat laa sikit bersyukur..
He prove me that,, when I was making space between me and Him,
He really wants me to come back..
It had been so long since I was lost..
lost on my own path which I thought to be better..
ASTARGHFIRULLAH...


 

aq dah waste bnyak gler mase for something yang did not even worth  it..
aq lupa saper aq.. dan apa yang aq patut buat..
setiap hari aq hdop.. I was blessed by so much rezeki..
tapi aq randomly felt grateful to them..


bila rezeki ditarik.. mula laa rasa susah..
paling teruk, nak blame orang len..
bila Allah s.w.t tarik sket jer rezeki aq..
fon rosak.. aq dah rser t'amat lah susah..
but for things yang aq dah buat silap.. aq deserve dapat
punishment... tapi aq xpenah lupa.. bahawasanya
ALLAH s.w.t itu Maha Penyayang lagi Maha Pengampun..
SUBHANALLAH...


Hidup ni xlamer... kejap jer...aq pon dah 18tahun hidup..
tapi masih b'gelumang ngan dosa2..
penah aq fikir.. :" Adakah aq dah b'sedia nak menemui
Si Pencipta...Adakah cukup amalan2 aq...?"
kita xthu bila kita akan dipanggilkan?? aq harap aq bleh btol2
improve ibadat aq.. ntuk korang sumer..
jadikan cter aq sbg pedoman.. mungkin nampak cam kcil jer
kjadian dan dugaan aq neh.. tapi cuba tnya diri korang balik..
"Adakah aku perlu tunggu ujian yang besar dan perit baru dapat 
membuatkan aq sedar dan insaf??"
NAUZUBILLAH>>





maksud:


ayat 5: Maka sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan ada kemudahan
ayat 6: Sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan ada kemudahan


hayatilah... aq mungkin bukan lah seorang yang arif tentang tafsir..
tapi insyaallah ilmu yang aq ada adlh untuk dikongsi..


wallahualam...